I’m So Disappointed In Myself, My Goal Was To Get To 50kg By The End Of This Month And Now It’s Just

Oh.my.god.

The ice cream I’ve been including in my meal plan is 170 calories each, I thought they were 120 each. I’ve been eating 500, not 450. I know it doesn’t seem like much of a difference but oh my god I’m freaking out I can’t do this.

Just went over my calorie limit by 100 on something that tasted mediocre at best I am FUMING

Now who’s gonna tell me why I be looking bmi 20+ when im in the low 18-high 17 range 😒😒

Ive lost all my thoughts

I just finished having the worst binge episode of my life. I’ve gone from 51.9kg to 56kg in the span of 2 days, consumed more than 10,000 calories, 3k at least in the past hour.

It was so disgusting, I sat on the floor shoving food down my throat, throwing up then continuing eating. It spilled everywhere, ice cream all though my carpet, all through my clothes. I tried to purge it out but nothig came up but drool. I sat in that, the drool, leftover throw up and food for what felt like 30 minutes. My stomach hurts, it looks disgusting and I’ve lost my thigh gap.

I was 2 weeks binge free, and now I’ve gone and messed it all up. I don’t even know what to do. My only plan is to take all my laxatives, walk until my legs give out, and cut myself.

I’m never eating again.

Life has been so out of control lately and I’m barely losing so I’m just gonna focus on getting even more control over the one thing I can.

I’m gonna start OMAD’ing a monster and a slice of sourdough toast (roughly 370 all together if I’m calculating right) and burning at least 500 through steps/pilates.

I’ll also try water fast any day I have off work.

There is so much I want to eat but changing my OMAD routine feels so scary ☹️

I’m so tired, I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

I can’t wait for the day I don’t have a muffin top while wearing my favourite jeans

the silence after hitting your gw but still feeling so big and disgusting