Latest Posts by crayonboy - Page 5
Reblog if:
- You support recovery.
- You support those in recovery.
- You support seeking help.
- You want people to seek help.
- You think everyone is beautiful, regardless of their weight.
- Even if you yourself, aren’t seeking help or are in recovery, want others too.
Chocolate chip cookies ~super low cal~
¼ cup of flour all purpose
~ 110 cal
¼ cup of brown sugar
~70 cal
¼ cup of stevia
~0 cal
¼ cup of butter flavored cooking spray
~0 cal
1 egg white
~17 cal
1 tablespoon of chocolate chips {dark or bittersweet chocolate chips should be less calories}
~70 cal
~bake at 350 for 8 to 10 minutes or until golden brown
~makes 8 cookie~
1 cookie is only 27 calories so if you eat the whole batch ( if you binge or something) its only 187 calories for all 8
Reblog if you’ve binged within the last five days.
I want to show everyone that you aren’t alone; others do it, too. It happens, you aren’t a ‘failure’ for binging.
Hey girls… just wanted to tell you… adult men will not understand you, you are being lied to. Adult men aren’t some refined people who are so very different from boys of your age or whatever and if an adult is interested in you romantically or whatever that’s a damn predator and you should stay away from them -_-
An aesthetic for a Ren who is recovering after cutting ties with an abusive Strade. Hope you like it!
— mod strawberry 🍓ˎˊ˗
They usually played together in groups of two or three, I was covered in glitter, I smelled like birthday cake.
it’s wabbit season! Ψ(`_´ # )↝
It's disgusting that people's accounts are being terminated. For what? We have an ed, a mental disorder. You wouldn't report someone for having anxiety or depression, so why report someone with ed? It's selfish. Especially considering that this may be their only place to vent. You're taking away our safe space. You wouldn't do that to people with other mental disorders, so why us?
I’m getting so fed up with ED tumblr
I realize I should leave, but I stay because I need a place to vent my emotions and thoughts. All of these posts talking about how much better life will be when you’re skinny are such bullshit. I just want to scream DO YOU REALLY WANT MY LIFE?! LET ME TELL YOU ALL ABOUT MY LIFE WITH CHRONIC ANOREXIA (keep in mind that I’m 27 and have had this illness for a decade):
-I have absolutely no job history -I live solely off of disability income -I have little to no friends -I don’t have a college degree or much of a higher education -I’m an adult that lives with her parents -I do nothing but cry, starve, weigh, and repeat -I have no sense of who I am other than anorexic -I barely leave my room -I’m too weak to do much -I’ve lived my entire adult life in treatment centers and hospitals -My floor is covered in all the hair I’ve lost -My favorite parts of the day are the times I allow myself to eat one of the same three safe foods and when I’m tired enough to go to sleep -I cry myself to sleep over hunger and loneliness every night -I cry when I wake up knowing that I have hours left in the day to be alive
Do ya feel dAiNtY now?
if you’re craving something sweet:
ingredients:
½ red apple
½ banana
water
steps:
chop up the apple into bite-size pieces*
slice the banana (not too thin!)
in a small-ish pan, pour just a bit of water and turn up the stove heat until the water starts to sizzle (this setting is different on every stove). you’ll want a cup of water at the ready to add more to the pan as needed
carefully place the pieces of apple in the pan. you will add the banana later, but the apple takes longer to soften
after about a minute or so, add the banana
sprinkle whatever seasonings you like on top. some people like a little cinnamon and sweetener, others choose to drizzle honey and forego seasonings altogether
remember to keep at least some water in the pan, it’ll evaporate but make it easier to move the fruit around
flip the apples if necessary
when everything is nice and soft, put it in a bowl and enjoy it alone or with some low-cal whip. better yet, use it as a filling for a sweet egg white omelette :)
*thinly slice the apple if you’d like it softer
My safe foods 🌺🍯
Feel free to add your safe foods! For me, it’s:
- lemon water 🍋💦
- coffee w/ cinnamon ☕️
- boiled eggs 🥚
- tomatoes 🍅
- Diet Coke ofc
- chicken w/ salad
- greens! (like cucumber, spinach, kale, lettuce etc) 🥒
- non fat yogurt
- tangerines 🍊
- strawberries 🍓 (they are so yummy and have negative calories!!!!!)
- green tea! 🍵
- salmon 🍣
Low cal ass binge killer
Lifehack. U can have 1 and 2/3 a cup of Gerbers puffs, + splenda + 1 cup of unsweetened cashew milk. And it comes up to 105 cal for what feels like a MASSIVE portion of sugary cereal. Great for killing cravings and making u super fill and satisfied.
List of food w it’s calorie
Got this from thefitnesschef_ on IG, go ahead to their account for more.
Reblog If..
- all you think about is calories - eating makes you feel worthless - you fear gaining with all your heart - you can’t stand looking in the mirror - you generally hate your body - you think you’re fat - you think you’re ugly - you think you’re worthless - you’re scared of going back to school - you constantly think about your weight - you’re generally ashamed of your body
r e b l o g (i f)
food consumes every thought
you feel heavy and just. so fucking disgusting.
you want to feel the hunger
gaining weight is one of your biggest fears
you want to be that friend who’s perfect
you just want it all to melt off right now.
Trying on old clothes is one of my fave motivations to keep going🤧
Growing up fat, you get made fun of for everything you do, even basic shit like eating and laughing and breathing are funny when you do it because youre fat! And its so hard to not carry that with you as you get older, like I’m still embarassed to eat or dance in front of people or smile in pictures and its ridiculous and I hate it and I wish I was treated with more humanity
its overwhelming.
Nightcore Mix | 1 Hour | 2020 | 1080p
☆ ED hygiene and general health ☆ Hola! Here’s a lil’ post on ED hygiene and health post because if you can’t recover you can at least be hygienically healthy and not become extremely unhealthily ill with other reasons to be hospitalized! ♡ bbys with anorexia! ♡ believe it or not, we have hygiene issues but obviously awful health issues too, here’s how we can prevent them and b healthy skinni queeeeeenz! ♡ dehydration ♡ people with anorexia can become dehydrated really bad because food contains water and some times people become to afraid to even drink water due to the illusion of “water makes you fat” or “water has calories” which, by the way, if you believe this you’re in a severe stage of anorexia and you need to recover or you will die! but anyways, drink a lot of water! i suggest 6 to 10 bottles with 16.9 ounces of water a day, this can also help with weight loss and honestly water tastes great, you can also eat ice (tastes even better!!!!!) to get your hydration up also you can drink sodas like coke 0, diet coke, and ICE (it’s a drink with 0 calories, btw they were forced to put 5 on the bottle and it’s actually 0) and they all taste amazing! ♡ headaches ♡ if you restrict to extreme numbers, such as 500 and under, you have most likely experiences a HELL RAISING headache. it really, really sucks and it’s because you have super high dopamine levels and super low sodium, to raise these levels i suggest eating an avocado (unless they have too many calories or you hate them) and a little salt like a finger tip or something or mineral water, which btw has 0 calories! ♡ dizziness ♡ E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E and i’m literally not kidding, EVERYONE who starves themselves are going to get dizzy. Let me tell you, it’s every single time i get up -_- so here’s how to stop being super dizzy! * drink hella water * try to reduce your stress by doing something calming wether it’s yoga, watching your favorite tv show, listening to relaxing music or drawing, relax. * get a bunch of sleep, sleep burns a lot of calories by the way! * drink caffeine, it raises your blood pressure! ♡ fatigue ♡ yes, people with anorexia feel super lazy and sluggy too, which can suck if you’re a compulsive exerciser. well to let you know, exercise has helped me stop being so fatigued! i like to do chloe ting workouts and other workouts with amazing instructors who make it fun and talk to you during the workout! try doing workout challenges like abs, legs or full body because this can help you lose weight and also feel amazing! ♡ osteoporosis ♡ “i HaVe OsTeOpOroSis” ok but like really, this is horrible, i was born with fast bone maturing (idk what its called lol but i have it???) which made my bones like those of a 18 year old in a 13 year olds body, but anyways osteoporosis is awful, here are some things you can do to prevent it; * drink milk (non-fat: 83 calories per cup) * eat fruits and vegetables like spinach, oranges, peppers, pineapple and others, i would look for ideas on nof.org * try to get calcium and vitamin D, foods like almonds, yogurt, salmon, and eggs are safe like a lot of foods with these! * try to stop smoking and drinking although i know this is how a lot of us get calories * get a lot of sleep ♡ lanugo ♡ i’m not sure if you’ve heard of this but lanugo is when you get so cold your body decides to grow access hair, there is literally no way to prevent this if you have an ED so just be ready, but a lot of people want to shave it but DONT!!!! if you shave it you’ll be cold, if you want to, hide it. ♡ preventing thin nails and hair ♡ we all know that so so soooooo many people with anorexia have hair loss or brittle nails and i would prefer to keep my hair and nails thanks, here’s how i do it; * take biotin and hair vitamins * do a deep condition every once in a while * stay hydrated (this is literally a thing for all of them!) * eggs, almonds and avocados are good for these!
person: you’re pretty cool!
me: oh my god prepare to be very disappointed
REMEMBER:
Food is fuel, nothing else.
You eat to stay alive, not to enjoy it.
The holy tetrad: food, water, meds, and sleep 🍎💧💊💤
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
emptiness is pure, starvation is the cure.
Copy and paste this into ur notes and read it if you get cravings:
It’s never worth it. Imagine how much weight you’ve lost in the last few days. If you binge now that was all for nothing because you’ll gain it all back. Do it for cute clothes, shopping sprees, being happy Because food will never satisfy you. If you binge now, the urges will keep coming back. If you binge now, it will not be the last time. It’ll keep going on and on. Break the cycle. That full feeling is so much worse than feeling dizzy with hunger. Because control is power. Collarbones, thigh gap, flat stomach. Think of all the times you’ve binged, how it felt sitting up in the middle of the night. Don’t put yourself through that again. You can reach your GWs. It just takes a bit of control. It’s nearly summer. Still, plenty of time to get skinny. Do it for that belly button piercing to look hot as fuck. Imagine feeling comfortable in a bikini. You’ll never be comfortable in a bikini if you binge. Get thin to be able to fit into those old jeans. Just because you messed up yesterday, doesn’t mean you can’t do great today. Reach those GWs. You fucking deserve it after all this shit you’ve been though. In a week’s time you could be so much lighter. Do it so he can pick you up and say you’re light. Do it so people will worry again. Do it so your fucking period leaves you the hell alone again. Do it so you’re not afraid of going shopping and seeing mirrors. Do it so you can get your makeup done professionally and you’ll look perfect. Self control is so important, not just for weight loss. Practice now. For the before and after pictures. You’re gonna be the skinniest bitch you’ve ever seen. I promise. If you don’t binge. To wear white skinny jeans with a black sweater. To wear PINK workout clothes and just lounge around the house. To wear a sports bra and oversized trackies when working out. To wear triangl bikinis and feel like a model. So you won’t be called ‘heavy’ when picked up To proudly tell people your clothing size To have thighs that look small in anything So you won’t have to compare yourself to others in the changing room To look good in short shorts To have people ask you for diet tips To have people say you look like a model. So that you’ll begin to envy a model’s clothes, not her body To look sexy without trying To be able to change in front of friends Being able to sit on his lap and be picked up Having small thighs when sitting Look good with messy hair, just woken up. Looking in the mirror and seeing bones, not fat The feel of your ribs and hip bones sticking out Being cold all the time because you’re so thin and loving it Always looking good in heels Size 0 skinny jeans Looking small in baggy shirts with jeans Having visible collarbones Having a thigh gap Sitting in the middle of the car because you’re the smallest To enjoy concerts and get drunk and party and just live life Not having to worry about what people say behind your back because it doesn’t matter, nothing does because you’re thin To become someone else’s thinspo Binging is not fucking worth it, EVER, and it’s painful and it’s so fucking pointless. Why do you keep doing it? So that you can try on clothes without wanting to stay in the fitting room, curl up into a ball, and die. So that every and any photograph taken of you from any angle will look good. So that you won’t be the fattest girl out of all your friends. So that boys will think of you as girlfriend potential, not that funny girl who’s kind of chubby. So that all your old expensive clothes fit again So that you’re cheek bones will be fucking amazing again Because skinny girls can get away with, making any face, wearing any outfit, or having any hairstyle So that you don’t look like a messy slob with no self control So that you’re friends respect you So that you’re arm flab doesn’t spread out when you rest your arms on your side So that people whisper about how skinny you’ve gotten behind your back So that you when you sit, no matter what you’re wearing your stomach remains one flat perfect board So that you never have to worry about your disgusting love handles oozing over the edges of your too-tight pants So that you can rush out of the house in jeans and a t-shirt and look like a model So that you don’t look like a fat little kid anymore. So that you make your parents proud instead of being their fat-ass daughter without any self control So that you’re boyfriend will be proud to show your photo, or you off to his friends So that you can wake up in the morning without trying on a million and a half outfits and looking fat in each one So that your self control, your amazing discipline shines through for everyone to see. So that there is a space between your legs. So that the shorter the shorts, the better. So that you’ll be referred to as the pretty one So that you’re hip bones will hurt people when you hug them So that your shoulder blades are literally blades So that your ribs are always showing, not just when you stretch So that nobody even remembers that girl you used to be So that you’re delicate and graceful So that when people do see you eat they will not be thinking, “put down the fork fat ass” So that when you try on your friends clothes they’re too big So that being however weird crazy or out there you are is acceptable because you’ll look good doing it So that if god forbid someone finds out that you’re starving yourself they don’t say “really? But you don’t look anorexic” Because who wants a fat daughter, best friend, or girlfriend So that everything is finally perfect Remember how unhealthy you feel after a binge To be the carefree girl who lives life to the full To wake up tomorrow and weigh less To be tiny and delicate So people say you look like you’re about to break Because what’s the point of eating when you don’t need to? To be the skinny friend So when you sit down your thighs don’t spread out to the size of an ocean So you can be more confident To not have to worry about calories To love yourself
me walking around my room talking outloud to myself about my current obsessions and giving my imaginary audience an hours long speech about it
pre NH villagers have the amount of siblings they have listed on their wiki pages so i wanted to draw designing some of them :’3
