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hihii!!

you seem fun and chill but pls dont joke about being a narcassist

youre super pretty so you should totally love yourself but ik narcissists irl and you do NOT wanna be comparing yourself to those people girl

not forced tho obvi

off topic

finally another black girl who's into wonyoungism omg T-T its like we're rare or something

Heya!!! Thank yeww for reminding me of my worth ☺️🫶🏾. You're too kind. And you're right — no one should be having that kind of depreciating self talk even as a joke, the universe is funny place, manifestation is real and I do NAWT want to end up as a narcissist 💀

I'm sure many of us are anonymous; at least I was when I started.

Black wonyoungism bloggers unite 👊🏾😗

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Project research, planning, university searching, contemplating life, back to project, cut myself some shorts from jeans I don't wear, planning on what to do with the scraps, organise my dresser, vc with BFF, now to bed

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Today was very productive actually, I'm 80% complete with the project. Anddddddd I'm going back to writing too :D.

I ate the pancakes I made at midnight for breakfast, they were yum as usual :p.

Stuff I consider productive that I did today:

I cleaned my email inbox.

Unsubscribed from random sites I forgot about.

I took 3 coding lesson practices, which lasted a good chunk of my day.

Deleted books and videos that I had saved and I enjoyed but I would actually cry if anyone came across them. This is an attempt to quit that stuff.

Curated podcasts to listen to (I forgot that podcasts on Apple were free).

I downloaded classic books to replace the old ones.

Read and learned about art history instead of doomscrolling or watching the videos I want to keep away from.

Put 1.5hrs to study italian 😝

As this new week rolls in and it's the last week of April , remember it’s okay if you’re not feeling 100% ready. Most people aren’t. You don’t have to wake up every day with perfect energy or a perfect plan. Some mornings you’ll move fast, some mornings you’ll drag yourself through , both count. What matters is that you try. This week will have its messy moments late nights, forgotten tasks, small mistakes that make you question yourself. It's normal. It happens to everyone who’s aiming for something at the end of the week of even the day . So don’t be too hard on yourself when things don’t go exactly the way you pictured. Focus on doing what you can, when you can. Focus on staying honest with yourself not pretending you’re fine when you’re not, but also not giving up just because it gets uncomfortable. Progress feels boring sometimes ikr . Growth feels invisible sometimes. But if you keep moving, even in the smallest ways, you are winning. Trust that the work you’re doing, even the hard parts, is building something you’ll be proud of later.

@bloomzone

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Stayed home, nothing motivating except thinking about doing art

All that work for this app to turn the quality to shxt 💔

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Woke up with a bad start but sleeping with a good ending tonight. Here's a 1min vid I just finished editing; the snacks were yummerz regardless.

Please ignore the split second in the intro when the frame wasn't showing.

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Hello Angels, hope your having a wonderful day🙇🏾‍♀️ check out my super secret substack, no one else knows about it from my main account except you guys on tumblr! It's my alter ego that I get to share on this site :)

open.substack.com

I Want To Die

The Weight of Existing When You Never Asked To

OK, the title is a bit ominous 😅 But have a read, and if you feel like it, subscribe for more 🫶🏾.

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Woke up at 1pm today 😃

I'm being left on delivered rn after giving my best art advice...

Tomorrow I have to write something or finish my drawing.

But boring day tbh. ACTUALLY SCRATCH THAT, FINE SHYT FOLLOWED ME BACK AHHHSKJDJDJKKDNDKEKJD

Forgot to add that I got this book yesterday, was debating btwn this and Persuasion, but sense and sensibility was cheaper and it seems like it would be a promising read that won't bore me too much...

5/10 day, mid.

Today is 26th of May 2025

I just finished House M.D., and it’s got me messed up in the most beautiful way. This show didn’t just entertain me, it gave me something to wake up for, something to stretch the days around. I’d pace myself like it was a slow-burning love affair, knowing I’d mourn the end even before I got there. And now? Yeah. I’m in mourning.

Every episode, every character, I loved all of it. No skips. No fillers. Just layered, painful, brilliant storytelling. And that extra episode Hugh Laurie directed? It cracked open my respect for the whole damn industry. You can tell when an actor bleeds for a role, and baby, he bled for House.

This show wasn’t just a distraction... it was an escape that made me feel more present than real life sometimes. Now that it’s over, I already want to rewatch it. I already miss it. But not in a “rewind the fun” kind of way—more like visiting an old ghost who used to hold your hand while you cried.

And yeah, it hurts knowing I’ll never get that first-time magic back. I envy new fans. I envy not knowing what’s coming. Out of every show I could’ve chosen, I picked this one, and I stuck to it, to the bitter, bittersweet end.

I didn’t think I could love 177 episodes of a limping, sarcastic, drug-addicted genius who pushes everyone away.....but I did. I do. I loved him when he was cruel, when he was right, when he was spiraling, when he tried. Every twitch of those haunted eyes told me he wanted to be saved, even if he didn’t believe in salvation.

And now here I am, broken-hearted and grateful. Because if you're gonna fall for a show, fall for one that ruins you this perfectly.

Mazel Tov.

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Coming up with a new plan that won't have to wait for May. Did nothing much, had an early breakfast and decided not to fast lol, I need to write something for substack and check my applications statuses. I was pressured to apply to unis today, but tbh I didn't think I'd be alive at 19 to even make such a decision lol. I want to bit study in the country I am currently residing in, I'd live to go abroad, I meannnn, I'm not studying Italian for shits and giggles lol... Urgh idk I'm watching The truth on Netflix rn, it's interesting kinda the same like million dollar secret.