Why Do I Get So Happy (LIKE BANGING MY HEAD HAPPY) And Then Like LOCK IN

ISTG CASS KEEPS BLENDING WITH ME. LEAVE ALONE.

i hear her louder... she's trying to take over the body, no wonder the whole days ive been feeling confused...

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(image is me feeling blurry ALL DAY and cass blending with me.)

JASON (💥) COME BACK... ive noticed lots of things i need you to deny!! /lh lick lick 👅

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https://pronouns.cc/@grrarrgg

We're endo neu.

Radqueers, racists, transids, homo/transphobes, anti-therian/furry/alterhumans DNI.

Don't force us into syscourse. We don't want to hear it. Tips and resources are welcomed.

This is OUR blog. So we're going to somewhat use this to log symptoms while also doing other shit so this blog will be random.

Sometimes I refer to myself as we/us

Symptoms we have: here

intro being reworked

Whoever is praying for my downfall has got to stop because shit is working

i like the idea that red hood is to crime alley what daredevil is to hell's kitchen in the dd comics. in the way that:

Jason: *in full red hood gear, walking through an alley* homeless man next to him: hey, todd. how's patrol? jason: *grinning under his helmet* i don't know if you need new glasses---or maybe a memory boost, jimmy---but the todd kid is dead. i, obviously, am not. homeless man: *snickers* yeah sure, sure, jason

Jason: *walking down the street in civvies* passerby: hey! hood! i have some info for you, drug deal goin' on 'round the docks jason: *raises brow* yeah? well, i ain't hood . . . but i'll take that info to him if ya want. he patrols near my apartment passerby: you keep tellin' yourself that, dude

batman: have you seen the criminal Red Hood? crime alley resident: *lighting a cigarette, making continual eye contact with batman* I'm blind. haven't seen anyone batman: *examines the woman* obviously not. you can see me just fine crime alley resident: ya ain't ever heard of selective vision impairment? it's totally a thing batman:

little girl: hey, hood. th' cops were lookin' fer ya jason: hmm. what did ya tell 'em? little girl: t' stick it where th' sun don't shine jason: *high-fives her* i'm going to buy you an entire toy store, kid

we're a questioning system. but pretty much yeah, we have like mild aphantasia and we don't have a headspace since we very much cannot see it

We've also done research on this as well, and there have been multiple (confirmed) systems who say that they don't have a headspace due to having aphantasia as well

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Hi, I have a question about systems! If you or an alter has aphantasia, where you can't picture things in your mind, can you still see your headspace?

Thats actually a good question!! We wouldn't really know since none of us have aphantasia ^^"

hi other systems anyone with have experience with this?

took a while, i finally remembered what happened, but it's very hazy.

-💥

😟 i can't remember anything from yesterday other than when Cass came out to our friend and then I switched and got mad. But this is bad because we have a collective-memory. Why don't I remember anything from when I wasn't switched? I only remember a bit of what Habit did a couple days ago (play guitar hero... he SUCKED ASS AT IT)

This is genuinely worrying, where did the memories go?

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lil vent

we're so scared of being fake, fakeclaiming ourselves on a daily basis. what if we're actually not a system? we switch way too often and get blurry+blended even more. Sharing memories, and not having drastic switches is making us go crazy. We have hardly any barriers between each other so it gets really hard to differentiate each other plus we have terrible memory, so it could just be that we genuinely don't remember something rather than have emotional amnesia

we can't even really remember our trauma completely either

Jason(💥) is actually aware of this issue, he thinks it's funny at times, other times he's unsure of how he feels about this

-🪳

"Damian accidentally reveals Jason is alive" except Bruce and Dick got therapy and are having a heart to heart about their Jason hallucinations:

Bruce: *stoically fighting tears* He follows me around reminding me that it was my fault he died...

Damian: Ah yes, he does ramble often about how Batman failed him. Pathetic.

Bruce:

Dick:

Dick: Dami? You hallucinate him too?

Damian:

Damian: ... yes... hallucinate...

Jason should have come back to the manor post-lazarus pit and revealed himself as Jason Todd but not told the rest of the family that he’s also Red Hood. can you imagine how fucking funny that would be.

Nightwing: honestly! my family is fucking INSANE! i swear the only good one is my little brother, he died and came back and decided to ditch the vigilante life.

Red Hood: oh shit really?

Nightwing: honestly probably the smartest one out of all of us, he’s reading in bed while we’re all out here on stakeouts!

Red Hood: interesting. tell me more about how this brother is the best of all of you.

~

Red Hood: so what are you guys getting the smart handsome not-vigilante brother for Christmas?

Nightwing, Red Robin, and Robin:

~

Batman: now i need all of you to have an equal share in the clean up-

Red Hood: yeah sorry, you aren’t MY dad, so i’m gonna dip. have fun cleaning!

the funniest part is when Dick and Tim decide that since Red Hood and Jason are so similar and Red Hood CLEARLY seems to like what he hears about Jason, that they should try to set the two up.

Jason, calling Roy at 4am: i need you in Gotham within the next hour so you can dress up as Red Hood and we can pretend that I’m sleeping with myself.

Roy:

Roy: i’m gonna get caught sneaking out of your bedroom with lipstick on your helmet

Jason: this is gonna be the funniest thing we’ve ever done.