Mood

wow. right in the fucking feelings…

When your ship was about to say something cute but they got interrupted and you’re supposed to be upset but your favorite song comes on..

My Brain During The PSATs

Me: A fire alarm would be nice

Me: Smite me

Me: We'rE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER

Me: Oh shit waddup!

Me: I wonder how many people in this room find me hot

Me: Lmao none

Me: Oh man I want a burger

Me: Oh shit DAB

Me: Would I get in trouble?

Me: *small dab*

Me: Fuck life's amazing

Me: Fuck I'm taking a test

Me: Fuck I hit my elbow

Me: Kill me please

Me: I can dig Elvis

Me: I caN DIG MY OWN GRAVE

Me: Ignore my tears fellow dumbasses

Me: LET'S GET DOWN THE BUSINESS

Me: TO PASS

Me: THIS TEST

Me: What's this? What's this?!

Me: There's numbers everywhere

Me: What's this?

Me: No seriously...what is this?

Three cheers for these guys [x]

I wish there was a way. To remove any memory of myself, any image, any smile; from the ones that I love.

So that I could leave this world with a clear conscience, without wrenching a dagger through their hearts and shattering their lives.

Some people want to die because no one cares. But for me I wish the opposite, I wish no one cared. Because then dying would be a lot simpler.

I don’t want to hurt them

Same

My whole eating disorder feels fake

Like, I’m not even a bit skinny

my life

Back to school challenge

hey guys! sorry this took so long but it’s finally done. please keep in mind that this challenge is kinda for myself if you found it please do not report!! Love ya and stay safe.

🌻Guidelines🌻

Eat roughly around 700 to 800 calories a day or less do not, I repeat DO NOT go over 800 some days you may be able to go to 900 but that should be very limited and only on special occasions such as family outings or going out with friends. Try to fast 2 to 3 times a week meaning water, coffee, or cold pressed juices like green, fruit, celery juice, etc. Also stay away from processed food, basically anything that come in a box or baggie try to get natural foods if you eat them.

Try and exercise two times a day, once in the morning and in the afternoon/ evening. If you can only exercise once a day try for the morning this helps to boost metabolism and burns fat and calories all day long. Which is what we want! Also you have no excuses you have plenty of resources such as youtube to simply going for a run. And if it is something like a core or HIIT workout try to do multiple rounds or if it’s a video 2 to 3 times!

Also since it’s not just about getting the best body you should also wash your face around twice a day, and moisturize your skin. It helps keep the skin naturally glowing and healthy which is what most of us want!

Try to journal your food with your calories and nutrient information. This really helps to keep track of everything you are eating and when you write things down you are more likely to remember what you ate. You also should keep a progress journal or put your progress in your notes there is a lock feature for apple notes so if your parents are on your phone snooping they won’t find it!

I urge you on this challenge to try and only eat one to two meals a day. Three is kind of excessive and try and load your meals with fruits, vegetables, and healthy grains (grains in low amounts). I cut out meat and animal products, and within the first two weeks I was down almost 15 pounds. That doesn’t mean you can’t eat it occasionally I’m just sharing my personal opinion and experience.

If you continue you this during school make sure to bump up your intake to 900 calories a day or less due to the fact that the brain needs 900 calories to function daily, during strenuous and stressful activities such as school!

🌻Actual Challenge🌻

Go 25 to 30 days following these guidelines and you should be back to school ready I will leave links to workouts and such just for some of us the are at a loss of ideas! Please comment about your progress and tell me what to improve for my next challenge!

You shouldn’t have to convince someone to say “yes.” 

Reasons I'm starving myself

• So I can look cute in my new grunge aesthetic

• So I can be confident enough to have sex with anyone I want

• So people think I'm beautiful

• So I can spend less money on food and more on things I need

• So I can look cute when I smoke weed instead of fat

• So I don't look gross when I eat in front of people

• So people notice and actually want to talk to me

• So I can wear a bikini this summer

• So I don't have to worry about certain angles when my picture is taken

• So I have a sharp jawline that will look good when my hair is in a bun

• So my ribs can be even more prominent and bruised

• So I can have little dainty wrists

• So I don't look huge next to my saxophone

• So I look cool playing oboe instead of weird

• So I look badass playing electric guitar instead of stupid

• So people believe I'm sick

• So I can look better than the girls my ex left me for

• So I can look cute drinking a mug of hot cocoa

• So people think I'm healthy instead of a fatass

• So I can be a skinny stoner instead of a fatass who gets the munchies

• So I can wear hoodies and not look like I'm hiding all my fat

• So when I'm in gym class, I don't look huge

• So I can take yoga classes and not be that fat girl who can't keep up

• So dark lipstick looks good on my face with my defined cheekbones

• So when I get friends, I can be the skinny one

• So I can finally love my body

Those are a few reasons I'm starving myself.