That Feeling When You Realize Your “friends” Have A Better Chance Of Getting To See Or Spend Time

Today would have been three years, and I can’t tell you how much it’s saddens me to say it’s not. I hope you are doing well and that you’ve found the peace you needed. I still care, and I wish you wouldn’t have pushed me so far away. I’ll still always be there if you need a friend. All you have to do is reach out. You’re still never far from my mind. Until the atoms that make up my soul cease to exist.

I wish you knew how much I had and still do actually love the person you are underneath all this pain

I still care, but I want you to be ready, so when you are, I’ll be here.

You could have just been honest, like I said, it’s ok to make mistakes, even though you might have made this one before. I know things have been difficult, and I know I wasn’t always able to be there in all the ways you needed. We both deserved better from each other. I still care, and I’m still here if you want to talk.

I wish we would have treated both ourselves and each other better. I’m sorry I lost my mind, and any respect for myself. I’m still always here if you want to reach out. I still care and I still want to be in each other’s lives. I get it if that’s not possible when you’re in a relationship, and I’ll respect that. Hell, I don’t even know if you want me around at all. I just know I miss you so incredibly much.

Just found a few of your old voicemails while trying to make some space, hearing you say you love me again after so long was definitely a roller coaster. For a second though, I got to remember what it felt like to be cared about by the person that mattered the most to me in this world. Kinda glad that even after everything and all this time little things like that still bring joy to my life.

So much time has passed and there is still this emptiness in both my soul and life where you used to be. Years later and I still miss your sarcastic ass. Hope life is treating you well. Xxxx

I guess it all depends on the outcome 🤷🏻‍♂️

Cassandra Clare