Family

For oft, when on my couch I lie In vacant or in pensive mood, They flash upon that inward eye Which is the bliss of solitude; And then my heart with pleasure fills, And dances with the daffodils.

William Wordsworth

I Wandered Lonely As A Cloud

Does he...?

There was a time I got my heart broken by a friend. Not an extremely close friend but a friend nonetheless. The words just came out of my mouth and I ran. We never talked about it but our mutual friend said he didn’t like me like that. So I pretended it never happened and never let him see me cry over him.

I don’t like him like that anymore and haven’t seen him in forever but I wonder if he thinks about that sometimes. Does he regret how things happened? Does he feel bad for breaking my heart? I don’t blame him for it and I know now that he could never have feelings for me but still. I know he cared about me.

Does he even remember? I don’t know if that would be good or bad

Why I Love Halloween

It’s the one day of the year where you can dress as anything

It’s the one day of the year where you can truly become someone else

it’s the one day of the year where you see other’s creativity and interests

It’s the one day of the year where it’s fun to be scared

And did I mention CANDY!!!!

Time flies

Where has all the time gone

All my friends are out getting engaged and I’m sitting at home with my dog

At least I’ll get to be a bridesmaid

List of My Fictional Crushes

Edmund Pevensie - The Chronicles of Narnia

Peter Parker (Spiderman) - Marvel

Harry Potter - Harry Potter

Ginny Weasley - Harry Potter

George Weasley - Harry Potter

Madame Lefoux - Parasol Protectorate

Suki - ATLA

Bolin - LOK

Haruhi Fujioka - OHSHC

Tamaki Suoh - OHSHC

Kyoya Ootori - OHSHC

Kaoru Hitachiin - OHSHC

Pidge Gunderson (Katie Holt) - Voltron

Newt - The Maze Runner

Angus Macgyver - Macgyver

Dipper Pines - Gravity Falls

Lloyd Garmadon - Ninjago

Luz Noceda - The Owl House

Klaus Baudelaire - A Series of Unfortunate Events

Riley Poole - National Treasure

Kirishima Eijirou - BNHA

Midoriya Izuku - BNHA

Group Projects Suck

Group projects can be so awful sometimes. I had to work with a partner on a big project and we worked really hard on it. Our paper, slides, and video presentation were awesome and my partner said she had submitted our presentation since only one of us had to and I believed her.

Why did I believe her? Now, two days after the deadline I was scrolling through the presentations looking at the other ones and ours isn’t there! Two days after the submission is locked. I have no idea what happened. It was probably a miscommunication but why didn’t I check for myself. This is worth an entire letter grade. Trust but verify.

I don’t know what I’m going to do, probably plead my case to the teacher Monday morning but I have no clue how she’ll react. At least we turned in the paper part of the project separately so that’s on time at least.

Still it’s just so frustrating!

Noticed

I write on tumblr as a way to speak without being noticed personally and it’s nice. I can state honest opinions and preferences. But today one of my favorite authors liked one of my posts and wow just wow! I was so excited and happy! I felt noticed but in a good way.

Support

Sometimes days are really hard and you feel really sad. When that happens just remember that there are people who love you more than you even know. You may not even realize they’re there but they are. Let them comfort you, let them hold you while you cry, let them support you.

Choice

They say that the person who cares the least has the power and that must be true. It sucks. The people I care about, I care so deeply for but it’s always more than they care about me. Sometimes I’m the only one reaching.

It may be really selfish but I wish there was someone who would choose me. Someone who cares as much about me as I do for them.

Doubt

I think everyone underestimates just how bad doubt is. Doubt makes you wonder if your friends even care about you. Doubt makes you wonder if your family is annoyed with you. Doubt makes you think you’re not good enough.

It hurts and the source of all that pain is doubt.