Laaajlaaa - Unbetitelt

I will not wait for you

to regret losing me.

Does the sun wait for

the earth to regret turning?

Does the moon wait for

the night to regret ending?

The sun remains the sun,

and the moon remains the moon.

I will remain myself

with or without

your acknowledge of my value.

Loving you changed my life.

It should come as no surprise that losing you has done the same.

Chloë Frayne

The saddest word

“You are what I have been waiting for, the person I should have been with. But I stop myself from having feelings. I stop myself from thinking we have something special. Because not only do I not want to lose you, but I don’t want to lose myself again.”

— not for another heartbreak.

““I just laugh now when I think about you and me, because it’s funny how I even let you get that close to me.””

— - wasted years

there is something so comforting about sadness. about throwing things on your bedroom floor and not picking them up. about binging reality tv in the dark for 14 hours straight. about lying in your bed and not moving while the world continues to turn around you. overwhelming and heavy depression is comforting because it’s familiar. it allows you to sink into yourself and rot there for as long as you want. thats the vicious cycle with depression, it takes everything to not give into the comfort and familiarity that comes with it.

I’m a murderer

“I want him but I’m frightened to want him. I don’t want my happiness to be entirely dependent on somebody else’s, to be a hostage to fortunes I cannot control.”

—

Jojo Moyes (Me After You)

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