That's The First Ever Time I Felt Bad For Thinking How Much I Want To Die. I Still Want To Die, I Don't

Everyone who knew me since an infant describes me as this lonely child who kept to themself. I guess mom is right, maybe I have been broken since the day I was born

I'm scared i won't be me after this. I'm scared I'll lose myself. my sanity is hanging by a thread for real

Not gonna lie friends. I would like to feel desired and feel like someone’s first choice

too in my head. so many lies. a fucked up individual. attention seeker. easily forgettable. hard to love.

I feel frustrated by Megumi's scars... I love this concept, but... ugh...

I also think Megumi is having a really hard time with everything that happened to him, and I really wanted to draw that.

i don't see a happy life ahead of me. I wish for a peaceful one but I don't see that either. it probably should be concerning how suicidal I'm being everyday. why should I try when ik my path is only going to be full of despair? why can't I end it earlier, I wanna put a stop to this. too late to apologise, too late to ask for help, don't think too late to be saved but no one will. maybe that's my tragedy that everyone could use to feel bad after I'm long gone

when bts said "i dont have a dream, dreaming is sometimes scary, to live like this, to survive like this, is a small dream to me" in paradise

There's something in me, that I don't know how to word or well I don't even know what it is. But it's swallowing the whole of me

want like at least 15 mins to hide and cry, i dont it like today

i am so. i wish someone would just take pity on me. and put me out of this misery. someone please just take me cradle me hold me close to you please kiss on my forehead while you dive that fucking knife through my heart. please hold me until I die and put me down gently. tell me you could have loved me if I wasn't so fucked