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Minjun nodded as he understood. “Don’t cry.. I promise to go as slow as you need me to go.” He reached out carefully wiping away his tears. He held Youngnam close to his chest letting him cry into his arms. He rubbed his back tracing small circles on his back trying his best to soothe him. He hummed softly and looked down at him. “Can I do anything for you to make you feel better??” He asked him not wanting him to feel guilty or scared. 

he just felt so very helpless in this situation often priding in himself that he would always have plan to get out of any sticky situation. but with what was happening now between the both of them was entirely unplanned as he obviously no intention in telling the older male just how truly felt about them and that he really wanted to take their relationship if you could even call it that at this point really to the next level thinking that now was not the right time for him to tell them as he was much too scared to face what they’d say about his sudden confession or how they would react to it as the last thing he wanted was for them to outright reject them or even worse comes to worse leave them because of this but yes   !   he still did have the plan to tell them about this when they were both ready enough in their relationship to go through it but now that after just one intense drunken night out together here he was crying his eyes out having already confessed how he truly felt about his bestfriend and though they had confessed in return that they had felt the same way about him and wanted to given being boyfriends of one another a try opting in to take things as slow as he needed it to be  ───  he just felt so much shame for forcing the other male into this situation without their prior consent as he had just practically dragged them into this mess on this lazy sunday afternoon where they should be just laying around nursing away their hangovers from the night prior here they both were coming to terms with the reality of what their relationship would and should be though he was still grateful towards minjun for being so warm   &   patient with him and despite everything they’ve both already gone through just today he had promised to be with youngnam through thick and thin no matter what at this point clinging on more tightly to the older male wanting to savor in their warmth as he slowly began to wipe away his remaining tears from his face before turning back towards them with a small smile already creeping onto his lips  “   thank you so very much minjun for understanding.   ”  he said planting a gentle little kiss onto their cheek  “   i’m just so sorry for being a crybaby today but maybe i can make it to you for all of the mess i’ve created today how about we have a movie night in and i can whip up some sort of feast for you how does that sound   ?   ”  he added letting out a cute little giggle in response brushing one of his free hands onto their cheek.      

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it was never a bad idea to take up a friend on their offer at least in his eyes. it wasn't like though he was going to do anything bad by doing so he just wanted to see with his own two eyes just how the older male was at least going off of what he had been told by a friend of his on this matter maybe this would be worth his while maybe not who really knows ? it wouldn't really hurt him in the long run if he didn't find out for himself all kidding aside though he had heard nothing but very good things about the older male and he was both CURIOUS to know if they were really like that in person and if they would be open to also becoming friends with him too as so far in his very young life he had only been friends with minhyuk who had pretty much raised him since he was a pup as his parents never really wanted anything to do with him after finding out that he had been tainted in a way which was never his own fault but still did hold a slight grudge on his parents for rejecting him when they did by sending off to the pound never to see him again though he still have it in his heart to one day see them again and pretty much ask them why did they abandoned him when he truly needed them as since then he always did seek that level of approval and love from other people especially those older than him as from what was previously mentioned he never received that level of love from his own birth parents with only the latter taking care of him when he was young so with that in mind he was curious on how exactly the older male would be in mind and if he'd accept him with open arms just like minhyuk had when he was younger. after wondering for quite sometime as he didn't exactly have the best sense of direction even with the map the latter had provided him to where they knew they would hang out most but he did eventually get there at least he thinks that he did upon entering he quickly scanned the room and spotted them just as quickly going up to them and giving them a quick tap on the shoulder “ hey ! i'm so sorry to bother you but you aren't jaebeom by any chance right ? ”

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Yejoon nodded as he was a little tired already and would need to unpack his stuff and get used to his new home. “Sounds good..” It had been a very long ride and he was wanting to get used to his new environment. “Sure.. I’d like to meet them if they’re ready to meet me of course.” He took his hand shivering slightly as it was really cold it was. “Just lead the way..” He smiled as he would follow him out. 

he was just glad that despite how awkward things had gotten between them they were still so kind to humour them to an extent. and even if on any given day there would be no way he’d react and speak so boldly to a mere stranger without there being a mutual understanding between the both of them and plus what made it even more awkward at least in his eyes was that they were practically working for him   ,   with his parents hiring them out to paint a series of family portraits in order to shore up their public image as of late and as previously mentioned it would never be like him to brazenly act like a such a fool towards the person he had developed a crush on no matter how many times he tries to deny that fact at this point what on earth would even dare to explain why he’d been acting so odd around them even he would more often than not act rather cold and aloof towards people especially the ones he hadn’t meet before in order maintain that mysterious vibe he had about himself. but with them things were clearly between the both of them though he wasn’t even sure if they had felt that same way as he did at this point in time when for all he knows they just probably thought he was being weird and was probably like this towards all of their guest human or otherwise to their castle which hadn’t been a lot in the past few centuries which would probably explain why he’d been rusty when interacting with the other male as it had probably been quite sometime since he’d interacted with a human   ,   let alone another one of his own kind in what felt like centuries then again though there was no way that he’d be so rusty to the point where he would make a complete fool of himself to a mere stranger and within his own parent’s house no less he just hoped that none of the servants around would be so kind to report this MISTAKE in his judgement to his parents or he’d be deep trouble but for now though he just keep that same cool levelheadedness he’d always have about himself and then strike when the oppurtunity permits it with the other male and maybe   ?   get to know them a little bit more before making his move on them so to speak.  “   sounds good to me i’m pretty sure they’d be dying to finally meet you so please follow me. ”  he said heading in the direction of his parent’s office within the grand castle. 

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Minho came out from the employee area with his jacket and his school bag. He slipped the jacket around him and zipped it up. “I didn’t have any place in mind.. I do need something to eat though as we can pick up something on our way through. I haven’t had dinner yet. We can go wherever our heart takes us.” He moved a little closer to him as they walked along the busy streets.

he was quite surprised that the other male had still decided to go along with him tonight as he was almost half expecting them to not even show up after they said that they’d go with him after their shift would end. or at least that they did come back to him that they’d just outright avoid him or just plain ignore him acting like he was not even there at this time but it wasn’t like he had ever doubted minho as they did still return and willingly still wanted to go with after their shift had ended in hindsight though that reason why he’d been thinking like that at the time was probably due to the fact that despite being quite CLOSE or at least friendly acquaintances in the past they had gotten off on the wrong foot due in part to the people around them with the both of them quickly becoming victims after the aftermath of samuel and jae breaking up after many years of being together as couple and with samuel not really taking the lose very well not at all actually quickly loosing his mind and caving into those dark and lurid thoughts swimming around in his own head obsessing over wanting to get back together with the latter at any cost necessary with the both of them getting caught in the crossfire of that and drifting apart but now that they have this new lease on life they could start from the beginning and become friends with one another slowly but surely overtime even develop something even deeper than that time could only tell on that though flashing a warm smile to the other male as they had come out wrapping his free hand around their shoulder as they walked down the busy street glancing over at them maintaining eye contact as they spoke  “  no worries about my friend we can eat anywhere you’d like it will be my treat maybe   ?   now where would you like to eat   ?   ”  he asked still smiling as they continued to walk down the street with nowhere to go really at this point until he suggested.  “   oh   !   maybe we could go to the han river and eat some street food there   ?   if you’re up for it of course since i heard it can very pretty at this time of night.   ”   he added pausing briefly to wait for their answer to his suggestion.    

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“Yes, that’s what I’m wondering why you’re here after what happened.” He also remained eye contact with him tilting his head slightly wondering if he was plotting anything. “I think maybe you felt something during our little choreography run through. That’s what it is isn’t it??” He questioned just wanting to make sure he’s on the same page as him. He could tell the other was questioning something but he wasn’t sure what. He wondered if he felt something for him.

now that he was face to face with the other male now that there was no one else that could distract them from focusing on the matter at hand. he doesn’t even know what to say to them because he clearly was just as lost if not even much more lost than they were at this very moment because if he were to truly to say to them what was on their mind right now he was unsure of what they’d say to him let alone how they’d even react since as far as their current relationship was with each other it was very much strained they had practically hated each other and saw each other more as competition than as friends if you could even call them that at this point really. and yeah   !   sure they had been friends or at least they were on friendly terms still when they were in school together especially at the start of knowing each other back then but the more   &   more pressure and dread they both felt or at least that was what he was thinking at that time to succeed and make a name for himself outside of his already well known and well connected family with both of his parents equally pushing him to do more   ,   be something much more bigger than they ever were in this world he freely to distance himself from them and over time saw them as an equal but more of a rival if that even made any sense in anyone else’s mind other than his but with them now graduated and working through their way in this world something inside of him that he had for the longest time had been suppressing for reasons that he himself not say out loud even to himself but then again with that moment that had happened between them had somehow someway sparked something inside of him and just like he was on autopilot he’d rushed over after he had gotten himself changed into their trailer unannounced ready maybe   ?   to confess what he had been feeling for the other male all this time gulping down the thick saliva that was already forming within his throat clearing it before he actually began to speak  “   alright   !   but please don’t say this to anyone else.  ”  he said with pleading eyes already battling with himself that he was about to let loose his darkest secret to them he was just hoping that whatever the outcome that it would all turn out all good at the end taking in a deep breath closing both of his eyes very briefly in order to calm himself down mainly before he spoke up again  “   if i were to be honest YES i did.   ”  he added silently praying that their next words or actions for that matter would not be so harsh on him for feeling this way towards them at this time.  

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Minjae smiled and snuggled into him once more just a moment. He had missed him so much as he felt bad for being so busy. “That’s good I will be sure to pamper you quite well then.” He teased him for a bit and brought the food over for both of them to enjoy. “If you could get your schedules cancelled then you could stay over then right? I would really love for that to happen. Sounds good to me.. We could have a little self care day together.”

today couldn’t have gone any better as he’d almost expected for things to be the complete opposite of what it is now. that they’d just outright reject him and maybe even worst comes to worst break up with him which was something that he took into consideration once he’d set foot into their apartment   ,   it was good though that he was saved from that heart break and that they were finally going to mend one another and become what they were in the past HAPPY without a really care in the world expect for themselves he honestly couldn’t wait for what would be instore for them as a couple again as previously stated he’d already ran so many different scenarios in his head before coming over to their place and this one was the best one he could have hoped for and his only goal now was to make sure that this very moment were to last as long as he could push it for especially since he’d already missed the other male so very much and had longed to be in their arms again like this. wrapping his arms around them tightly removing any sort of space between the two of them at this point wanting to remain as close as possible with his boyfriend hoping by the end of their night together that he’d end up smelling like their cologne he could only really smile even more brightly than before as he nodded his head in order to affirm their previous words he always liked being pampered especially after a very long day streaming etc but he was still willing to do the same for minjae if they really wanted to as well  “  yes   !   of course i’d love for that i’ll be calling my manager about it once we’re done eating here   ”  he said letting out a soft chuckle in response he honestly couldn’t wait for this small little pamper day they were going to have tonight  ───  then again as previously mentioned he would look forward to spending any sort of night alone together with his boyfriend no matter what the reason or occasion might be between them he was happy to be around them again and on the mend of going back to the way they used to be especially at the very start of their relationship where they could barely keep their hands to themselves  “  sounds good what exactly did you have in mind we do together then   ?   i could give you a back rub maybe   ?   ” he added teasing them playfully before falling to a pit of laughter before picking some of the food with his chopsticks in order to feed them some.     

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this chanced encounter had clearly been a surprise to the both of them at this point as he’d obviously never expected in a million years to run into a childhood friend on the street like this. but they were again standing in front of each other after what felt like a lifetime apart only to be reunited on a random cold afternoon while he was running some errands before he had to pick up his kids from their daycare in a couple hours   ,   from face value they hadn’t changed one bit from the very last time they’ve seen each other again in the flesh only time could tell if they had still remained the same person they were when they were playing together as kids regardless of that though he was still very much glad to run into the other male again like this and wanted more than anything to rekindle their long lost friendship again if they were comfortable doing that themselves of course he did have to confirm that fact much later into their current conversation having to first APOLOGIZE for sneaking up behind them and surprising them like this settling down the things he was currently carrying in his arms in order to bend down to pick up the various supplies they had gathered for something he’d have to figure that out a later date obviously handing everything back to them once he did letting out a soft chuckle in response feeling very apologetic for pretty much scaring them like this  “   i’m so sorry for scaring you but yes it’s me dooyoung.   ”  he said slightly bowing before continuing on with his words  “   you must be hyunho right   ?   unless i’m sorely mistaken instead.   ” he added feeling almost for certain that the man standing in front of him right now was that childhood friend he had growing up in his pack all those years ago but he still wanted to make sure that was them before delve in deeper with them and rekindle once again their what he’d thought their long dead friendship up until now that is though.