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I really wish i could be as chill and fun when discussing jongin but the reality is the origins of my kpop journey never called for that. I only liked eggsos music for a very short period of my life and once I heard the demo tracks that ended. For some reason knowing they didnt make their hits or even contribute past one line or two just makes me feel icky. I never liked the others past the bullying years of 2012 to 2016. I also cut off kji when I felt like he was also very inauthentic. I returned out of curiosity for my research of the entertainment industry. Most artists in korea act like they are in some hybrid between the military and a gang. I just cant take it seriously. Its a hybrid between american hollywood and a dictatorship. The industry still rubs me the wrong way as apparently child protection laws and human rights in south korea are a suggestion.

In the end I comment on jongin 1 because i still do see some ...potential is the wrong word ...life maybe. He seems to have more of a soul than most in the industry. So I still check for him. Yet I wont lie or be fake. His recent projects have been god awful. Sm has ran him into the ground and dont seem like they will be stopping anytime soon. He is the most obvious case of "industry mistreatment programming" that I have ever seen. I still cringe at times seeing the toll the industry has taken on him.

I do however understand many fans are either very quiet because they just want to enjoy and relax. And others want community and friendship.

I get it. That was never my intention. I have a lot of perspectives on jongin and his career and I feel like sometimes I should keep them to myself..but then other times I feel like thats very unfair.

Online their are people that write very objectifying, dirty vile things about him but that is okay cause they are being quirky...

But if you talk about sprituality, souls, diets, genetics, chi magic, face yoga, spritual contracts ect or connecting things to the occult thats too far.

No its not. The lies are too far.

I just don't vibe with the lies anymore. And what is going on all over the internet about him the group, kpop and the entire entertainment industry is a lie.

So in my opinion as long as I have evidence for what Im saying anybody can choose whether or not they want to read or believe what Im saying. But the dumb fake arguements about literally nothing. Its a distraction. They plan things out for people to argue over so nobody every holds the company or artists or infrastructure accounatble. I cant just waste time like that anymore. I will write and make content from my perspective. Because there is nothing wrong with the truth. 99 percent of whats on the net about exo and jongin is a lie. I just cant anymore. They really take advantage of the language gap. So many people literally lying about things. Almost nothing they say is true.

I think its only fair to be transparent. I thought about creating another blog to post that stuff on but again that would just be more secrecy. There is no point. But I understand most people dont like that so at this point its just best I be honest. I like being chill but with kpop my conspiracy and investigative journalism side cant rest. I will post things of that nature from now on.

Its not all completely serious some things are simply opinions and research but those things help understand the larger picture.

this is a crazy theory but I honestly think....he is ace and demiromantic. He is just a very huge people pleaser. Him not giving a label plus cleaving to hinduism lately I think he doesnt or cant identify as masculine for whatever reason yet also doesnt want to limit himself in love. I genuinely dont see him coming out at all because he doesnt relate to either or. He is really just discovering himself. Im shocked nobody tals about his interest in hinduism as its most likely a huge factor in him clearing the air. He was never closeted tbh.

anyways not a big shawn mendes fan especially with the recent religious overtones in his music but "you can say i like girls or boys, whatever fits your mold" is giving baby bisexual vibes sooooooo hard

has chase atlantic not won a grammy yet

he like lives in south A he should make a spanish album and then star in a telenovela on the cw. He should be in the jane the virgin reboot.

( IG 3/26 ) 🥰

No lie I want shoes with the toe thingies

Shawn Mendes | Los Angeles, CA (February 27, 2025)

I can only be so real on here cause its tumblr. The problem isnt just her its him too. Actually its mostly him. He was taught by quite a few different choreographers none all that good believe me. But at this point he is winding down in his ability to dance well at all. He is really bad now, I tried to explain this to a team Kai person but they dont understand. They are both the same height so you can see both of their shortcomings way easier. People didnt complain cause tita is shorter and was able to let him play up the masculine dominant role more. In reality when I watched both versions he is the main issue. She has structual problems as well but their teacher who taught them both has so many issues himself and he passed it along to both of them.

Adult Swim

Saw a comment on twitter about kai possibly outgrowing bada lee as a choreographer (he was out dancing her in a clip) but the thing about choreography is you make it your own and kai is a DANCER. Not a person that follows choreography to a T; he WILL add his own spin to things that make it his. So it's not that she's behind, he's doing his own thing with the choreography she's giving him.

Talent is elevating what you're given, making it your own and leveling it. Kai does that. IDG ppl tryna discredit her...

is he racist? No not in the traditional sense but he has had an idealized fetish for black aesthetic culture since a young age. But other peoples perception of what he does should not concern you. If people from black society interpret what he did as racist that is their right. Its a complex topic to be handled with care not a sassy response of oh sm made him do it. I will not just accept that foolish behavior. Let his behavior be interpreted by whoever is interpreting it. The tacky lawyer defense just makes black people feel more offended and angry. I just wish everyone would allow people to have their own opinion about art without getting over emotional. Especially if no one is being direspectful. Everyone has the right to their own opinion. Telling others to just leave and shut up is not a mature response.

Less day 10 days after this post it was revealed kai actually asked for the dreads and at times did his own hair and even said what method he used. He was worried people wouldnt like it and was pleased to find most people did. He meant in korea not the west. Kai later said in an interview when he does something people dont like he simply blames s.m.

Its common sense someone who's favorite artists have black hairstyles would also want to mimick that. But these sick people are so obsessed with celebs being perfect they come up with fantastical scenarios to make the person look innocent. He wanted the hairstyles. It is much more difficult and time consuming to do his hair like that. S.m as a business is cheap why would they push for something that would take more time and supplies. Its not logical. He likes to get into character. Also he reposted the picture of him with dreads on his instagram twice. Just that alone wasnt forced. He also told ravi he was copying him because ravi had dreadlocks at the time too. This is all online.

He also braided his own hair for wolf he knows how to braid. Which is fine its a free world, but the lies in fandoms disgust me. I am so sick of the lies and false narratives.

To all of the people who are saying Kai could’ve said no to the dreads: 

DO YA’LL KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT SM ENTERTAINMENT????

OF COURSE HE COULDN’T “SAY NO” IT’S NOT HIS FUCKING DECISION

HE SAID THAT HE HATED THE CORNROWS DURING WOLF-ERA AND FELT UNCOMFORTABLE WEARING THEM. 

DID SM LISTEN TO HIM??- HELL TO THE NO

SO WHAT MAKES YOU THINK ANYTHING HE SAYS REGARDING HIS HAIR WILL MAKE SM LISTEN TO HIM THIS TIME??

OH SEHUN HIMSELF SAID THAT THE STYLISTS NORMALLY DO NOT LET HIM DYE HIS HAIR THE COLOR HE WANTS TO (it was in an old interview but its relevant now). 

SM hair stylists are obviously extremely colorist and gave Jongin that hairstyle for an unfortunate reason that is wrong on so may fucking levels.(and if u don’t know the reason thn pls message me)

But Jongin can’t do anything but work with it because its not like he’s in any authority to disagree with it, and he gets paid for it either way.

Like do y'all think Exo would srsly be out here preforming in bright pink suits and elf costumes if they wanted to?? Ya’ll think Byun Baekhyun wants to be walking around with a striped mullet? No grown man wants to do that, but they HAVE TO CUZ IT’S SM. 

SM is a notoriously Strict and awful company, and they have prohibited idols from having a say on numerous things. If you want to hate on someone, hate on SM and their warped and racist/colorist ideologies.

We all know that Jongin of ALL Kpop Idols is NOT racist or colorist– he has experienced that same discrimination against himself firsthand ever since his debut, and has demonstrated time and time again that he is in fact not ignorant.

But anyways, I’m tired of this bs against kai. Just cause y'all hate exo and r threatened or some other dumb shit, doesn’t mean u should be attacking jongin or making things up about what he can and can’t do, when your not even an exo stan in the first place. 

LIKE, YA’LL REALLY NEED TO THINK WITH YOUR BRAINS ONCE IN A WHILE

(and yes I’m a black exo-l btw so trust me ik the pain)

canva posters

okay last stretch

1.so the tyla choreographer check I was right

2. Gas pedal shake it lyrics for adult swim

3. He was in l.a to film. And a few other places.

Dancing to not like us is the last hint other than a possible producer in common the only relation I can think of is maybe choreographer or director..or

Black dancers

In the hood.

Or...afrocentric.

So they all did connect most were red herrings but the song choices were important he even did not like us again on a show so I'm thinking....is gonna be any or some or all of these things.

2 Pegasus I think is ark of cov. So...ehh idk

At this point it depends on the particular interpretation.

I almost never predict albums cause it's so boring but this one was at the right time and I was still a bit interested. I still disagree with the rollout it sucked but it's sm. They just never do anything right. It's kinda sad at this point they don't know what to do..anyways. I feel like there should be...maybe a drama attached that's the only thing I think would go well with this big of an album. At this point its more cinema than musical

It's time already align already

So funny that I was right even though I never know for sure but I do because I'm awesome and a great guesser like always. Very intuitive.

So I was mostly correct not only did he go for an island beyonce baby boy type theme for adult swim he also used a girl that looks very similar to fkj twigs he still has her album on his shelf that's the only album in his entire house he keeps visible almost every single time he does a live in his office.

Like he never does that for anything else, except legos.

So yeah not surprised her mary magdelene album really affected him in a super deep way.

Now I remember when I ranted and said he needs to leave that lame music alone and just do afrobeats girl we got it

Like let's go finally.

It was making me so eep seeing the lame 2003 hip hop and off white pop songs like no, just no. Domino is a disgrace to music and I'll never support it. His goms are soo lame even the blk ones they have no taste they just accept whatever he does cause they are desperate and super duper thirsty. He gets ideas from movies and other people's music videos.

Like I been knew this would be afrobeats no 1 he was obsessed with black is king, 2 it's whats hot rn and sm approves of things that are already popular and 3 he's bla-jacent of course he'd go for what's easiest.

Anyway. So now before the album I want to list all that I think that should happen because I'm certain it's not done yet so things are still malleable

So firstly they should have a black cast in the music video and latino and southeast asian. Honestly it's time for him to have a diverse theme for once, like it just needs to happen like firstly he's doing afrobeats and any lack of authenticity will not be well received secondly the adult swim was great like it could be a whole drama

I love old film styles like this. I know it's to much to ask but imagine a lifetime esque movie from his childhood to adulthood to pair with this album like that would be perfect.

Okay they need to have a companion drama inside the music video

I'm thinking a one to 2 minute talking scene with whatever girl or guy or whatever he is talking to in the video, doesn't have to be female just we need a cast and something real. Almost like a skit so that we know the music video is about something more than just selling records it needs to tell a story.

Thriller was 10 minutes and it changed music videos and pop music. He needs to do something like that. Or even better like a mini web drama to pair with the album I'm hoping they do that or hey even a web comic. Like just something to continue the story so we can have some variety.

Like some behind the scenes for adult swim, maybe a few talking scenes and learning the situation and culture.

I also think he should pair this comeback with a movie or a drama.

So for the music video I'm hoping it's extremely diverse both in style dress, cast and theme. I think we can take everything a step farther he's obsessed with beyonce so clearly he's going for the alien superstar thing which is fine but I think he should branch out and go the extra mile. A real duet, or even like a interpretive dance something different.

Also they can have a unique or original setting like maybe an abandoned mall, or a dessert storm, or a mexican corner for a street dance scene. Just something new fresh and hot, no more cold dead boring techno oriental nonsense. It worked in 2020 when standards were deceased for art but now he needs light in his work real light not just green screens.

We need at least 4 to 5 afrobeats

the rest can be like journals type songs it doesn't have to be heavy it can be light rnb. But no more white boy pop he just can't carry that properly.

so examples

girl like I want DIVERSITEA

THE SM BOTS CAN TAKE THESE CONCEPTS TO USE FOR THE ALBUM i'LL ALLOW IT

Like I'm getting scenic, tropical beach, like 1960s film roll

and for him I mean for outfits I think if you're doing afrobeats it's either 1950s upstyle or....alternative tribal wear

ahh imagine an opening shot like this

I know it's supposed to be techno according to the photos but..I don't want that and he already wore an outfit very similar to beyonce's shimmy shimmy outfit so I'm just gonna shoot for the stars

sheer top

heck just do extensions Idk

maybe I'm wanting too much to recreate my favorite old jungle book film but idc I hope it's something like that

ooh and it's time he should get a wavy perm look

this hair is SOO good I think this would perfectly balance out his features

and hmm

also this type of album cover

also

or what about a baby pic like zyn or ama

idk I just want a mini film, maybe some aquatic ape theory idk, just something very diverse and interesting.

also since its multiverse they can add in art to the photos

also the futuristic heavenly thing is becoming more common

but really I would love a comic or webtoon to go with the album

also in ahs and supernatural they had cgi wings

maybe try that so they are more lifelike the clip ons are a bit iffy

they can also be artistic and put gold paint on

It's been years I want high high high art

the literal highest, I don't want to be disappointed.

but also ghetto and ratchet, like all at the same time. I just hope it can encompass all these things.

man my mind.

This is a bit wild but like........the previous albums I didn't put much out there but what I did put out happened so maybe just go insane and shoot for the stars and land on the moon. A feature would be nice to, like maybe someone like ama lou or another low key but respectable indie artist it would bring it up a notch and make it so different from what other artist in his field do, it's the type of thing that gets attention from outside traditional fandom circles.

Adult Swim Analysis; Ancient vampire cult modernizes itself pt 2

I believe Kai in Adult swim and potentially in all of exo's content is in some way a vampiric entity who seems to be obsessed with running a sort of religious cult with followers who dance with him and worship him.

Anyway to me the analysis kind of proved itself halfway through this is definitely what it is about

Like...it's just kind of right there.

Cause honestly I noticed nobody was analyzing, they were simply seeing it as oh Kim Jongin who plays Kai of Exo is doing a music video and he's coming back from the military and he's working so hard, just like and watch it. Which is exactly what they want people to focus on.

It seems like the real message of the music video has been completely ignored do to a focus on "real world events"

In Adult swim we are seeing Kai lead another cult which is something he seemed to have left behind thousands of years ago during peaches. But apparently not.

Towards the end he seems to be doing some sort of indigenous dance, it looks like a spirit dance native americans used to perform while he is surrounded by his cult members.

The Gender Bender

On this poster which is shown multiple times, it is expressing the belief that gender expression and identity and romance have nothing to do with one another. Which I agree. It's basically saying you cannot possibly figure someone out by knowing who they have or haven't slept with. Or figure out someone's orientation by the clothes they wear.

In the music video he is seen being close with guys, putting his arm around them, hugging and sitting very close. Yet he dances with a woman with whom he has some type of serious connection to. All while he wears a crop top. With the crop top he is wearing a durag which is seen as more masculine attire. There is every race present and yet for some reason they are all okay with him being in charge of them and they are okay with following his lead. Meaning he isn't simply a guy hosting this party, these people wakeup and end the night at a pool building so clearly this is some type of coven or something.

The other members seem to barely know how to dance and somewhat just shimmy a bit and there is a few scenes where you can see Kai trying to teach them how to dance but by the end no one does anything more than shuffle they don't even attempt to do the dance he does. Which they easily could of gotten background dancers to do, but they did not want to because that isn't the theme

These aren't the old followers who followed him throughout the ages but new followers who he has to teach just like children, they all look to him for guidance and seem not to know anything.

But like I said, with the hypnosis necklace is that just because they are all stupid or are they hypnotizied

Is the cult religious, do they believe he is an angel or a fallen angel. One believer is wearing a cross

then we see a kid with a fish

he begins tapping on the tank disturbing the fish

most likely a metaphor because Kai notices

It could be that Kai is the fish in the tank who must return to the water or the pool for some reason.

I suppose it could be a reference to the little mermaid or finding nemo, needing to get back to the ocean but instead he returns to the pool.

the ending is ominious and he ends up in an empty pool alone pointing to the nights sky

perhaps showing how he is bound to the earth after becoming a fallen angel and he's somehow confined to the water. Just like all his teasers his entire career have been water based.

I suppose this could also be a shared living dormitory

it says community and F normal. Which means they could all be each others found family.

okay I'm tired now but I loved this. I really think this could be a mini drama if they have the footage, send it to me I will edit it for them I promise, 30 bucks an hour. But no really I love this concept and idea and it reminds me of something I'd binge watch on netflix or hulu.

Fav moments the duets of course but also towards the end when they were all dancing in the mosh pit well he was dancing they were all acting like they have something on their shoulders and they are trying to get it off. I think that awkwardness was purposely input.

But my last fav moment I found that I can't incorporate with research was this moment when he made eye contact with this woman and he was going off doing his best club hoe gimme some dollars move to...impress her? Like there were men around he could of done that with. I don't think she knew what to do with that. I really don't know what the intention was and she was just kinda like

The music video is sped up but she turned away so slowly she was like I dunno about all that. No lie he's either a comedian or he like actually think he's a exotic dancer cause why would he do that.

It was actually the highlight of doing this for two hours. Like I'm gone, what did he expect her to do get behind him?

But yeah this was actually fun and honestly I have less space on my other apps so I put a lot of research on tumblr, and with stuff like this why not it's innocent and not too serious. I really enjoyed the song and music video at first I was hesitant but once I realized the average person didn't like it I was like okay it's safe. I like things that are an acquired viewing.

At first I was like ehh, but now I am seeing the vision. But I really think this could of been a really cute drama. Like 4 or 5 episodes I'm so ready for him to act again especially if it's in something like this, like please. Korean promo circuit is a particular torture for me. I do not find korean variety funny. I have watched japanese variety and laughed so many times. I've been watching korean stuff for years. I'm not sure if the humor doesn't hit for me but I'm very different in what I find funny. I noticed that I find Kji hilarious but not when he's trying to be funny on variety it's so cringe to me. Like I just sit their stoneface, but when he's just being himself doing goofy stuff like this he's very funny. I just wish they wouldn't script so much. I know korean t.v they script so much of it just to be safe so no one says something bad. It makes for awful, repetitive t.v.

So sadly his album and whatever he does will be all I will be able to enjoy. I just can't get used to korean variety it's so boring. It's never the show it's the system it's like some shows have way too many people writing them and I can tell. I can see for rookies but I can't understand they do it to grown adults.

But I would love to see him on the jennifer hudson show, or drew barrymore or maybe kelly clarkson. I think if he promoted in america they usually don't script that heavy so it will be much more natural. But I notice some kpop idols sort of crashout when they are given freedom to talk about things they would never say in korea.

There's also so many shows on youtube he could guest on.

Hailey bieber interviews people over snacks, tiny desk concert,also he literally has his own youtube channel but apparently he has to pay for editing and film himself. But his youtube is so so scripted like it's unbearable you can basically see him reading off a prompter.

Honestly if he would show himself doing stuff for work or during his viral moments that would be nice like an in between for filming mv's. Him talking with people, or his actual dance practice process.

I would love a behind the scenes for this whole process. He could of been making documentaries for every album, post them on youtube. The ones that show barely anything aren't entertaining, there's so much they leave out,

Adult Swim Analysis. Kai; Fallen Angel, Messiah and Cult Leader?

So I decided to analyze this music video since nobody does that now and days.

But first the lyrics.

24 year old me pretending I don't know what this is about

but yeah this is one of his only songs where there is no other meaning it's just as dirty as you think it is even though it's the name of a beloved cartoon network.

this is ...

Basically it's a clever and innocent way of referring to s.xual activity. Something younger people are restricted from.

But honestly literally all of his albums are about the same thing. S.x. Well all his title tracks refer to s.x the songs tend to be about either s.x or a relationship.

In the end of rover which is really chronologically the second album, we find him locked away in a cave and calling himself a sinner.

Now in this more modern music video we find he is in the present day with a new more ethnic group of young folks where he is teaching them the art of adult swimming.

He is the only one dancing in the music video other than the girl.

In the first scene we see a melting popsicle. Popsicles are made out of fruit. But it is cold and condensed and you must lick and consume it to get the flavor. So yeah. I mean I don't really expect deeper meanings from his work at this point but like it wouldn't hurt.

Anyway

I don't believe it's a coincidence that the woman is holding the popsicle. Her shirt says forever. If you are going off the metaphor that the forbidden fruit is the anatomy of a woman this is a direct continuation of peaches where not only has nothing about his behavior changed he is also more brazen about it. He is able to openly do this instead of being in a castle, a mountainside or some post apocolyptic temple. He's out in public living freely. As a fallen angel partaking in unheavenly delights.

We also see a bird in a cage so it's possible that these people are trapped and he is feeding off of them.

In peaches and mhmm we met his followers in white and gray garbs that served him in temples and palaces

He is dancing with her and he has an angel wings necklace on and she has a angel wing tattoo on his back. This is super old symbolism with him

In peaches he said it feels good to be the bad guy, so basically he is a vampire and he feeds off his cult members. How interesting. This cult is young and most likely unaware of anything he is or does because they are not worshipping him they are all just hanging out and partying at this sort of group home.

The nice young lady also has a skull and crossbone necklace symbolizing these cult members may have recently been reborn or he is easing them into his lifestyle. Albeit slowly.

Another skull and crossbones just so you know these people are marked for death.

The place is full of meaningful posters and graffiti in english that I believe is trying to communicate to the audience something about what we are seeing, it is a short music video after all.

Right here says "This moment is more precious than you all think" To me this looks like the typical cult phrase. This is not just a group of friends these people all are living together and partying together in this abandoned pool zone.

The angel wings necklace serve to symbolize that although his wings are hidden he still caries them with him in some way shape or form or basically he is still an angel even if he doesn't have his wings. And more than likely he still wants to be worshipped or in charge or a group of people just like he was in mhmm and Peaches. He still craves some type of power and control over others.

Lmao life imitating art or the other way around you never know.

he is also wearing the spiral necklace that was seen in rover.

The spirals symbolize hypnosis.

Implying that he is now exercising this control over his cult members now.

Kai unlike the others is ascended and he has been that way for some time. The others perhaps are newly ascended but under his own direction so he can be seen walking around checking on everything. It is similar to the seen in mhmm when he is looking over the city on the roof, except now there are people instead of an empty technowasteland.

he is almost acting like the lifegaurd of the place

Eventually after looking around he spots a girl with a angel wing tattoo on her back. This sets her apart from the others and is likely symbolic to her being awakened as well.

She notices him looking at her and turnsto him somehow making eye contact even though he's 25 feet in the air. But I suppose it's similar to him being high up like an angel even though he doesn't have wings. Maybe they are saying like his rank and status as an angel is above hers. I don't know for sure.

then he begins dancing by the pool and draws attention to himself

Then later we see a split screen of Kai watching the woman dance, we don't see the shot of him directly watching her but the screen is split in half to show us her dancing and attracting his attention.

It's almost surreal.

We are seeing from his perspective.

Oddly oddly enough we get a close up and see that she is actually nowhere near him so he must be watching her from a long distance

On a yellow bin we see the graffiti words in english titled "Make More."

make more of what exactly?

The girl seems uncomfortable for a split second and seemingly out of nowhere Kai is suddenly right behind her, almost like he spawned randomly.

This music video is so elaborate and subtle it's amazing right after they began dancing this scene with a boy holding a lolipop that says I love you and he is wearing an anhnk

An anhnk in ancient kemet was basically a symbol for the reunification of the masculine and feminine principles. Them being in front of a yellow bin that says make more, wow.

It does make sense because with Kai's last few albums the angel symbology was heavy. She has a pair of inked wings on her back. They are both ascended so to speak, which makes sense why they are the only ones dancing together. Which I thought was odd, there are no other dancers. Which is definitely purposeful. In other music videos he may single out one female dancer but the dance usually contains 5 to 10 people in it. This music video only contains a solo and duet despite having a large amount of people in it.

after the little dance number we see a poster that says

"are you up or what?" Up referring to awakened or higher. In peaches he ascended out of a cave a went to the astral realm where he was able to dream walk.

We also see gender which only points to more questions with what is going on with the characters that we see in this. Are they all friends, are they even all human we don't know.

After this frame we get a scene with two people staring at one another. It seems to be either it's supposed to be representing what is happening between the two main dancers or they are influencing the behavior or the people at the pool.

We also get someone eating a peach which is again a reference to copulation

After this frame they continue their duet in the center of the room

and then they move onto the now empty pool

After they begin dancing the "pool' is now dry having been drained.

Which kind of ties into the he is feeding off of his members. Dancing could be a metaphor for an energetic exchange.

Even when he is shining in the later scenes where his shirt is sparkling

She is actually still behind him dancing in the dark, which is so symbolic. Like what are they doing? I mean I know it's symbolic he's feeding off her energy which is why his shirt is shining even though she is in the dark.

End of part one.

my kai-ly theory has evolved I want this to be taken seriously so I will try to organize it in the most take seriously way possible.

health diary post 1.1

I need this to be organized for the future

I want to try coconut cult

like it might be a scam, but idk it apparently has more prebiotics than kombucha but are they telling the truth, I can't eat yogurt anymore cause I'm trying slowly slowly to get off of all dairy. It took me about a few months to leave all meat alone period, which was hard because I've always been a heavy meat eater. Dairy is more difficult because it's in everything. You can get a veggie burger very easily but then there's the bread that contains milk, eggs and sugar which apparently most sugar isn't vegan. Which is makes cold turkey life very hard if you aren't a gold star vegetarian. I only ate pure veggies when it was my first vegetarian summer and it was easy cause when it's hot you love fruit and veggies, but when it's cold you want donuts and cheese pizza and stuff that makes you put on weight.

I cannot stand winter even more now, especially when family members get fast food which is often and like I'm never tempted with meat but bread is my kryptonite every time. I'm a bread and sugar person. So that's my only issue. But I feel like life without yogurt sucks cause yogurt was my go to forever. It was breakfast lunch and dinner whenever I was trying to get healthy, then I found out how sick the dairy industry is and it's like I hate it. Social media sucks cause it's very little encouragement to eat healthy no less veggie or vegan. So many places really are trying

but yesterday on tubi I found a anti vegan documentary. Usually I can watch anything from every single side, but I literally can not. I've been on farms, I've seen animals be butchered. Like it's not, oh idk man it's a choice. Like the future will not be like this.

Kids already have more empathy than previous generations although it doesn't seem like it. I know first hand the animal agriculture industry is dying, the more people know what animals go through the more it will be impossible to continue to lie that the animals love it too, they don't. The farm hands are usually traumatized. It's bad for literally everyone involved. Like I saw it up close so now the lies don't work on me. But yes it's a slow process but honestly for better or worse people know red meat isn't healthy there is only so many lies they can push, kids know, adults know and the elderly know. Many try and restrict as much as they can. Fish is so tainted due to our environmental travesties there is no excuse for eating fish either.

It's just not healthy. So documentaries like that really upset me I couldn't even watch 10 minutes. It's just a bunch of apologist garbage. You aren't a bad person, no you aren't keep eating burger king you are a good person. Like I cannot stand it because it used to work on me. One person can't make a difference so why try. How much evil is done with that type of thinking. It's sick

It's also very hard to be in fandoms because I didn't even realize how much pro fast food and junk celebs promote. From mcdonald's meals, to children's sugary snacks, it's like very icky.

Never would I have been proud of luxury places like erewhon promoting at least sort of healthy things with vegetarian options. I know it sucks but this is how vegetarianism will spread sadly. Good marketing, cute packaging, feeling better and superior to people who don't do it.

It's psychology people are arrogant and pompous. People love elitism.

I found out quite a few people are quiet vegans or vegetarians most people do not talk about it.

Sadly it's something that needs to be promoted. Because things are changing. My mom was shocked to find that starbucks had vegan options, not even veggie but vegan. That's really huge. I didn't realize it but capitalism controls the market, what is promoted will be king. It's so superficial but pushing things in a stylish way is helping the earth. I know it's so fake. But it's better than seeing people post their favorite celeb with a steak and thousands of people saying it's so good. You have to shame the devil. Until people feel convicted and like their is real opposition to what they are doing they will keep behaving in a reprehensible way.

I would never defend someone taking a human and packaging them up in a burger, yet people do it for animals, who are also mothers, fathers and children of another living creature. Like idk I just can't keep quiet about it anymore. So many things bother me, but if it's never talked about then no one will say anything.

Many vegan meals are so cheap and so healthy it seems absurd to promote a more expensive in the long run lifestyle. Fast food has a huge cost, not just in health but it creates food deserts, lack of poc businesses. Like I didn't even know there are so many healthier ethnic food places that don't get as much business due to fast food underselling their products, it's so bad for the economy as well. Imagine how much better small food business owners would do without fast food competition. Like there's so many components to it really.

blue spirulina kombucha

If I saw this where I lived Starbucks green matcha brown sugar latte you'd be gone.

short lil tease teases

My crashout rambles must mean something

apparently they had black stylists, I may not have been completely right about the album theme but I was close enough.

close enough is good

I kinda felt bad for going on a unhinged rant about the awful s.m entertainment stylists and how they should be barred from doing anyone's hair. Also what I said about their untrained untalented stylists and that baddies and bad girls club had better hairstylists than them. I hate being rude, but if it made them reconsider to be clear I honestly don't care. Man I hope that man never is able to touch anyone's scalp ever again. I actually have a collection of the various scalp burns I've seen on about half a dozen kpop idols. I was this close with filing a report but I don't even know how that would work. But honestly I will say this, social media is observed by teams of people constantly to see how people are feeling about certain things. Apparently they do observe and see what people are loving and hating. I never wanted to spread negativity to those unqualified people and some of my tweets went a little to far and for that I am sorry. But at the same time there are hundreds of very good qualified stylists who take EXTREMELY good care of people edges, scalps and hair. Why not hire them. Especially if it's affordable. No one should have bald spots or scalp burns due to someone's lack of know how.

I've even seen him have bleach almost on people's ears, that can lead to burns. I'm sorry but if my family taught me anything sometimes you HAVE to open your mouth and say something when something wrong is happening. You have to, wrong is wrong even if the person is well beloved and famous. Even if the particular stylists wasn't working on his hair at least they are trying to find qualified people it's a start.

Phrase of the day

The invasion already happened.

The best takeovers happen silently.

There are so many good streaming deals but I barely even watch TV and tubi exists so no.

its more like my slightly edited polite artsy journal. Cant be completely honest but its good enough.

this blog is not a well-curated museum. it's my bedroom & i'm putting things on my shelf & taping things on the wall

mind you at this time Justin Bieber was doing completely fine in asia. The misinformation and lies that Exo had replaced him in Asia was propaganda done by s.m. Around that time I actually found photos of Jb with japanese idols and fans taking photos and doing interviews in japan and press conferences. He even went around south korea and met with producers and artists. S.m does a lot of social media play. There was a twitter thread that exo was having a concert and all of justins fans left to go see exom not even in the building but they went go wait outside while exo was performing. My first introduction to how deceptive s.m entertainment was. Jb was their biggest foreign competition. Sadly as a little kid I literally believed the lie that exo ended Justins popularity in Asia due to s.m entertainments hate campaign against him. He would later start up a successful clothing brand of his own in Japan meanwhile and Exo still promotes other peoples brands that they have no control over and to date has had at least six members sue over human slavery allegations.

idk why you guys are talking about exo ending justing bieber’s career until now??? like Kyungsoo ended his career long ago when he covered “Boyfriend”?? 

I wish kpop fans would be just as concerned about kpop artists hygeine who still have 10 layers of makeup on when they go to sleep so they can rush to their next schedule first thing in the morning. You know I never thought about it before but people only tease nice people who never do or say anything. I just leave people alone when I don't care about them, but somehow there's this weird obsession to publically humiliate your fave's percieved competition. Sadly hindsight is 20/20 because if some of these hateful people would read books and articles and the actual interviews of kpop idols you'd know quiet a few of them are not the most hygenic either. Yet I never see longposts about all the times kpop idols were on v or ig live after a concert and just put new clothes on with makeup on their faces and go to bed. I don't do that cause I know you never know someones mental state maybe they are really struggling with something personal. I know people just delete and get new socials and pretend they never said such rude and tasteless things but words do hurt. I never understand people wont tell the honest truth about politics' morals or something of common sense to a celeb but they will make fun of them.

Valid critique is fine. Show concern but just being mean for the sake of it is so pointless.

I try to say things that make sense and that I would actually say to a persons face; ask simple questions or make a critique of their work. But bullying someone like we are in middle school or something is so childish.

the way you guys still thirst over harry styles in 2019 and he doesn’t even shower…

Everytime I feel like this I just make a poster for my book or go on chat gtp to just play around with the story to see if it's something I actually want to write. Then I can see a draft of my work and see if I actually want to waste time and energy on it.

I hate not feeling motivated to write anything.

My mind is just blank. Like the static on a TV. Just...nothing.

I worry I won't be able to tell this story well at all. It's so ambitious, complex....I don't know what to do.

And yet I want to get this story out there. I have faith in its concept and its themes and characters. And still, despite that, I just...can't do it. It's such agony.

I feel like people pressured Shawn to address his sexuality again and he didn't want to address it really from how he talked about it and to me it's disgusting how this keeps happening and this pressure is coming from other queer people most of the time, I will never get why y'all do this to others that you believe are in your own community instead of giving them space to do that on their own time

4th album potentials

Since it will prolly come out soon I'll just post this with the info available. Even though I think my old analysis will also be at least somewhat accurate

So firstly the paris

there's a map of the seine river

Dive in(honestly I hope this isn't a title track or an album title but it could be a lyric)

Probably it's something about childhood or age because they keep showing stuff of him as a child

He liked the movie pirates of the carribbean play when he was younger so it might be related to that period of time.

he's wearing the colors of the french flag

Interestingly enough the beginning of the movie takes place in

Jamaica is a french colony

"The French colonial empire in the Americas comprised New France (including Canada and Louisiana), French West Indies (including Saint-Domingue, Guadeloupe, Martinique, Dominica, St. Lucia, Grenada, Tobago and other islands) and French Guiana."

This also connects to Bomba which is a afro-latino island dance style

"Bomba is an umbrella term that refers to a variety of musical styles and associated dances originating in Puerto Rico. It was developed by enslaved Africans and their descendants in sugar plantations along coastal towns, most notably Loiza, Mayagüez, Ponce, and San Juan, during the 17th century."

" The Bomba is of African origin and came to Puerto Rico with the introduction of African Slaves. The Bomba is traditionally played with percussion instruments, such as drums. The Plena was later derived from the Bomba style. These music styles and the traditional dances to it, represent the infusion of Taino, European and African traditions"

In the lyrics for Bomba it's kind of confirmed

In the behind the scenes for the tour someone described what the concept will be like

they said this and idk why nobody is talking about it because this video for the tour guide kind of explains what the album is going to be about

the stage looks are also with less clothes. So honestly I think it's gonna be basically what I thought it was going to be since it's a continuation of the other themes.

Stopping time and immortality references.

I'll stop here cause I don't wanna spoil the entire thing.

Mostly because I don't even think this album is new, I think this is something that was supposed to be a pt 2 to rover, meaning parts of it may have already been filmed like 2 years ago.

Cause the filming time doesn't make sense and they didn't spend more than a day and a half filming cause in between people thinking he was filming a music video in reality he was filming that ralph lauren mini film in...paris I think. They may have quickly shot some things in the middle of him doing promotion and fashion stuff. But I do not think it's much more than a few extra scenes and clips. He's been filming sparsely meaning the recording and everything was probably mostly done and they may have been doing reshoots or ad on scenes. Which explains why he dyed his hair blonde because one of the old scenes might be when he was filming during rover, so he had to match those scenes. Then the new hair color is probably because the 2nd mv is with brown hair. Otherwise they torched his hair for no reason or it was just a wig. And I know reshoots/wigs to cover up new hair due to extended periods between filming due to snyder verse. When filming is done in super short periods of time and magically everything is done that's a reshoot.

Or maybe they put moments or video clips from his childhood to make it like similar to one of those look how I've grown projects like beyonce did putting her childhood videos in her tour. Anyway that's what I think.