2am Thoughts

Do I ever cross your mind?

always being the friend of the beautiful girl getting hit on

“Do I mind texting first? No, I will show that I care about you. Do I mind texting first for weeks and basically talk to myself for a whole conversation? Yeah, I kinda do. So forgive me if I’m done trying.”

— you had your chances

it’s over, isn’t it?

i always knew how it would end

from the beginning i feared this moment

yet, i didn’t think it’d come so soon. 

now my eyes are black, full of hate

but that hate is for me, not you.

i still love you

i may always love you

there is no world

where what i put you through

is ok

i would never lie to you 

ever but the truth is painful sometimes

even when the last thing we want

is to hurt the people we love the most.

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“It’s a fitting punishment for a monster. To want something so much—to hold it in your arms—and know beyond a doubt you will never deserve it.”

— Renee Ahdieh, The Wrath and the Dawn

Excerpts of a book I’ll never write

“You are what I have been waiting for, the person I should have been with. But I stop myself from having feelings. I stop myself from thinking we have something special. Because not only do I not want to lose you, but I don’t want to lose myself again.”

— not for another heartbreak.

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