More Monsoon Again. I Meant To Draw His Feet Position On Top, Detailed Hands Folded Behind His Back On

previous time i thought "nice, finally nailing it". think again)0

huey must've implemented a version of the boss ai into one of his vapes like how we have vapes with screens on them now

i think that's part of the "live and die under your orders" thing. (more below bc long post)

he was willing to sacrifice his life to shield big boss, so it is possible to assume he would be willing to give the rest of his life to the cause of big boss, and being big boss himself is a reward of sorts. also it is not only for personal safety of ishmael but to raise the chances of him achieving his goals; i don't think he thought venom snake will be ok at all, but i think he thought it is worth it and that venom snake would agree. which is still a very questionable thing to do ofc.

it's funny that you see him as a villain only bc for me it's the opposite: i have to remind myself what's wrong with him to not just see him as a cool guy lol. i was looking closely while playing pw to see the hints of him becoming evil or smth, and there were very few. even in mgsv i was upset the game isn't finished bc among other things i hoped to finally get the explanation of how he became the evil guy (if ever). now i hope to get it in mgs4 but will see how it goes.

in peace walker and portable ops there were two "villainy" things i noticed: kidnapping people to his pmc (which i at first disregarded as limitation of gameplay mechanics but is more fun to take literally) and being really dedicated to his goals and putting them first (as in when chico feels bad for breaking, he comforts him in a way that will make chico join the msf). and the second part is rather likeable to me than a reason to think he's a villain ngl. people in real world (not everyone ofc but many) were happy to have an opportunity give their life and death to a cause. huey really highlights it in mgsv for me: in a way, dd is play pretend, but i don't think it's a delusion bc they make it real with their own effort: they do impact the world and even their big boss becomes real big boss via his accomplishments and struggle.

i think that the boss was so loved by her followers bc she gave it her all, and big boss tried to follow and surpass her in that, and that's the appeal and i can't really see him as a villain (especially since he's fictional and thus any of his wrongs can be forgivable). interesting to see a person with opposite opinion.

also earlier you've posted that ishmael, unlike ahab, didn't even cry for his dead staff or smth. that's creepy of you ngl :) as a person who doesn't always cry at funerals of people i cared about, kinda scary that it could be perceived as me being indifferent rather than expressing my feelings in a different way (or not expressing them at all). as for big boss, there is an entire scene in portable ops when a staff member dies. it is not a 100% proof of what snake thought and felt, but i assume the game should more or less reflect his pov, and he cared, just thought that whatever losses can't be prevented are acceptable for a worthy cause, among soldiers and military people who signed up for it at least.

Venom's arc explained in a picture from the player's perspective

Playing MGSV:TPP you have 2 choices:

You can be good or bad. You can kill, destroy, use and do everything in your power to be the worst person alive. You can be kind, you can save animals, kids, soldiers, grow a family and be a respectable man.

There's actually no choice. There's no two-tracks. The ending is the same. History will see you as a villain. You are a villain. You are, currently, the perfect depiction of the most wanted and most evil man alive, according to the world.

You have no lever. You cannot stop this from happening. Either close your eyes or watch, the ending will be the same. Your life will end in misery. The only relief? Boss will pat your shoulder and let you die with a false sense of accomplishment. Congrats. That's the panthom pain everybody talks about.

come to think of it, in lobster the protagonist first suffers from loss of a partner and then suffers from having a partner but in difficult hostile societal conditions, and in the end he faces the choice whether he wants to do a reckless thing (sacrifice a body part, even) to abandon his current militant group together with her. more common details than expected)0

late night kazuhira

reference to the poster for "the lobster"

reference, text and more below

i guess drawing this guy the other day paid off bc this is the best i have managed to make to date. didn't actually take me 25 minutes, i was doing it for ~20 extra minutes bc i liked how it was going so far and wanted to finish. might return to it later and fix it a bit more.

i am satisfied with the 5 minute guy and not satisfied with the 5 minute lady at all, as well as the 10 minute lady except for hair which is my most decent attempt at conveying long hair structure so far.

seen a post about "yule boasting" - a tradition of publicly making "new year's resolutions" of unrealistic nature that will not be accomplished. fast google search did provide some mentions of a boasting tradition as a part of yule celebration but not enough details for me to consider the post accurate. however, i like the idea and if the yule boasting tradition didn't exist in that particular form before, now it does bc i am going to partake - feel free to join!

so, the deeds i will accomplish in 2025:

- draw the boss from metal gear smiling with joy and tenderness, a picture so good that the indomitable will itself will descend onto me and possess me, and a glimmer of it will be visible to anyone who lay eyes on the drawing

- sing 100 songs, quiet and loud, in privacy and in company of other people, friends and strangers

- please 100 ladies in sexual way, or please a lesser amount of ladies 100 times in total

- slay a number of foes in real life and thus prove myself worthy and earn the right to marry the old fashioned way

- feast on 100 meals (vegan)

- observe 100 wild beasts, big and small

- lift 100 stones (mostly small)

- read 10 good books (not 100, not that unrealistic lol)

- love 100 people: strangers, project partners, friends, romantic partners, family and foes

- find a decent and bearable reason to live that doesn't make me frustrated lol

feel free to post your own yule boasting, while arguably useless it is fun and sincere!

i made a fanart of your fanart >]

quick domestic strangeboss doodle

today's line of action. got some clothed pics for the long ones for change - glad that i can draw clothes better than before.

i am reaching the point where i get frustrated at being not good enough more than i have fun, but i think i will get through it since i have company and drawabox exercises that aren't portrait drawing.

more (and worse) below

my friend persuaded me to use a liner instead of pencil this time. it sucked lol, i did everything wrong: starting from bad lines and ending by worrying too much about the lines and no possibility to use eraser i forgot about the line of action and messed up the proportions big time. for the last one he proposed using pen so it would be a bit easier than liner. it was a bit easier and actually enjoyable. i messed up the buttock shading and tried again, but messed up face this time (as well as the shape in general) so after the timer reached the limit i drew shades on her and sent her to a tropical resort just to have a bit fun. i also tried a new way of shading in the liner sketches, doesn't look good yet but i will try more.

i started this little sketch/practice diary with intention to post no matter how bad the pic is, so this is the reason im posting it.

miller redraw as a treat to myself

pros: easy to understand (i hope so at least) proportions, hence fun to draw

cons: the model looks bad lol, i like mgsv miller design with the new hairstyle and stylish clothes but is that really how some people's stubble grows?