Creating Long Continuous Daydreams To Try And Go To Sleep: Great

BPD and my heart can both fucking get together and piss off straight to hell

i’m not gonna kill myself because if my depression wants me dead THAT badly it’s gonna have to start shutting my fucking organs down like a REAL disease instead of being a fucking pussy and hiding in my brain and trying to get ME to do it’s dirty work for it !

youll never know and ill never tell

Can parents stop acting like providing a child’s basic needs is something to be earned? So many kids grow up traumatised because they were made to feel guilty about the existence they never asked for

?????

How can I feel guilty and horrible like I'm cheating on someone not even interested me

 That I'm not even with?

Damn me for loving him too hard and too much...

I just get so lonely and scared without him...

trance or something | 28.04.19

shoutout to people with simultaneously great and terrible memories. like oh yeah i remember in perfect detail that random story you told about the banana costume from a year ago but all of novemeber? completely blank.

therapist: how was your week?

me: mm.. i can’t remember