Are We Only Supposed To Talk Sadly On Here

being here i tend to forget home is just another place filled with infuriating people

im gonna fucking kill myself. im so fucking serious

idk how I'm gonna do any of this. im really not fit for this world. i hate how i have to go through life, try to find happiness or dream or peace or whatever that fucking keeps me alive.

how am I supposed to do any of that? why can't they just hand it down, why must even peace be given to someone only after going through hell? so we'd know what peace is?

to be unhappy to know what happiness is like?

and fuck me for still being here, fucking coward

not sure if there's anything as getting better in my book

kind of wanna disappear again, off the planet. forever. kind of wanna go back to old habits. wanna make everyone know that i still am indeed fucked in the head

Aslan Jade Callenreese you are safe now, I'll be happy with that

need to make an emotional support bts playlist soon, the one i had is missing lmfao

something about hearing it from someone else that I actually do not have anyone who cares for me and loves me. hearing that from your own parents, is eye opening. why did you give birth to me. why did you fucking give birth to me.

there's an end to the loneliness, right? it ends, eventually? and i'll be finally whole inside?

I hate that man, he could do so many things to make it all right but I'll always hate that man. I wanna free you from him, but I don't know how to. I wanna free myself from you both I don't know how to. I don't wanna hurt you, but I don't know how to. I know you don't wanna hurt me, and I know you can't help it either. Amma we might have been doomed since we were born in this body, in this flesh, among these men. We are always gonna want to save each other and maybe, maybe we never will. I'm sorry I'm the reason you are crying right now, I'm sorry I'm another bad thing to you. I'm sorry I'm not your saviour and I'm sorry you are just as bad as others.