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New year, skinny me

Been eating 1200 calories for a couple days now while eating healthier food and I genuinely believe it’s going to work because tbh I was consuming around 2500-3000 calories before so a cut like this has to work.

Eating ice because I know I’m bored not hungry.

The only thing that will make me break my fast is feta pasta but then again it’s PASTA filled with so many calories and carbs.

You know it’s time to lower the calorie intake when you can feel your fats rolls while sitting

Let me just say that what this post says is everything. I'm living it. My fiancée is a "cook", food is his hobby and "flavor is everything" and he "won't go without flavor". He eats so badly; like everything you could imagine that you would think that someone shouldn't eat, he does. Fatty, fried, eating out, full of real cream and real butter and a whole heck of a lot of it. He drinks full fat milk by the gallon. He insists on a "sweet treat" after dinner. Bowls of cake with milk in it eaten like cereal. Pastries and cookies and pie every. single. day. on top of the rich food he cooks. Obviously he is overweight (not like....unable to move and function, but you know). He doesn't care. He literally has said that you cannot learn anything about a culture unless you eat their food. He wants to travel and do street vendors in different places. He wants to competitively eat. His existence is literally all about food.

Now, I'm one of those unfortunate people that have ED and never get thin. That's another rant. I keep telling him that I do not want to eat this food, it is too damn spicy or rich or whatever. I'm lactose intolerant (for really real), I have immune disorders that require me to take medication akin to a chemotherapeutic drug. I get sick easily. It literally is so beyond what my body can even tolerate that it's ridiculous. He says I'm unhealthy and need the things he cooks

See, the thing is....he has colitis and costochondritis. Basically everything he likes to eat is what he would call "bland" and he flat refuses to eat properly. He is literally ready to live and fall on that freaking hill of food. It makes me so freaking mad I want to scream because when he has flare ups he wants sympathy. I'm so sorry but I do feel bad that he feels bad; but when it comes to him wanting me to baby him I just can't. It feels like he does have an addiction and I'm helping him in this weird cycle of self destruction.

I don't want to be a part of that. And I feel like crap for it.

We really have to start facing food as a drug. We need to recover from it. We dream with food, but it is bad for us. We should start treating ourselves as we are addicts in recover, because that is what we are. Some people even think about food 24/7. Food makes us high for a few minutes, but then we really feel like shit afterwards. What is the point? We feel like we can not live without a burger, or a pizza, or a good greasy food, but we absolutely can. Food is one of the worst drugs ever. Don’t let it take you to your downfall.

I don't even watch Demon Slayer but I was in awe when I saw him.

I dreamt that I binged at my grandma's house behind her back while she was sleeping... What the actual heck.

Day 2: How tall are you, do you like your height?

I'm 153 cm / 5 ft tall, and I do not like my height. Maybe it's because of my ED that I self-sabotaged myself and stunted my bone development/growth... I honestly don't know anymore. I pray that this isn't my permanent height.

Day 1: Stats

CW: 34 kg / 75 lbs

H: 153 cm / 5 ft

BMI: 14.5

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Manifesting self-control

I have a very exciting new discovery! Dance workouts! It might seem silly but they're actually making working out and burning calories fun and less torturous. I can burn 200 calories in less than an hour. They work much better than jogging in place. So very proud of that one, although... I did go over my 500 kcal limit today by a landslide, but I burned off all the excess!

P.S. Do you guys have any tips for any upcoming events? I have a party coming up tomorrow and a celebration the next day and I have not prepared at all. Should I try to adjust my kcals or just not focus on the food at all/avoid them?

Should I break my fast...? I'm a day and a half into it but I'm starting to feel really weak and have no energy at all. I can barely walk a few distances before my feet feel like their about to give in and feel like I'll drop if I don't stop for a break.

good morning beautiful people!

i hope everyone has a lovely binge-free day 💕

i want to binge so bad rn

its all i can think about

fml

need to get skinny for winter, to be thin in cute sweaters would literally fix my life

some of my fav thinspo :D

hi!

hi, i dont know if anyone will see this but im new here. ive been looking at edtumblr for a while and decided to make a blog :)

not rlly sure what i will be posting probably just random stuff and venting

any advice is welcome!

here are my stats!

☆ 5'3 ☆

☆ sw- 68.9 kg (152 lbs) ☆

☆ cw- 63.9 kg (141 lbs) ☆

☆ ugw- 45 kg (100 lbs) ☆

guys my weight WONT BUDGE. i’ve literally been in between 129 ibs and 130 ibs for like 4 months bro… send help guys i’m actually going insane 😭🙏

guys some girl at my school said i was too fat to have an e@t1ng d1s0rder i’m so upset

like damn time to ⭐️ve now thx for the motivation bro i needed that😭

also ion even know how she figured out i have an 3d ?? but wtv

Introduction ~

infp | Taurus | CA

w3ight -

🔒GW #1 : 125 lbs - 56.7 kgs

🔒GW #2 : 120 lbs - 54.4 kgs

🔒GW #3 : 115 lbs - 52.1 kgs

🔒GW #4 : 110 lbs - 49.8 kgs

🔒GW #5 : 105 lbs - 47.6 kgs

🔒GW #6 : 100 lbs - 45.3 kgs

🔒GW #7 : 95 lbs - 43.0 kgs

🔒GW #8 : 90 lbs - 40.8 kgs

🔒UGW 1 : 80 lbs - 36.3 kgs

🔒UGW 2 : 70 lbs - 31.8 kgs

!! please do NOT interact with my blog, or block me if you are in rec0v3ry!! i am 100% pr0 r3c0v3ry, and i don’t want to cause someone else to fall back into their old habits. (if you are in r3c0v3ry i wish you the best!)

my e@t1ng d1s0rd3r started during quarantine, but has been on and off since then. i recently decided i should go back to @na a couple months ago. in the past i got diagnosed with bul1m1@, but i don’t purg3 anymore(i try not to, only if i have a really bad b1ng3 😔🙏). i tried to fully r3c0ver once in october of 2023, but i ended up just stopping and giving up.

if you have any questions, or want to talk to me in general, i would be so glad to talk to some of you guys about anything you’re going through. lots of you can be really sweet and kind, and i appreciate those who are :)

i wish the best for you guys !!! love you bbgs

do you guys have any gc’s i can join (for yk yk)? i need more motivation from new @na buddies

manifesting ^^ 😭🙏

I'm moving to tumblr again...

1. there are great people here who understand how I feel

2. it's more motivation

my life is changing a bit now... moving, starting a new job... the only thing that's staying the same is school.

I'll be commuting an hour to the capital, I'll be away from home all day and unsupervised. It's a great opportunity to get back into it 100%

Do you exercise? no.

Are you on a diet? no, not really.

So what are you doing? I am praying 🥲

🙏🙏🙏

Benefits of Losing Weight:

• Freedom to wear what you want

• Increased confidence

• No more feeling embarrassed

• More enjoyment in social life

• Greater comfort in public spaces

• Better dating and relationship experiences

• More energy to do what you love

• Easier everyday tasks

• Feeling more in control of your life

print it out and hang it on your fridge 🩵 this is a great list

tips that aren't the same list from 2006

you know exactly what dumbass list I mean, and none of that shit is practical, it's giving uwu ana butterfly and we all know it

hi, I'm angel, I'm a nutrition major, and here are tips to keep yourself safe and hide your eating habits that actually make sense. this will not be in any particular order, but

avoid ketosis. i know, i know, you heard it burns fat faster! it also makes you smell like a dog rolled in sharpies and makes you stupid. i'm not kidding, you will be slow as fuck. avoid keto at all costs, carbs are better and healthier than being caught and dumb

take electrolytes and pay close attention to your potassium intake. if you neglect this, you will damage your heart and muscles and run the risk of having a heart attack. i use liquid IV because I have POTS and need the extra sodium, but that brand is also good for ED-havers because it has extra b vitamins

take ultra strength prenatal vitamins. they contain extra folate, fish oil, and dha, all of which are necessary to protect your heart and brain when you're not intaking much food.

For other supplements, I recommend Metamucil to keep your bowels going, iron, vitamin c packets (will make the iron absorb better, I personally use the +immunity ones), b-complex, calcium-magnesium-zinc, and vitamin d. Make sure the b-complex contains b-12. Feel free to send me an ask or dm me for dosages because some of these will depend on where you live geographically or what food you are eating.

find a protein shake you like. I'm a muscle milk bitch personally, but fairlife, premier, etc, are all good. make sure it isn't a meal replacement shake, and make sure it contains at least 20g of protein. these contain vitamins beyond protein that will help you stay healthy. the protein will also keep you full. i recommend using it as milk in coffee because the coffee will also suppress hunger and act as a mild laxative without harming the bowels. don't take your iron along with this, as dairy will hinder the absorption of iron.

don't take laxatives. you're going to give yourself IBD. maybe once a month as an extra cleanout you can do a little miralax, but the natural route is always better. regularly drink coffee and drink specifically senna green tea, they're both natural laxatives. the metamucil i recommend will also keep you going. if you need a bigger laxative effect, blend a whole peeled and seeded orange, a few inches of peeled fresh ginger, juice from a whole lemon, add a tsp each of cracked black pepper and turmeric, blend with coconut water until it's a thin smoothie consistency. drink that, you'll be good.

the best thing you can do for yourself is hide your behaviors behind health food gym girlie orthorexic behaviors. nobody takes orthorexia seriously and they encourage those behaviors. you can cut out whatever the hell you want if you're crunchy and healthy about it.

don't go too crazy about it. old tips would tell you to act like you loved food and it's really obvious. being obsessed with food and cooking is weird and obvious. don't talk about food constantly and make it your whole personality to try to hide, it's bizarre and one of the signs they tell parents to look out for. you have to be nonchalant. food is whatever. you like it, you have favorite meals, but you get tired of tastes quickly, you're picky about textures, you don't like it once it gets cold, etc. it's just fuel and it's meaningless to you. you eat for your health, not for pleasure.

high impact workouts like HIIT and running may not be the best idea. some studies show that high impact exercise stimulates hunger hormones in some individuals. pilates, ballet, and yoga are low impact, high results, and give a very desirable aesthetic. they're also quiet and can be done with a yoga mat and maybe a theraband.

get a job. get a hobby. join a sport. being out of your house as much as possible gives you the largest opportunity for excuses. oh my job catered lunch, oh there were snacks at practice, oh so and so brought something to the knitting circle. this can also be an opportunity to earn or save money (or swindle your mom out of cash by obtaining money for concessions at games and then only getting a diet coke)

if you control your own food, maximize your nutrition. salmon, tuna, sardines. kale, chard, spinach. beans, lentils. berries. protein pasta. pasture raised eggs. the fancy filtered fairlife milk. your body will hold out so much longer if you're keeping it fueled with proper vitamins and minerals.

track your food using cronometer - if someone sees it on your phone and asks, you have a perfect built-in excuse. oh, you don't care about the calories, but it tracks vitamin and mineral intake, and you're trying to make sure you're getting enough of those because you have, say, an iron deficiency or you're worried you're not getting enough omega-3s.

anorexic hair is really obvious. it's from malnutrition and stress. absolutely ensure you're getting enough omega-3s and other fats in your diet (avocados, eggs, oily fish, nuts like walnuts) to avoid the anorexia hair and the sallow, dry skin. this is also why i insist you take vitamin d, iron, vitamin c, a b-complex, and a pre-natal with folate and dha, those will also protect your hair and skin health. also make sure you're trimming dead ends, get a deep conditioner and/or bond repair treatment, do scalp massages, and if it does fall out, start using a mousse for volume and get a cut to maximize volume to hide it.

keep up your oral, skin, and nail health, too. these can also be obvious indicators. if you're taking the vitamins and keeping to the foods i'm recommending, it'll help, but make sure you're brushing and flossing, use the nasty brown listerine, a good dry skin lotion like curel, and a nail oil. keep your nails short if they start peeling, but if they're peeling, you need to take more vitamin d and iron, or you could have celiac disease.

there's no such thing as a broken metabolism, and you can't boost or slow down your metabolism. those are myths. the only way to make your bmr higher is to have more muscle.

extra tip: if you start fainting, tell people you have or think you have POTS. work smarter not harder.

i wanna b perfect