I Wish You Would Come Back To Me Please Come Back To Me

I wish I was beautiful to you

I’m going to beat myself until I fuck myself up and piss blood

Why the fuck is it that you can move on and not care anymore and why is it not me why the fuck do I still have to suffer with caring about you why do I still care why are you just okay with being evil I try so fucking hard to forget about you and pray on your downfall I just want to move on why can you move on but I can’t this shit is just so unfair

I want to relapse over and over and over again I don’t know why I don’t I just want to fucking die

Have you ever thought that the reason those people you thought were “ride-or dies” or “day 1s” fall out with you because you’re the problem? Have you ever fucking taken accountability in your stupid fucking life ever? Absolutely not, you’re just an innocent esoteric victim who just has so much love for the world right. Fucking lol.

Maybe you deserve to lose those friends. You Definitely lost me. I enjoy leading You on though because I think you deserve a false sense of security and maybe one day I could just crush you. I don’t Know about that either honestly, if you were caught on fire I wouldn’t even piss on you. I’d enjoy the show.

It really is all your fault. If anyone is the weird one it’s you. Maybe get a personality besides a poor esoteric mysterious shithead and maybe people could actually tolerate you instead of pretending to tolerate you. I’m glad you know I’ve distanced away, but don’t you dare blame it on me. Maybe if you were actually likable and not an annoying cunt people would genuinely like you instead of pretending to care about you. Let’s face it: nobody ACTUALLY likes you. But I don’t know what people would want out of someone as worthless as you, either.

Do the world a favor.

Everything just hurts

It's all my fault I've ruined my own life and now I have to deal with it and instead of taking accountability like a man I'm threatening suicide like a pussy and this is why I don't deserve to live and why I should be killed I am actually so evil I’m not kind I’m not nice I’m not thoughtful I am actually genuinely so evil

I still love you so much I’m sorry please come back I’m about to snap and beg you to come back I love you so much I’m sorry please forgive me I’m so sorry I miss you so fucking much I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

I miss you so much im sorry that j was the way I was I’d change for you I promise I would please just let me back into your life I love you I miss you I’m sorry

Maybe Hell is real but at least me rotting in the flames would be better than what’s happening to me right now