Friend: “if You’re Consciously Aware Of Your Actions, And Know Why You’re Doing Them, Why Don’t

@j-kylee

when they ask you to read something thats not fanfiction

PS1 Hagrid

True...

Bed time stories

As a child : fairy tales Now: gay smut fanfiction

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it’s a startling, unholy revelation

Things I say to myself almost constantly:

They don’t think about you that much. You’re not important just grow up.

Stop thinking about them, you’re not good enough to be with them anyway.

You’re so useless.

No one is ever going to want you, you’re disgusting.

I wish you were dead.

I hate you.

Just die already if you’re so miserable. You’re so fucking stupid you can’t do that right anyway.

You don’t deserve anyone.

Nobody loves you but your dog and she only likes you because you feed her.

You deserve this. You deserve hate.

Things I would never say to almost anyone:

All of the above

So why do I deserve to be hated in my own mind?

“The best way to get what you want is to be so miserable that you don’t want it anymore.”

—

Margo from The Magicians

This is the way I live my life. I no longer want to celebrate my birthday or christmas. I no longer dream about my future. I’ve simply stopped wanting because I cannot see the point of it anymore and you can be sad about what you don’t get if you didn’t really want it in the first place. 

Top 10 thoughts when you get diagnosed with a mental illness:

- "No, I'm not THAT sick."

- "Woow, this explains everything..."

- "People aren't supposed to feel like this??"

- "I'm probably just faking this illness."

- "For how long have I been sick?"

- "Will I ever be healthy again?"

- "How are people supposed to feel?"

- "Will people still like me if I'm sick?"

- "I thought mental illness would be worse."

- "Other people has been through this."

every night