bpd culture is crying all the time because you will never be loved the same way you love others. crying because you are constantly being torn apart by the violence of your own love
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paranoia
*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP
yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D
paranoia
mood depending on them
every text hurts or feels way too good
intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH
the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive
paranoia
fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3
"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"
becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention
never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back
cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME
oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself
"just leave. everyone does anyways"
5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever
*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?
dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had
paranoia
me and my undying urge to be someone’s favorite
bpd culture is just go ahead and tell me right in the face that i'm annoying. dont act like youre alright talking to me. you probably talk shit about me behind my back, saying that i'm so fucking annoying and humiliating and disgusting.
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They should make a "are you mad at me" that is taken neutrally and informationally every time and doesn't make everything worse when you ask it
wouldn’t it be cool if i could just ask “hey do you still like me” without literally wanting to eat my own organs out of shame
this is a very specific thing, but bpd culture is getting upset because of something ur fp did but still craving their attention/their comfort that you just crumble once u finally see that notification
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bpd culture is constant urge to talk a lot and overshare but being able to do it only if you’re 100% sure other person really wants to listen to you (and stopping when they get slightly distracted or you notice a slightest change in their voice or eyes or anything else)
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bpd culture is drawing you killing yourself because it's satisfying
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Bpd culture is living in constant guilt and misery over the fact that some personality disorder you had no control over and didn't ask for will permanently ruin your life and relationships forever. Nothing is more discouraging than knowing that the way I am is literally exactly what people are told to avoid in friends/partners/etc. making me virtually untouchable and most likely forever alone. The isolation really gets to me sometimes and honestly at this point I'd rather be dead than alone and hated by society for a disorder that I never even asked for in the first place.
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Autistic BPD culture is seeing a character in a tv show/movie that you are obsessed with, and getting so overwhelmed by the emotions you feel when you see them that it triggers a meltdown (just happened)
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