TW : rant/dump
I’m not fishing for anything, I just really needed to say this, and I’m not willing to put it on anyone I know. Please don’t read this if you’re unwell. I don’t want to add to anyone else’s struggle
I just needed to get off my chest,
This couple weeks have been… not good.
My grandma has been making sui/homi threats when she can’t get more pain meds, my grandpa is obsessed with conspiracy politics and won’t keep it to himself, my mom depends on me emotionally
My shelf came off the wall and broke my file box and shattered a glass frame all over the floor
I spilled soda so incredibly that it got on my carpet, walls, floor, the bottom of my bed (?), my printer, my extension cord, my yarn basket, and so many other places I keep finding
I ruined an entire load of clothes with chapstick, it will not come out, and my mom tossed them
My air purifier itself has started smelling like mold despite upkeep
My windowsill is covered in mold and my plaster is cake and even my carpenter uncle can’t figure out my Schrödinger studs
Because of all these things I’ve been having to fix or account for on top of my medical bills and car bills and insurance bills I can’t even quite make it paycheck to paycheck
I don’t have the time or money to take care of procedures I’m supposed to have done already
My doctor says I’m in the chronic pain of someone twice my age and that my job isn’t going to work for me in the long term and my job is trying to shove me out but I can’t find another job that won’t kill my mental health, physical health, or support me financially
Im just stuck,
I’m stuck.
So anyway a nurse made me cry today
Me every day:
“I should post that sketch I made!”
*doesn’t*
Browsing fanart is a roadtrip thru
I’m crying 😂🤣
I’m crying 😢😭
I’m crying 😰😖
I’m crying 🥹🥰
I am screaming a lot on the inside and a little on the outside
I did an art.
If you happen to see the other place I posted this plz don’t.
For your pleasure,, items for sale that make me want to cry or possibly laugh:
If your knees hurt a lot when you stand all day for a job, check how you turn.
I do not know how people are supposed to turn, but given that the way I do it has been an unrealized source of pain, you can do it wrong.
I tend to let my leg stay on the ground for too long upon pivoting, leading to my femur twisting on top of my knee.
The solution I have found is spinning.
You spin on your heel, letting gravity carry you in the proper direction
It makes you look kinda like a weirdo and wears down your shoes faster but at least it doesn’t wear down your knee joint?
Strange thing a customer has said to me #476:
“You look kinda Asian, like my daughter. So if you like it, she’ll like it.”
Ink drawing of ideas for improvement for my city
I’m not a city designer this is just what I think would be cool - don’t come for me lol
Diff things u can see looking closely:
-solar panels shading a pedestrian crossing (we have a lot of ppl who walk on the side of the hwy)
-rain runoff goes into garden w/ grab n eat plants
-support columns have wedges on sides for nesting since the birds are already shoving themselves into the crannies of the underside
-water mill since we have a fairly big river
-buildings have smaller-scale wind turbines and/or solar panels to support their energy output
-more plants in the city itself! Not just pollen producing trees
-there’s a light rail that goes thru the nearby cities
-continuing to protect the “protected wildlife” areas
Story time:
So one time I was at a summer camp and a kid brought a bulk package of pixie sticks with them (they’re flavored sugar in paper straws). They were sharing them with everyone but the counselors and leaders were not a fan of having a collective of like 100 sugar high 10 y.os for a week straight.
The pixie stick kid divided the bag amongst his cabin mates and what ensued in the following week was 100 10 y.o kids having sugar drug deals. There were shady secret meetups. Ziplocks of pixie sticks buried in hidden locations for pickups.
Kids were biting off pieces of the stick and chewing the sugar out so counselors couldn’t retrieve the sticks if caught. You just shoved the whole thing in your mouth and spat out the wrapper after.
I feel I should also mention this was a bible camp. A bible camp of pixie stick dealing 10 y.os.