Saveperfect - Redemtion

immediately

she’s who i want to be

i binged

bad

again

i’m going to sleep now

I couldn’t download it but I had to screen record cus she’s literally perfect

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I love being hungry.

I feel so powerful with that warm feeling in my stomach. The occasional grumbling sounds are so euphoric.

Holding a hot bowl of green tea while I walk down the stairs to go drink it in my room, alone. Those are the best moments. The moments when I feel it working.

I feel so organized in these moments. I’m in control and I can take over the world. So focused and aligned it’s scary. I don’t know what I would do without you Ana.

My efforts are not in vain. I’ll prove it.

😔😔😔

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I genuinely don’t know how to go to people for help or support when I am upset or depressed or going through whatever. I don’t want to bother them but when I’m visibly upset and depressed and openly stating that I think I’d be better off dead, ignoring those changes should not be an option especially when it’s something that serious. I guess it doesn’t matter because I “got over” what I imagined was the “worst of it” for now and not one of my closest friends asked me if I needed to talk. I had 2 people reach out to me. One I haven’t spoken to in years and the other has backstabbed me more times than I can count and yet these were the people reaching out to see if I was okay, telling me they were worried and that they’re proud of me. They reached out but my friend who’ve I’ve been there for again and again to listen and try to give advice and support and love, there wasn’t a word about it. I don’t want to hold it against her because she’s dealing with a lot right now but for my close friends i could not imagine holding my own problems above theirs. Maybe I’ve conditioned them unconsciously to not ask because I’ll be fine if you give me a week. I just want someone I trust to listen and hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay and tell me good things.

it doesn’t matter if you are maintaining, at least you are trying. If you give up you will lose everything and you will gain everything back