Honesty Comes Easily

I look tenderly at the bluebells

For the first time in a while

I hope they know how well they are doing

How fast they are growing

And how beautiful they've become.

She is like the ocean

Her waves as soft and calm

Brushing my ankles

Like kisses at dawn

She is like the ocean

The towering frozen sea

Where the waves as tall as mountains

Threaten to topple me

She is like the ocean

Dark, at times, but brave

Stronger than I ever was

And soothing through the days

Bye, Deciever

Listen close

Carefully

I have to say something

But you wont want to hear it

Anymore than i want to say it.

I want to be more

Than you will let me be.

So please

Give me time

This time

Wait- are you listening?

This is what i mean

I need you to understand

I need you to see

I am small,

You've made me this way

I am meant to be invincible

But you got in the way.

I know you've been hur- are you joking?

This is my point!

You ignore me

You restrain me

Then you slaughter my pride.

Do you understa- LISTEN!

It takes more courage

Then i have to say this

But i will

Because i must

So if you ever loved me

Listen now

To my final words

That is, for you

Goodbye

Am i a glass half emtpy

Or am i nearly full?

Or am i somehow

A shattered glass

Never to be filled at all

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.

Charles R. Swindoll

An amber tinted room

Grey with clouds of smoke

That make my head spin

Like a vinyl record

Spiraling down

Until all i know

Are your violet eyes

And our desperate howls

Beneath the crimson moon

Thoughts on Love #16

This is neither what i expected, nor what I wanted. 

I thought love was about fighting for something, not with someone- then i realized how similar the two concepts were. I understand now that i was fighting with you in order to protect myself, when really all I needed was you. 

When my sanity is tied so tightly to the notion

That you will always be mine

I hope you understand why I'm broken

When the strings of fate that tangled us together

Begin unraveling

Like the denumount of a bittersweet film

That I've seen coming but just can't bear to watch.

I've turned the ending in my mind

Like a smooth stone in my hand

Feeling for any scratch and mar

To justify holding on

Instead of skipping it on the surface of the sea.

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5/14

Graveyard At Midnight

The crow caws once.

A shiver down my spine

I wanted nothing more than to preserve what was mine.

The crow caws again.

Another eerie cry

I tried to fight fate, but you cant win with a lie.

The crow caws once more

A body in the ground

No headstone to mark, only soil in a mound.

The crow falls silent.

The empty only grows

The last attempt to hide my sins, causes them to show.