My Biggest Flex Right Now Is That I Have A Meat Bread In My Bag And I’m Strong Enough Not To 3@t It

Especially if they give you the nonchalant treatment

Like you thought I would chase after you?? B!tc# I don’t have enough time for that lmao I have to be sk!n! Before summer wtf

Forget men I literally just want to look good in clothes

MY COLLARBØN3S ARE SHOWING MORE AND MORE!!! AAAAAAAAH What a great day

I know it’s normal to get bløated and a little bit bigger during your period which leads to a temporary w3!ght gain… BUT WDYM I FEEL LIKE A HIPPO HEYDWHEJDNKAN??🦛

And I have to step on a sc4le in 2 FCKING DAYS !!! Imagine.. just imagine.. if the cøll@rbønes I’m seeing RIGHT NOW are just an illusion due to my důmb, deficient, m3nt4lly ill emotional sponge that serves me as a brain??

I think I going crazy, this is irrational thinking but I can help freaking out aaaaaaah

DAY 9

No cause I feel in control and helping nųmb!ñg my feelings

Still feel miserable tho, I’m well aware that’s a bad things and that I’m not good

Okay soooo, didn’t do it. I tried, really… I even ordered some føød but I don’t know if I’ll be able to eat it. I really wanted to achieve that but I feel so sick right now

Wanna know the funniest part? Even with this potential diner I wouldn’t have reached the 1800...

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

OMG OMG OMG

-3 on the sc@l3 ??? In a week!! And I didn’t count the liquids that I drank this morning (~1L)

I know it’s probably a lot of water but I still feel so happy it’s going down, KEEP GOING DOWN (to myself)

I won’t be able to w3!ght myself this week but so far, I’m surprised it’s not freaking me out

TW: fck3d up 3d thoughs

Every single month, when the cramps hit, I dream about the early menopause I can create with 4n4 and I whisper “maybe next month I’ll be s!ck enough”

This is not very “mentally stable” of me

Self discipline feels so powerful

Still stuck at 53… at least my strength remains the same as when I started I guess FREE ME FROM THIS JAIIIIIL😫