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How to cope with being alone at home and paranoid

These are methods that help -> me <- not immediately go into full “terrible things are about to happen” panic mode

Im lowkey making this post to distract myself from being alone at home and paranoid but anyway

Call someone, even if its just making a doctors appointment or stuff like that. Consider a mental health line even when you’re not having a meltdown the whole experience is very distracting

If its during the day, open some windows and listen to life going on outside of your isolation chamber

Listen to some fun podcasts, mbmbam is my life and distracts me from incoming feelings of dread

Since you probably already thought of the worst possible outcome, try to think of the best possible outcome and come to the conclusion that probably neither is going to happen and that this day is going to be like any other day because nothing EVER happens

Dont watch that scary video

Dont do it

I swear to god

If you’re going to be alone the entire day and night, make a strict routine for that day so you’re going to be too distracted for fear

Sit in the sun, take a hot bath, put an icecube on your forhead, seek out sensory stimuli, but dont hurt yourself

Look for a pet, pet that pet

If you got stuff like “okay but did I REALLY lock the door?” over and over again ,visualise the memory of you locking the door in your mind and check in your mind reality instead of your meat reality

Make a post about your coping mechanisms because maybe they could help someone who knows

Chronic Illness flare clinics need to be a thing.

They need to have holistic chronic illness clinics. You can go to them while you’re in a flare. They have low sensory rooms with soft beds and low light tv’s. Have doctors to administer flare reducing meds/pain meds, but also have holistic professionals like massage therapists, acupuncturist, mindfulness workers, physical therapists, chiropractors etc etc.

Basically so that you’re entire body and mind can heal because the reality of this is mind and body health need to be aligned.

This is especially necessary because going to an ER for a flare can be so terrible and increase the intensity of the flare. It’s so bright and you have to wait for hours to be seen by doctors who let’s be honest don’t specialize in chronic illness, and are trying to jam in as many patients as they can because of being over capacity.

This is what healthcare would look like if it was designed by the sick.

A small example of what it is like to live with chronic illnesses like mine

Why am I so loyal to someone who doesn’t even love or want me? I’ve just effectively damned myself.

Music always moves me in such a way, nothing can compare. It makes me feel so alive, sending me to other worlds.

why are you staring? please stop it.

Why did i read this in my mother’s voice

HI THE VOID SYSTEM SENT THIS TO ME AND I LOVE IT AND GOT 2 BINGOS

7/5/19

1:00am

Yesterday/Today (because havent slept yet so technically my day hasnt ended) was...boy. Very... odd. Never thought that would happen.

Lost another lb.

Gonna just smoke some weed while I play the sim. Maybe I’ll have some low calorie soup.