LOOK HOW PWETTY THEY AREEEE

I hate being pampered because the next day I feel so empty, so touch and so love starved.

I want to kiss someone but not in a perverted romantic way.

I want to kiss someone in the sense of soothing cannibalism in which you make me understand that my being, like my rotten flesh, still causes you warm feelings even though it has a high grade of decomposition.

I hate the emptiness after getting a little attention.

I'm in my bed with my freshly changed sheets, I left class early because they weren't doing anything interesting, I got drunk last night

Oh how I regret having drunk so much last night, I soiled my bed sheets and the floor with vomit, my body felt so numb, my body felt nothing my consciousness was wandering but I remained conscious, to the point where I remember starting to ramble out loud, It's funny because it's really the only time I felt like I said something something something but I don't remember that something. When I woke up in the morning I still felt so dizzy and sick, I just told my mom that I must have overeaten.

I'll never get drunk like that again, sleeping pills do the same job and in a less disastrous way.

I feel so promiscuous when a man touches me, no matter how it is, I feel dirty, I feel guilty and yet I can't help but crave physical contact, physical affection.

I never ever deserve to be happy by someone's side, I don't know why I never get it clear.

The only one I told what really happened was him, It was interesting because he seemed to barely care, which I kind of like, please hate me and try to get away from me.

stalker, where are you?? stalker~~~

I promise I would try to not bite.

Ty for the spam :3 <3

Aww, u're welcome!~~ ^^

I feel alone again

At least this time it doesn't hurt as much as before/j

I just feel numb and fuzzy and tired and-

I don't even know what I feel

I never really got along with my cousin... whenever people ask me about her I just say "we're cousins but not necessarily friends". Today she posted a pic of her nephew because it was his birthday, I know him and have spent time with and honestly he is quite cute, so I told her to send him a happy birthday from me.

I don't know why that made my heart happy today, she also asked me how I was, and even though I don't deserve it because I haven't contacted her since we left school... It felt nice that such a kind person like her asked it. She has always seemed pretty to me because she is a very kind and inspiring person, sometimes I fantasize about having a heart as kind as hers, but I know I won't achieve it.

I don't want to do anything now, I don't want to do anything tomorrow, I just don't want to do anything, I can't do anything

Y'all look at my bone dress, I love it so much! ! ~~