I Like The Sum Of Numbers Starting From 4, Except Those Who Wear 6

I feel alone again

At least this time it doesn't hurt as much as before/j

I just feel numb and fuzzy and tired and-

I don't even know what I feel

Me? Intense? Yes, even bordering on sadistic, so it's preferably better if you don't provoke me.

Reblog if you're okay with people liking your vent posts pls pls.

Like- I'm in the middle of spamming notes and I don't know if you feel comfortable if I like those posts too. TT

Sure I feel pathetic venting on social media, but damn, I still have so much hate and sadness lingering inside me.

"Sorry, my finger is already taken"

"You have another 19 free"

THAT WAS WILD BRO, keep going.

I like to sleep because I can dream, or at least I can pretend to dream.

And in my dreams there are things that I can call mine, things that exist especially and only for me.

Not like in the depressing reality where everything is ephemeral and nothing really needs me and therefore nothing can truly be mine either.

I want to cut because seeing the blood run is like being able to cry when I can't, my whole soul really shudders because I can't do it, I'm so sorry nothing will change

I didn't just spent more than the last hour crying just for today, I spent that time crying for what awaits me in the next months, the next years. I'm tired of repeating to myself "just one more day", isn't every day just one more day?. I just really want to end it all

new fav doodle with my husband yippieee <33

I hope my moots don't mind that I see them as lab rats that I have to research intensively and I would give everything to protect my little project.