lightly-leaf

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Locking in.

'dont waste your life fearing food' im not gonna waste my life in a body i hate

Why 3at when I could read fan fiction instead?

honeymoon phase come back i miss u

i hate eating like a normal person

Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs

I don't even watch Demon Slayer but I was in awe when I saw him.

literally hunger does such weird stuff to a person because I literally hate the chicken we have for dinner all the time so usually it's easy to skip it but lately I'm like "dammm that sounds so good rn" because it's been so long since I've had meat 💀

I usually avoid tumblr out of shame after a binge but I wanted to make a list of all the negative feelings that come immediately after and things to remind myself next time

I feel so physically uncomfortable

I feel ugly

My clothes look ugly

Stomach cramps

Teeth feel fuzzy

Gassy

Guilt and self hate

I feel heavy and moving takes more effort

I’m bloated

I feel like a failure with no self respect or control

I feel lethargic

I’m now in a shit mood and taking it out on people around me

I feel sick

I wasted money on mid food when there are 5000 things I’d rather save money for

The short term satisfaction was not worth it. It felt good for literally the few seconds the food was in my mouth and now I hate myself

The cravings will pass

Feeling empty is so much better than feeling full

Idc if you’re on your period. Grow up

F4st1ng/r3strict1ng feels sooooo much more rewarding

However hungry you are right now, you can wait until you get home where there is plenty of healthy food that won’t make you feel guilt

No, you don’t need to buy the box of snacks just to have on hand because you can practise restraint and only have one. You will eat the whole box. Save your money, don’t even go into the shop

I’m further from my goals than I was this morning

I had come this far without binging and now I’ve ruined my progress and have to start again

I’m terrified to weigh myself tomorrow instead of excited to see how much I lost

The longer i go without a binge, the easier it gets

The post binge clarity has me stressing the fuck out but what’s done is done, all I can do now is try to be better.

IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK TO LOSE TEN KGS IN TWO WEEKS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

All I need is -5kg

Is it too much to ask for??

I dreamt that I binged at my grandma's house behind her back while she was sleeping... What the actual heck.

Did anyone else go through a random recovery where your mental health just improved in general which allowed you to kick your ED mentality to the curb and see through body dysmorphia but then gained a decent amount of weight making you unhappy with your body and reverting back to ED habits even though you don’t have the same obsession anymore and now feel like you don’t really have an ED anymore because it’s not that bad you just have disordered eating and also kinda wish your mental health would just fuck up so you could at least go back to being a real Anorexic/bulimic ect. Because boy this feels shit and confusing and I really do feel like I’m faking it now.

Oh honey... Did you forget? You're in control. Don't you want to see the number drop? Don't you want to feel your bones sticking out? Don't you want to be proud of yourself? Don't you want to get closer to your goal? Don't you want to be perfect?

Manifesting the honeymoon phase ✨✨✨

Day 3: A picture of your th!nsp!rat!0n. What features do you like about this person?

Unfortunately, I cannot find the picture of my th!nspø. However, I remember that I liked how far apart their lëgs/th!ghs were. Their frame looked so petite and just were honestly so th!n. It was a wort of candid shot so you really couldn't see much. It was a academic/school sort of themed inspiration.

Day 2: How tall are you, do you like your height?

I'm 153 cm / 5 ft tall, and I do not like my height. Maybe it's because of my ED that I self-sabotaged myself and stunted my bone development/growth... I honestly don't know anymore. I pray that this isn't my permanent height.

I miss my honeymoon phase... Why is it so difficult to lose 3 kg now...

Day 1: Stats

CW: 34 kg / 75 lbs

H: 153 cm / 5 ft

BMI: 14.5

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Manifesting self-control

why do I have 0 self control now

Tips to stop b1nging

1. Change ur mindset around f0od, it should never be the highlight of ur day and u should become content with eating boring ass me@ls. This will not only help u think about f0od less but also give u alternatives to do when u want to b1nge

2. Find something u love to do that’s distracting enough to get ur mind off of f0od it can be anything for example I like to do arts and crafts, see, colour it can truly be anything but hobbies r sooooo important

3. U also need to stop approaching f0od like a scarce resource u do not need to e@t everything at once think how nice it would be to have a cookie today and a cookie tmw and be able to e@t it twice instead of b1nging and just ending up with a stomachache and regret. This honestly changed my life sm and now im able to keep unhealthy f0od like cookies and chips around without wanting to b1nge on the entire bag

4. However while it is important to practice portion control we def all have f0ods that more often then not lead to a b1nge (for me it’s industrial cakes and Nutella for example) and u absolutely cannot keep those in the house like don’t shoot urself in the foot start by trying to be mindful around unhealthy f0od that u don’t love love love first yk

5. Reevaluation ur c@l intake if ur stuck constantly restr1cting and b1nging its probably bc ur daily c@l intake is too low once i started eating 600 instead of 500 it literally helped me sm its better to eat a bit more everyday then to devour a 10000 c@l fest every weekend

6. Start e@ting more throughout the day it’s often bc u get this uncontrollable hunger at night that pushes u to b1nge but if u e@t throughout the day ull feel more satiated and r thus less likely to b1nge

7. If u feel like b1nging for comfort bc ur day sucked then go outside and take a walk im not kidding it will make u feel sm better and take ur mind off of f0od

8. It is also important to not cut out all the unhealthy stuff it’s ok to have a piece of cake or a croissant once in a while (key word once in a while) by allowing urself some treats u get to realize that it will always be available to u and ull get better at portion control

9. And just be honest with urself it’s not bc u didn’t log the entire cake u just scarfed down that it won’t show up on ur b0dy like u need to learn to accept what happend and move on especially bc I find that logging and then finding out what the new goal w3ight date is really motivating to stop b1nging

10. If all else fails get n@ked in front of a mirror and then go to sleep

That’s all I can think of rn but lmk if it helps <3

I have a very exciting new discovery! Dance workouts! It might seem silly but they're actually making working out and burning calories fun and less torturous. I can burn 200 calories in less than an hour. They work much better than jogging in place. So very proud of that one, although... I did go over my 500 kcal limit today by a landslide, but I burned off all the excess!

P.S. Do you guys have any tips for any upcoming events? I have a party coming up tomorrow and a celebration the next day and I have not prepared at all. Should I try to adjust my kcals or just not focus on the food at all/avoid them?

coke zero, the love of my life

quick reminder: take your vitamins ✨

Should I break my fast...? I'm a day and a half into it but I'm starting to feel really weak and have no energy at all. I can barely walk a few distances before my feet feel like their about to give in and feel like I'll drop if I don't stop for a break.

i feel so gross knowing i ate all the food on my plate but they didn’t even make a dent in theirs. like hello wdym

Your Ana guide of 2025

“We’re all winter girls this year!”

Effective tips

- drink 500 ml of water before you eat (can be ice cold or warm)

- cut all your food into small pieces (half,then cut the half ibi quarters,etc)

- don’t binge or purge, it’s worse than restricting

- don’t do high intensity exercises because they make you hungrier

- avoid doing a keto diet,yes I know.

- eat your dinner late so you won’t binge

- skip breakfast

- avoid chewing and spitting ,focus on restriction instead

- have a long time before your next meal for proper digestion like 7-9 hours

- try to eat homemade food 80 percent of the time

- go on the 5 bite diet

- go on the treadmill 2-3 times a week and burn 500 cals or go every other day and burn 200

- always find excuses to not eat like “I’m not hungry”,” I just recently ate lunch by thank you!” “Sorry, I have a stomach we”, “I feel sick, I think I’m going to lie down”

- always say no when people offer you food

- if you can’t estimate the calories of it or don’t know the exact ones,don’t eat it

- drink about 1.5 to 2 liters of water daily

- don’t eat fast food,pizza,cookies,biscuits,chips,cinnamon rolls,cereal,Nutella,pb and j,candy,chocolate,fries and burgers (unless it’s homemade or air fried),cakes,cupcakes,

- eat\drink oatmeal,soups,rice cakes,rice,pasta,salmon,tuna,chicken,beef,bread,diet sodas,yogurt,tea,coffee,fruits,vegetables

- eat sometimes or rarely pancakes,waffles and pizza (1 a month only)

- eat in front of family so they don’t get suspicious

- keep busy to avoid eating ; watch movies and tv shows,read books,exercise,stretch,draw,paint,listen to music,go on TikTok or tumblr,watch YouTube,crochet,talk to friends,etc

- do multiple diets so you always know what’s your calorie limit or plan ; this avoids binges

- stop doing metabolism days,they are a myth and just an excuse to shove food in your mouth, just keep restricting even more once you reach a plateau

- do cardio first to get rid of fat,then Pilates to tone yourself

- skip as much meals as you can and replace them with drinks (tea,coffee,water,monster,smoothies,etc)

- if your stomach is really and I mean REALLY flat at ANY point of the day, not just when you wake up, that means you’ve been starving yourself effectively so continue doing it UNLESS someone asks “did you eat?” Then that’s your signal to eat or drink something so they don’t get suspicious

How to survive eating out or at restaurants

- share your food with a family member or a friend,let them eat most of it like all the fries and you can just eat your burger or cut the burger and fries into half

- NEVER say yes to dessert or if you don’t,don’t be eating a meal as well! Trust me,desserts are usually high calorie

- always order Diet Coke or water or any other diet beverage

- eat slowly and cut your food into small pieces

- sit up straight while you eat so your digestion is good and you can tell when your hungry

- use less or no sauces

[alternative* don’t go out to eat and just air-fry a burger and fries (preferably 10-12 fries) at home,pick your lowest calorie bread and cut off all the crust,add some tomatoes,drink a Diet Coke or water with it and use less sauces! This will usually come around to 250-400 calories for everything which isn’t too bad than an 1200 meal at a restaurant)

- drink lots of water before and after your meal

- ask your family and friends if they want to walk after eating (usually they would as it’s good to walk after eating) this will burns cals and help your digestion!

Getting into the honey moon phase

My method for getting yourself into restrictions of all types or a “honeymoon phase”.

- drink tea right when you wake up

- 5 after after that, eat a small lunch. Preferably, home cooked food that either you or your parents made (like rice and salmon or some pasta and beef) Make sure it’s a SMALL meal

- don’t eat or drink ANYTHING for the next 9 hours

- you should notice your stomach is super flat right now like REALLy flat as you only drank tea and has a very small meal for kind

- it’s probably late now, around 10-12 at night so grab a Diet Coke and whatever you want to eat

( hint: it CAN be something like fast food or not, if it’s pizza then grab the thinnest,smallest slice. If it’s a burger,cut it into half/a quarter and eat it,its fries only eat 5 of them)

- drink more tea then go to bed

- weigh yourself the next morning (you’ll lose a lot don’t worry)

- because you lost a lot,now you’ll be motivated to continue starving and BOOm honeymoon phase is back and better than ever.

Things i’ve noticed naturally sk1nny people do

TW before readingggg: i do not promote any of the habits listed below and i do not know 100% how “naturally sk1nny” ppl live their daily lives these are just things i have noticed from my sk1nny friends and family…

1. picky eaters

they don’t want to try anything new and if they know they don’t like something they won’t e4t/drink it period. This narrows down their food options and limits their di3t to only certain foods.

2. never finishes food & food waste

they stop e4ting when their body is satisfied. they don’t feel the need to stuff themselves and never e4t more their their body tells them to. they always say they’re full and offer the rest of their food to someone else. even if it looks like they buy or order a lot of food they only end up eating 1/2 or 1/4 of it before throwing the rest out.

3. daily exercise or cardio

no matter what they’re doing they always have some kind of exercise included into their daily lifestyle wether that be walking to work or school, shopping sprees, going to the gym or simply exercising at home. no matter what is going on in their day they always have some type of exercise implemented.

4. f4sting

they f4st without realizing. only eating their first meal around mid day which is probably not even a meal just a snack. typically light snacks keep them content throughout the day until their main meal around dinner time.

5. distractions

often naturally sk1nny people forget to e4t because they don’t really care about food. they get distracted by other things that fulfill themselves such as reading a book or drawing, watching a good show, taking long long naps or taking their pets for a walk etc…

end 🫶 thank you for reading!!! likes and reposts are appreciated