I Love Being Hungry.
I love being hungry.
I feel so powerful with that warm feeling in my stomach. The occasional grumbling sounds are so euphoric.
Holding a hot bowl of green tea while I walk down the stairs to go drink it in my room, alone. Those are the best moments. The moments when I feel it working.
I feel so organized in these moments. I’m in control and I can take over the world. So focused and aligned it’s scary. I don’t know what I would do without you Ana.
My efforts are not in vain. I’ll prove it.
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