“are You A Top Or Bottom?” I’m A Burden Bro

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Weight loss spell to lose 20+ lbs by July

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i’ll eat smth and be like

“idrc abt my weight anymore i wanna be happy”

and then…

*sobs*

i hate that im relapsing. i wont tell anyone, not even my girlfriend. i hate that i fought so hard to defeat this disorder before, gaining 30 pounds in less than a year, all to go right back to my destructive habits. but i cant stop. i cant fit in my clothes, im taking up more space, and i wish i liked myself enough now to stay like this. but i hate myself.

i dont see ugly in anyone unless i know theyre a bad person. maybe i think im a bad person. i do, sometimes. i wish i wasnt so angry and temperamental. i wish i didnt struggle to do everyday things. i wish i was BETTER.

i guess i thought gaining weight would help but apparently that wasnt it. and now im beating myself up all over again. now i feel like ive gone too far, and now im in too deep.

i wish i was stronger…

Pierce The Veil - Wonderless

god i miss being this thin. this was me in 2020.

im so glad i smoke as much 🍃 as i do bc i lose my appetite and the weight starts falling off. and it helps with my anger issues <3 i just love 🍃💚

i binged on taco bell. i didnt eat it all but i had at least 900c@ls. my body isnt used to heavy restricting anymore, so i need to be easier on myself. and stick to the healthy foods, especially if i feel like binging. not gonna beat myself up even though i feel horrible. i feel like a failure. i’ll try again tomorrow.