Why mother?
why did you tear me apart
when you should have kept me together ?
when you should have held me a bit closer ?
Why father ?
why did you pull me down
and drowned me in my tears
when you should have been my ladder ?
when you should have kept me warm under your wings ?
Why sister ?
why did you spat venom and killed me inside
when you should have been my pillar ?
when you should have hugged me tighter ?
i guess I understand
why they all leave.
i am hard to love
i tried so hard
to keep her away
from the darkness
but
turns out
hard isn't good enough.
I think my biggest regret is not dying, I hate the fact that I’m here yk I see so many people that say they glad they’re not dead after trying to commit cuz shit got better and they realized life is worth living but I can honestly say that for me it’s the complete opposite, my life went to greater shit and life is definitely not worth anything, there’s nothing more miserable that existing