Uh, Oh! I Wanna Shoot Myself Again!
uh, oh! I wanna shoot myself again!
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It's actually so comforting to have classmates with mental illnesses or issues. Like, yeah, I'm not alone in this shit!
Having a serious disease is just like:
"Oh, that's just an illness and I don't need to feel guilty because of it, because I can't control it"
And then:
"FUCK, HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF, I CAN'T DO BASIC THINGS, I'M ALWAYS ISOLATED, MY DISEASE JUST BECAME A MEME, WHY DO I HAVE IT??? JUST WHY?? IS THAT I DESERVE??? WHY I SHOULD I LOVE MYSELF WHILE EVERY FUCKING SECOND I'M WASTING AWAY??!"
People are talking about how they understand you, how you are still you, even if you got sick. But when I get a combination of movement disorders, y'all are DAMNED.
When your illness is so rare, that you've 62% chance of being misdiagnosed and everyone who you find on YouTube is a random old guy and just a 18(?) years old guy:
Maybe, my weight is a dream for someone, but I think that I'm fat. I weigh only 46, but I still think that I'm fat. I want to lose 6 kg, and I don't really care that these workouts are exhausting. I wanna be skinny, and I'll do it, and I don't care if it's unhealthy. I want to eat only 500 calories a day, or at least 800, because 1000 is too much. I wanna do 5 workouts today and I already did two. I want to be skinny – I will be skinny.
I'm glad that my classmates don't use Tumblr and using VK, because if they were there everyone would know about my problems
I love the fact that with this thing I could cut myself at school and nobody will care!!♡♡
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How much did my art improve?
(The one in the green was drawn in February, the scientist was drawn a week ago)
(btw, me and @feburra are the same person! It's just for my art, while this one is for my thoughts)
Aaaahh, my body feels so limp...
I wish, one day on maths lesson I could stand up, and stab myself!!!
A prophet of worm worshippers. (Definitely not a guy with athetosis!!)
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