I Can’t Accept It

he and suho either have never fought or they have fought dozens of times there's no in between, cause their interactions are just so odd. Like they clearly don't like one another, I won't argue over this they don't, yet they don't hate one another either, and during that podcast radio whatever he tried to pat kai on the shoulder and said they were close Kai literally almost tipped over trying to get away from him. Then later Suho said he was like a father to him or at least tried to be. And during the exo ladder 4 Kai and the others ragged on him continuously. Super weird. Kai doesn't take him seriously, but why? The others mostly stay silent when it comes to any issues or dislikes but they keep showing how little they respect suho. Sad, now he's hiking in california and has a Cosco membership. Perhaps he'll go to tmz and tell his side of the story. Hopefully he goes full jessica and writes 2 books and has a movie.

Everytime I feel like this I just make a poster for my book or go on chat gtp to just play around with the story to see if it's something I actually want to write. Then I can see a draft of my work and see if I actually want to waste time and energy on it.

I hate not feeling motivated to write anything.

My mind is just blank. Like the static on a TV. Just...nothing.

I worry I won't be able to tell this story well at all. It's so ambitious, complex....I don't know what to do.

And yet I want to get this story out there. I have faith in its concept and its themes and characters. And still, despite that, I just...can't do it. It's such agony.

he has a hangup at literally every stage that's why I get so upset when people push that he came from this big happy family, like pls stop saying that when you don't know someone's childhood. You don't know what being a kid was like for anyone but especially a child entertainer. It's very rough for anyone. But particularly in Korea. Especially in kpop and especially at s.m. I don't ever wanna push to just feel bad for people all the time but how people overeroticize him when almost every habit he has is traced back to child neglect, it gets under my skin seriously.

jongin why

I---

I knew it was super structured but I didn't think they probably literally had papers of exactly how much money the fan spent with people taking notes and giving tips like ...........................I need an HBO expose documentary on all of this. Kpop the corruption of love. I feel like at least in japan people know what it is it's pretty transparent but in korea there's a layer of feigned authenticity that's really dangerous.

Less day 10 days after this post it was revealed kai actually asked for the dreads and at times did his own hair and even said what method he used. He was worried people wouldnt like it and was pleased to find most people did. He meant in korea not the west. Kai later said in an interview when he does something people dont like he simply blames s.m.

Its common sense someone who's favorite artists have black hairstyles would also want to mimick that. But these sick people are so obsessed with celebs being perfect they come up with fantastical scenarios to make the person look innocent. He wanted the hairstyles. It is much more difficult and time consuming to do his hair like that. S.m as a business is cheap why would they push for something that would take more time and supplies. Its not logical. He likes to get into character. Also he reposted the picture of him with dreads on his instagram twice. Just that alone wasnt forced. He also told ravi he was copying him because ravi had dreadlocks at the time too. This is all online.

He also braided his own hair for wolf he knows how to braid. Which is fine its a free world, but the lies in fandoms disgust me. I am so sick of the lies and false narratives.

To all of the people who are saying Kai could’ve said no to the dreads: 

DO YA’LL KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT SM ENTERTAINMENT????

OF COURSE HE COULDN’T “SAY NO” IT’S NOT HIS FUCKING DECISION

HE SAID THAT HE HATED THE CORNROWS DURING WOLF-ERA AND FELT UNCOMFORTABLE WEARING THEM. 

DID SM LISTEN TO HIM??- HELL TO THE NO

SO WHAT MAKES YOU THINK ANYTHING HE SAYS REGARDING HIS HAIR WILL MAKE SM LISTEN TO HIM THIS TIME??

OH SEHUN HIMSELF SAID THAT THE STYLISTS NORMALLY DO NOT LET HIM DYE HIS HAIR THE COLOR HE WANTS TO (it was in an old interview but its relevant now). 

SM hair stylists are obviously extremely colorist and gave Jongin that hairstyle for an unfortunate reason that is wrong on so may fucking levels.(and if u don’t know the reason thn pls message me)

But Jongin can’t do anything but work with it because its not like he’s in any authority to disagree with it, and he gets paid for it either way.

Like do y'all think Exo would srsly be out here preforming in bright pink suits and elf costumes if they wanted to?? Ya’ll think Byun Baekhyun wants to be walking around with a striped mullet? No grown man wants to do that, but they HAVE TO CUZ IT’S SM. 

SM is a notoriously Strict and awful company, and they have prohibited idols from having a say on numerous things. If you want to hate on someone, hate on SM and their warped and racist/colorist ideologies.

We all know that Jongin of ALL Kpop Idols is NOT racist or colorist– he has experienced that same discrimination against himself firsthand ever since his debut, and has demonstrated time and time again that he is in fact not ignorant.

But anyways, I’m tired of this bs against kai. Just cause y'all hate exo and r threatened or some other dumb shit, doesn’t mean u should be attacking jongin or making things up about what he can and can’t do, when your not even an exo stan in the first place. 

LIKE, YA’LL REALLY NEED TO THINK WITH YOUR BRAINS ONCE IN A WHILE

(and yes I’m a black exo-l btw so trust me ik the pain)

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