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wow shading in digital is just like painting (i am bad af at it and don't understand how it's done). i think i have learnt something towards the end of my attempt to shade it, but not nearly enough ofc. big shaded areas are especially hard for me (look at his thigh lol). didn't do a full hour of practice but did some quick doodles and then ~10 minutes or so of 3 layer image (line of action and other messy lines, the outline and my attempt at shading). at least it got fun enough in the end for me to see next digital practice as a fun activity and not just something necessary.

anyway, never give up, i will get there some day and so will you

watched an hour long lecture on face drawing to be able to draw monsoon better... i doubted i would be able to apply any of that, but it seems it was useful to some extent

my impressions about the new nosferatu movie (spoilers ahead)

first of all, i see it as a movie about a woman who didn't get enough love and appreciation from society and whose wishes weren't prioritised by her husband (and society in general) as much as she liked, so she got herself a powerful demonic lover whose sole purpose for being in this world is to please her and he is ready to sail the sea in a coffin and kill entire city with plague to get her to willingly (as much as possible considering aforementioned things) consent to be with him, and dies a hero saving everyone when no one else could, rather than lives a life of a person disregarded and deemed hysterical and of secondary importance. she is the most informed and in control in this situation (the doctor finds out a lot too but she already knows everything he knows), as opposed to before the plague, when her worries were disregarded and she was considered hysterical. her wishes and her role in defeating the nosferatu seem to be different from a typical male oriented fantasy, so i wasn't the assumed target audience and the most relatable character was friedrich harding who was unable to adapt to the irrational and occult stuff, got exhausted and died lol, but i still enjoyed the movie. i am not a woman and only know about feminine traditions in horror genre from youtube videos on "wicker mag" channel and podcasts by the same person, so sorry if i am misinterpreting it.

second thing is the vampire metaphor. rather than being an image of a feudalism related class fears, in this movie (in the first half of ot) nosferatu rather seems to embody immigrants related fear. i am not xenophobic and haven't moved out of my country of origin myself but i assume that this correlates with some real and popular fears: a guy goes to a foreign country that is considered less civilised and is frightened by local customs, he then meets a person who he must invite to become his neighbour, and is even more terrified by him. despite the count being not fond of local scary customs too, it's not hard to imagine the guy might think now that there's a reason behind them. after arriving to the other country where everything seems to be going well, the immigrant then immediately contaminates it with plague and tries his best to have sex with the guy's wife. looks like exaggerated real fears about immigrants that i don't personally have or approve of but that might be popular enough to be reflected in a movie.

third, the cat was in the room during the final epic hot kamikaze sex, very funny, i laughed aloud in the cinema.

fourth, ellen hutter reminded me about real person behaviour. when a person was unable to get the love they need and safe reliable relationship, and it has effect on them (in the movie it was her summoning the demon) which helps to cope at first but becomes not fun later, and when they finally meet a person who loves them and wants to be with them, they get very close (like the movie character wanted her husband to disregard work and chill with her) and the next moment they push them away (like she said she's unworthy of his love bc she sinned or smth). it's a cruel irony, people being unable to maintain a relationship with no complications precisely as a consequence of needing it very much and that need being unfulfilled for a long time. this was probably the scariest part of the movie for me personally bc although young husband tried better than me he failed anyway, either being unable to protect his wife or being a less preferable partner for her than the vampire depending on how you interpret her decision.

fifth, epic of nosferatu to disregard the impending sunrise to get his partner off for the 9999th time. and funny that there is a scene of him literally bouncing on a man's pelvis (clothed) and moaning. it is also amusing that in this movie nosferatu seems to be an incubus (yet the ladies sitting next to me seemed to find him unattractive lol - although i'm sure there are people who disagree)

also could anyone tell me what lilac means in the movie? thomas hutter brought a bouquet to ellen hutter in the beginning, nosferatu said ellen's hair lock smells like it and the doctor put it on the bed in the end. is there some symbolism in this flower?

i hope this post was interesting, feel free to engage in any form, share your own thoughts or criticise or correct me

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heck yes, coercing my roommate into drawing miller by yapping about him all day every day! >]

kazuhira miller for my roomie bc the guy cant stop talking about kazuhira miller

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it's past 12 AM here so i'm technically late for the daily practice, but i think i cooked with the 25 minute one (which actually took me ~40 minutes) to the point i am going to post it separately.

i tried drawing the 10 minute guy as ellipses and then filling in, it was fun but the result is meh. i am also trying to draw faces when there's enough time. won't post the sheets with all the short ones bc there's nothing interesting there, but i am satisfied with the 5 minute guy bc i drew him fast and had some time for shading and details, and with the 1 minute lady lying on her back doodle.

looking at yesterday's drawings after getting some sleep. hilarious (good)

could you draw venom snake or naked snake with rodents? i like how rodents are a recurring theme in mgs: snake's "friends" in mgs1, a picture of gerbil fulton in the chopper in mgsv, a closet full of venomous hamsters that instakill you in mg2, edible rats in mgs3 etc. i choose to believe that bog boss is deliberately filling every mother base with rodents. could you depict him engaging in activities with them? could be extracting rodents from the field, being covered in rodents, petting them, observing each other, engaging in feral behaviour together - anything, i just think that'd be cool

you really had me pondering about the mgs rodent lore & then I realized Raiden is once again a different Codename Snake Bearer as there are no rodents in mgs2 (nor mgrr either as far as I know) ... he gets water bugs instead

have you noticed how the title of boss in mgs is almost mocking, and those who have it are a tool of some forces they are unable to deny?

the boss has respect and obedience of people around her, such as strangelove and other researchers, snake, the cobras, volgin etc. but she earns it exactly by giving her all to whatever task she's assigned to, which were often harmful to her or suicidal. she clearly doesn't want to kill the sorrow or convince snake she's a traitor, and mb she didn't want to go to space and do other stuff either, but she either was blackmailed into those missions by threatening her child or thought it was her responsibility to tie up loose ends or smth. so, what leads to her being the boss is really extreme obedience, often contrary to her own interests.

when snake is "awarded" the title of big boss, it already looks like mockery as it is: he and you, the player, know there's not much heroism in killing the boss. i haven't played mg, mg2 and mgs4 yet, so this might be canonically disproven, but mgsv seems to me like it takes the extreme obedience even further: some organisation says "we're giving your identity to some other guy" and he's like "ok yay ❤️ 🚬🏍️". it is also notable how in portable ops and peace walker he fights people whose ideas he will directly adopt (nation of mercenaries and metal gear). of course he is the next legendary soldier and his followers respect and obey him, but it seems he earned that by fulfilling some organisation's plan (not in form of direct missions this time) with great skill and dedication. it was interesting to see his path from solo stealth operative to a leader in portable ops, and it does seem like people follow him bc of his field skills (and bc of being put in the brig) than management skills (although he is a charismatic leader).

if you replace "boss" with "tool" or "weapon", it makes just as much sense in terms of passing down the code name. their authority only exists among soldiers and scientists and pows and doesn't exist at all for the people who use them. and it seems that in metal gear when there is a super soldier, the government (or patriots or whoever else) is always training a new one that could kill them if needed. so, both people who get the codename get it after proving they can be made to do anything no matter how much they dislike it, which is ironic.