"that Side Of Fandom Is A Dark Place Idfk What Goes On Down There" About A Subgroup Of Fans That Have

I love how in Good Omens Aziraphale and Crowley are both Icarus and the sun to the other risking everything for the other, the demon Crowley reaching out for Aziraphale (sun) the angel from Heaven a place he had already fallen from once. And of course, Aziraphale the angel scared of sharing the same fate as Crowley but still grasping for him reaching out for (his sun) his "friend" Crowley.

They have been falling for 6,000 years.

In today's essay I well be-

I refuse to watch the documentary on the woman who slept with 100 men in a day because I cannot stand to watch a woman do that to herself willingly. I cannot stand to see her process what she has just done to herself.

She is a victim. A victim of a world that has told her this is empowering. A victim because how can she give consent if she is disassociating?

Anyone saying that she is entirely at fault is delusional and libfems absolutely have a hand in this because it is the whole "OF/porn is empowering!" rhetoric that got us here in the first place. YOU told her that this line of work was empowering. And don't get me started on the men because we will be here all day.

I dread to think what psychological damage this will do to her.

The clips I see fill me with some deep, gut wrenching feeling that I cannot describe and I know for my own health, I cannot watch this.

I bring a “I hate gender because it cause serious harm to women and homosexuals” to the table that the tumblr they/thems really dislike.

whenever I find a man attractive and he doesn't make the first move I just go mehh he was going to disappoint you in unimaginable ways so why bother

I think I'm having a purpose crisis again or whichever deity listening has to come for help cause 11 hours of sleep and still tired cannot be solved with human intervention

when you start reading gender theory you look at everything mundane with different eyes. yesterday I was browsing ao3 for some bed night smut (usual) and came across the tag "Forced Feminization" in a lesbian relationship."feminization for woman.. wow how rare... why not masculanazation(?) huh? " I though to myself before I realized there can't be masculanazation cause being masculine is just to be without the need to change anything, that's why having hair is seen as a act of treason by fellow woman who adhere to societal standards where feminity has been equal to perform for the past thousand of years.

we open the episode with You're My Best Friend by Queen and witness crowley coming back a 3rd. THIRD. time to ask aziraphale to escape together(honestly for someone this emotionally closed, Aziraphale is astonishingly good at making Crowley a desperate dog,a puppy disaster if you will :)

the lyrics that follows might indicate him asking for forgiveness after speaking this sentence

or we can think that aziraphale never took offense(and that crowley knew that) bc well cause he isn't pretty believable when he's angry with azi💀 and throws tantrums like a 3 year old.this makes us think he might be waiting for an apology from aziraphale for making him act the way he has, for making him miserable for the past few days

all three counted and ready to go sire

like if you weren't loved properly as a baby can you ever be fixed. i feel like an important part of my brain never got watered it didn't soak deep enough. idk how people just go around doing what they do so easily and im just pretending to understand but feeling nothing but overwhelming pain