200525
:0 the date 2005!
Today I tried to complete the painting I started yesterday, but ehh, will finish tomorrow once I get over the overthinking phase.
I did pilates as usual today, and I'm seriously thinking about actually going ahead with signing one of the 2 modelling contracts offered to me, but my mom won't let me 💔but I want to take it (modelling) seriously urghhhh.
Idkkk, and I should actually finish with the uni stuff, idk idk idkkekjskaksvdndksksk I did NOT plan to be alive to experience this moment oh my gooooddddddddddd😖
200325
Today also has a pretty date imo.
Why did no one tell me that YouTube is no longer available on my iPhone 6+
WHY WHY WHY WHY ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ’”💔💔
Anyways, did nothing much today, except exist and editing my invite only YouTube video for my friends 😊
Keep in mind, I am 180cm tall, that is 5'11, and I checked the agency, its legit and they came to my country to scout for potential new models. I also feel like they don't have that many Black girls signed to them which is why they're scouting on my ends. I'm anxious coz I'm not exactly the skinny type they have on their site, but I'm also not chubby, I'd say my weight is OK for my height, on the leaner side.
I've had dreams of modelling because I love my height so much, like soooo much. But I get anxious thinking I'll walk weirdly or make a fool out of myself in front of the panel... I might think I'm eating up the walk, but in reality my body moves awkwardly and rigidly ðŸ˜.