Bpd Thoughts - Blog Posts
It's actually so comforting to have classmates with mental illnesses or issues. Like, yeah, I'm not alone in this shit!
I’m terrible and I deserve death and destruction in my life just kill me now why am I alive
I’ll kill myself now, atleast I’ll die pretty
I fucking hate you, I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU SUFFER YOU DESERVE TO SUFFER KYS DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
Me checking how I look after a breakdown
All i know, are sad songs . . .
tw: vent
I just had the biggest breakdown I’ve had since a long while, I’m honestly so fed up with my stupid head and brain what’s the point in this continuing why do I have to suffer just so people won’t be sad I’m dead, well I’m suffering I don’t want to do this shit anymore I wasn’t even supposed to be alive to see 18 let alone any other age past that I can’t even regress bc I don’t feel comfortable with out a cg there to help me, I’m just completely useless and honestly I don’t even care anymore I can’t take this anymore, I want it to be done I want to be done I want to be dead. And it’s my dads birthday I ruin everybody’s day around me and I can’t even stop myself what kind of stupid ass loser can’t even not cry for a fucking day, I just can’t take this anymore I don’t want too, what’s the point in being happy just for it to go away for like months bc of my dumbass head. Ffs
me: *finally opens up to someone"
me: *feels better afterwards*
a few hours later
me: i am so sorry to even have bothered you. please erase my existence from your memory.
