Terrible-hated-demon

BPD culture is snapping over little things and trying to apologize for the way you acted and freaking out again when the person you snapped at doesnt get over it as fast as you do because then you think “they hate me why are they still upset over this theyve never liked me they're still mad they hate me”

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dunno who needs to hear this but sometimes people don't want you to improve they want to constantly make you do self flagellation. find many more reasons why you can't and hold shit, especially shit from years ago, over your head as a block. it's fine to not forgive someone but if you see a person not making the same mistakes again, and infact are trying to make amends for their actions and do every possible thing they can to get better, then let them be. nobody is fucking perfect, especially to those who are barely starting adulthood.

BPD culture is life always being too much. Your old friends want you dead because you had the fucking AUDACITY to experience symptoms you WARNED THEM ABOUT??? You absolute piece of shit, how could you react violently to trauma? And it’s a cycle. It keeps fucking happening. Over and over again. And nobody will ever stand up for you.

I'm sorry OP :(

Bpd culture is having too much love and care inside you and not knowing how to distribute any of it so you give it all to one person and get sad when they don't care about you as much as you care about them.

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bpd culture is drawing you killing yourself because it's satisfying

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bpd culture is changing your entire personality and aesthetic based on a character you relate to or just some random person you thought was cool because you don’t know who the fuck you are

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i got a b in personality disorders??? did i not study enough?

tw sui ideations + jealousy + a lotta self hate

Why does it hurt why does it hurt why does it hurt Why does it hurt so much when i find out my fp has a partner fuck fuck fuck this is so stupid i literally am dating someone romantically and my relationship with my fp is strictly platonic so why does it hurtso much when i found out xe's dating someone Am i that scared of abandonment fuck this is so stupid fuck i hate this i hate myself im so scared i might lose xyr fuck i made a mistake getting too comfortable fuck xyrd be suspicious if i just started distancing myself from xyr and our friend group but god it hurts so much god i hate relationships so much i wish i could just bury myself alive god god i dont know what to do i really wished i just killed myself i wished one of my two attempts succeeded it hurts So much to be alive knowing this i wish i didnt have bpd i wish i didnt have to deal with this i wished i was alone but i have to stay strong i guess i have to Stay alive just for everyone i love and i fucking hate it i hate being loved please stop loving me it isnt worth it please please let me die alone crying myself to sleep

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BPD culture is never being able to tell who is the toxic one in any of your relationships because it is always assumed you are the bad one.