I'm Guessing That I've Grown Horns

Update.

Thanks for all the kind words.. I’m alright. Nothing too bad happened and im recovering. Im just.. really tired. Life is.. not so great right now. And it doesn’t look like im going to be getting the help i need anytime soon so.. I just have to try and stay alive until something goes right i guess.

Truthfully.. I dont feel love for you in my heart anymore. Not in the same way. It makes me so sad. I mourn the death of my happiness. I buried it alive and smothered it to death in graveyard dirt. But... I dont want to love you anymore. You were too much of a pain to my soul. It wasn’t meant to be. I was merely clinging to fallout. You were my whole world, but the planet that was us is gone and now im floating aimlessly through space without a meaning to my life anymore. Maybe I will find a new planet.... maybe I’ll be hit by a comet. We’ll just have to see I guess.

HI THE VOID SYSTEM SENT THIS TO ME AND I LOVE IT AND GOT 2 BINGOS

nobody//anybody

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How to cope with being alone at home and paranoid

These are methods that help -> me <- not immediately go into full “terrible things are about to happen” panic mode

Im lowkey making this post to distract myself from being alone at home and paranoid but anyway

Call someone, even if its just making a doctors appointment or stuff like that. Consider a mental health line even when you’re not having a meltdown the whole experience is very distracting

If its during the day, open some windows and listen to life going on outside of your isolation chamber

Listen to some fun podcasts, mbmbam is my life and distracts me from incoming feelings of dread

Since you probably already thought of the worst possible outcome, try to think of the best possible outcome and come to the conclusion that probably neither is going to happen and that this day is going to be like any other day because nothing EVER happens

Dont watch that scary video

Dont do it

I swear to god

If you’re going to be alone the entire day and night, make a strict routine for that day so you’re going to be too distracted for fear

Sit in the sun, take a hot bath, put an icecube on your forhead, seek out sensory stimuli, but dont hurt yourself

Look for a pet, pet that pet

If you got stuff like “okay but did I REALLY lock the door?” over and over again ,visualise the memory of you locking the door in your mind and check in your mind reality instead of your meat reality

Make a post about your coping mechanisms because maybe they could help someone who knows

This sudden ‘nazi’ drama is really stupid. I don’t even believe @decayplush​ is even a real nazi. They just actually want the abuse you guys are sending them because they are mentally unwell and thrive off that. That is literally so obvious. Look at the way their whole blog flow changed when they realized the more they could offend the more negative abuse they get. If you even look at their archive they only posted like one photo, and that got attention and they realized they could use that to feed whatever abusive crave they have and are using it to get their fix. They probably don’t even have a boyfriend, and if they do I’m pretty sure they aren’t even a Nazi anyway. Everyone needs to chill because it’s really fucking stupid and all you are doing is putting fuel on a fire. Yes, actual real Nazis are fucking horrible and are literally scum but you guys need to open your eyes and see shit for what it is instead of seeing one thing that triggers you and trying to be keyboard warriors like “U sHaReD tHiS?? U NaZi?? DiE!” without taking a moment to look at the bigger picture. People are just so quick to hop on the discourse trains dick because internet drama is fun. Just admit it. Like @pxiince shared a piece of art, big whoop. The swastika wasn't even originally the symbol of the Nazi and was STOLEN and tainted. It needs to be taken back as the sacred religious symbol that it was for 5,000 years and actual Nazis, ignorant quick-tempered people, and edgy fuckheads can just die mad about it. 

trance or something | 28.04.19