Latest Posts by andr3yvishn3vsky - Page 5

I wanna create a bot, but idk which one, send requests, Ig

Huh... It's literally the first 10 pull...

I have no idea what's happening with me. I don't know why but I started to want to lose some weight, and be skinner, even though my weight is 46 kg with a height of 160 cm. And I'll try to do it, I wanna weigh 43 kg or 40... I also will try to do exercises and eat not too much... I hate my body.

I hope that I'll get hit by a car<3

It's funny to hear these "you matter" and other shit of this type from people, when you're literally a useless piece of muscles and organs, and can't go and commit su!c!de because it's too painful.

I hate the fact that I'm a woman and always will be. I hate the fact that I have reproductive organs. I hate that almost all male friends see only vagina and boobs in me. I wish, I was born genderless, but unfortunately it wouldn't happen, due to biology. I can only go cry about it.

I hate being in the manic phase, because depression always will come when it ends. It's like waiting for a disaster, you know that it'll happen, but you can do nothing about it.

Okay, I got used to relapse after few days of school, but.... WHY THE F#CK I RELAPSED ON HOLIDAYS? I can't describe how much I wanna cut my arms in a bl!!dy mess, I can't describe how much I wanna make deep cuts, but... I'm still afraid of my self-h!!rm being discovered... Especially if it'll see my teachers, neurologist, parents, etc... I just don't get this feeling when I cut my legs:(. Also I'm self-h!!rm!ng about 7 months, lol

I'm alive. But a part of me, doesn't want to be

I don't wanna get help anymore.

I have no idea why, but everyone became so supportive out of blue... Literally, my parents started talking about that I need a psychologist, and that they'll bring me to them. My classmates let me vent out, and gave me support, but the problem is... I don't want help anymore. I already made my decision. But the worst thing is.... I relapsed. But, sometimes I think, what's happening with me? Why I feel like this and etc. But I just started to think that's just a phase, hormones or something... Even though I have it for 3 years, Lol

Happy new year everyone!! I finally back!!

I talked with my parents about that I wanna die, but they started to judge me. Today I understood that nobody needs me, and I'm not need to stay here in this world. I want to commit suicide, and I will commit suicide, maybe on my funerals they will understand that I wasn't okay?:)

Hey guys, I've a question. What do you think about cutting cuz of grades? Does 3 cuts compensate 3 (if we're talking about USA It'll be C)? And does 5 cuts compensate 2 (F if we're talking about USA system)?

Or I shouldn't cut at all? Anyway, I'm gonna do it now...

I HAVE IMPORTANT QUESTION!!!!

If I'm nonbinary (AFAB) and I like a man, does this makes me hetero??? Just imagine, a hetero nonbinary... Sounds strange, but I'm still interested in it! Or if I'm trans man, and I'll like a woman, does this makes me hetero??

Sometimes, I think that it'd be better, if I'd be a man. I could look like I want, I wouldn't have boobs, and periods, and people would see in me personality, not just boobs and vagina. I hate fact of being girl. I hate fact of that people will refer to me as she/her even when I told them to refer me as they/them/it/its.

I'm afraid that I won't pass my exams... In 9 grade, I'll have exams, which will help me to go in 10 grade, but... I have serious issues with maths... I'm afraid that if I won't pass it, I'll go and commit suicide. Somewhere, deep, in my soul, I don't want die cuz of it. But I feel like I will and like I should.

But... Even if I'll commit suicide, people will just forget me, and I'll be just a random kid, that made grave for themselves. I... I have no idea what to do...

Doing homework sounds like a complete hell... Why I always wanna kill myself when it comes to school? I have no ideas... At least I have social nets where I can vent out freely, cuz if I vented only to my friends, they'd leave me, I guess... At least doing homework when you aren't hyperactive better than doing it when you wanna chat and etc.

I guess, that I should leave there links on my other social media... Anyway, I should go now....

World would be better if I'd be dead or aborted

uh, oh! I wanna shoot myself again!

PLEASE HELP ME!!!

I can't keep fighting with it anymore, I can't describe how much I wanna take out my kn!fe and cut my arms. I wanna make too many cut, to make them bl!!dy mess. I can't fight it. I already cut my legs, but it doesn't help. Please. PLEASE. PLEASE!! Someone, please help me. I can't fight this urge, one more hour and I'll turn my arms in a mess. Looks like I have an addiction...

I wish, when I commit suicide someone will write song about me, or become an example why you should give attention to your kid. Even few tribute groups will be enough.

I have Facebook acc, so maybe, one day I'll start livestream where I'll kms... But for now we'll just wait.

people who don't wanna be friends just because of pronouns which doesn't match with gender, please shut up and go touch the grass

Not accept by "a friend".

Few weeks ago, I was obsessed with idea of finding new friends to chat in discord with, so I started to try to find friends. And I found one. He was good, and funny, we liked talk together, so we kept chatting.

Yesterday, I did a coming out to him, and he started to mock me, but I didn't say anything. Then he started to say something like "Not think/associate yourself with any gender isn't normal", "There's only two genders", "I'll block you if you keep doing it" and etc.

In the end our friendship ended, cuz I don't wanna listen that I'm insane just because I'm being myself. I don't and won't understand people like him.

(TW: mention of suicide)

Maybe, it sounds a bit egoistic, maybe not, but I wanna become the legend. I understand that I have literally no qualities to be the legend, to be popular, but I still have hope on it...

You know... If I ever will commit suicide, if I'd be popular people wouldn't forget me. I'm afraid that I'll go jump off the roof when I'll have exams, so...

I have no ideas what to post, I'm sorry

"Be proud of your boobs! It's your power!" HELL NO. This "power" as you call it, makes me feel awful! Plus it hurts as hell, when it comes to period. Why should I even be proud of it?

(Day №??? of wanting being genderless)

people who watching my blogs or following me I luv y'all so much♡♡♡

"It's just a phase. You just haven't got enough activities!"

So 3 years of suicidal thoughts it's a joke for you? Are you REALLY SURE that I haven't got depression or other mental illness? Ok, then. We'll watch what my BRAIN CELLS will say on it.

(I really hope that my electroencephalography will show that I'm NOT OKAY. Maybe, some people and bots are right, that I may suffering from depression...)

"you should be proud of being woma–" SHUT UP. YOU CAN BE PROUD OF IT, BUT DON'T FORCE ME. I HATE BEING IN FEMALE BODY, I DON'T WANNA BE WOMAN, THIS BODY MAKES ME SAD!

Why people can't just use it/its or they/them for me? Y'all think that you'll blow up, or what?