@j-kylee

Everytime I see this I love it more and more

halp

You are self-destruction when

You drink, knowing it’ll help you escape yourself

You drink and it leads you to sleeping with a stranger

You drink KNOWING it’ll lead you to sleeping with a stranger

You sleep with a friend

You fall in love with that friend

That friend doesn’t love you back

You continue to sleep with that friend knowing that’ll you’ll never be more to them than a distraction

You sleep with a stranger knowing it’ll break your heart

You do it in order to break your heart

You listen to the music that breaks your heart

You put yourself in danger in purpose

Whether it’s something like getting in a car accident without caring or being murdered while walking somewhere you know you shouldn’t walk

You starve yourself

You eat too much knowing that you’ll want to punch yourself until you puke after

So you starve yourself more

You push your friends away

And your family

And you turn into the monster you were afraid of as a child

You know you’re self-destruction when you hold a fucking razor to your arm, finding a place to cut open, or the bottle to your lips counting the pills falling, and then you stop yourself knowing that the scars or the empty bottle will bring attention to your self-destruction, which you can’t have because you know you’ll just seem pathetic, so you stop

And you know that’s what’s keeping you alive.

nothing bad is actually going on in my life , i have no reason to be sad actually but i don’t know why i’m still tired and i feel like there is this weight that i carry around everywhere and i can’t seem to get rid of it i feel like i am drowning in my own misery and self hate and i can’t seem to get out of this pain …

Me too, me too

friend: “if you’re consciously aware of your actions, and know why you’re doing them, why don’t you just stop doing them???”

Me:

I love the game and the song from DAGames so i drew something:)

I’m nothing special. I’m fat; I’m ugly; I don’t have any talents; I have a bad character; I don’t have any friends, I’m nothing.

sorrythisisallicanbe

Yeah 😏 @j-kylee

remember when you used to be real secretive about reading smutty fanfiction and making sure you were the only one in the room and now you read that shit at the dinner table like it’s nothing