MC Handing Vanderwood Keys And Begging Him To Drive Bc She Really NEEDS Pizza But She’s Drunk So She

So... Vanderwood, amirite?

Yea.... Haha (I sat on this for about an hour and that was all I could come up with for an answer lol...) 

!!! Can I request the reverse of that first ask? So like MC comforts Vandy?

Sure! I can do that! Thanks for requesting anon! <3

-You were asleep next to your boyfriend, Vanderwood, everything was peaceful until..

-He kicked you in the stomach and yelled something incoherent thus waking you up. 

-You stretched and rubbed the sleepiness from your eyes. 

-”Vanderwood?” 

-You noticed he had also woken up. 

-”Yeah…” He replied in a distant tone as if he were deep in thought. 

-”Is something wrong?” you asked

-”I had a nightmare.. I always have them” 

-You’d never noticed his nightmares, you never asked about his dreams so you had no idea that he even had intense nightmares. 

-”what was it about?” you pried. 

-He shifted to face away from you

-”Don’t worry about it, MC.”

-You were not going to take that as an answer!!!

-You moved closer to him and put an arm around his waist. 

-”You know you can tell me.. I’ll listen, I won’t judge you. Whatever it is, it seems to be affecting you. I hope you’ll tell me” 

-He sighed before reluctantly telling you about his dream…

-He had dreamt that he had been captured by a rivaling intelligence agency and was being tortured alongside you. That was when someone slit your throat and left you there for him to watch you bleed to death. 

-You gasped and held him tighter.

-”That won’t happen” You said, though you knew there was a possibility of it happening. 

-”MC, You know as well as I do that it very well could happen.” 

-”But it hasn’t happened yet, isn’t that a good thing?” 

-He nodded. 

-”I’ll protect you with my life baby girl.” 

-You smiled 

-”I’ll protect you with my life too, Vandy.” you poked his cheek then got out of bed.

-He got out of bed too and joined you for breakfast feeling a lot better than he initially felt when he woke up.

-”Thank you for being there for me, MC, I really appreciate it.” He said before giving you a kiss on the forehead. 

I did a quick little sketch (by quick, I mean it took me like 2 hours lol) I still struggle with feet and shoes...

I just saw a pose on pinterest and thought omg, what if Astarion and my tav... but he's biting their thigh 🤭

Ofc, I had to name it.. thirst... and I added the "Happy" symbol to kind of cover a sketch I did on the same page... You know... it wasn't originally supposed to be just one piece, I was practicing poses and I liked this one way too much to just leave it or risk messing up when I redrew it.

This is entirely self indulgent.. and intended to be Spawn Astarion because he's so babygirl 🥰😘😍

🤣 also I don't think I posted but I got through the Cazador fight not too long ago.. and

Spoilers and dumb ramble ahead:

For most of my day, I sat there wondering how the fuck I would beat that bastard... he was one shotting Shadowheart with his fucking lightning bolt, then sending his gas minions after the survivors. Astarion being in the ritual made it 10× more difficult.. so... I cheated... and fuck... It should have been obvious...

I LITERALLY FORGOT FOR THE ENTIRE FUCKING DAY THAT VAMPIRES ARE WEAK TO SUNLIGHT.. I blame Astarion and his parasite as well as Alucard for that one honestly.. the day walker thing kind of made me forget that omfg immunity to daylight is an exception, not the rule..

So I felt stupid.. once I got that, it was so much easier.. oh and almost constantly had Astarion in stealth kill mode until Cazadick was gone.

Also side note.. the VA for Cazador is perfect.. Like they really sells the "I'm a pathetic little worm, and your worst nightmare, fear me while I bitch and cry" LOL and again that's a compliment.. Larian really succeeded in making an evil character extremely grating and hatable which again, a good thing, not a bad thing.

The heartbreak I felt though afterwards when Astarion screams and cries.. God.. the second I got to this scene, I KNEW I couldn't let him ascend, doing so would be so cruel.. and yes.. this is ascended Astarion slander, I don't like my men too domineering.. maybe a little bit, but not enough to like kill innocent children and eat their hands or some shit lmfao (Doing a durge run too.. where I'm going to ascend Astarion and be a horrible bastard that eats babies) and I don't like that he loses the genuine feelings he has for tav/durge and becomes what he sought to destroy, an abuser.

Now.. the graveyard scene... I had tears in my eyes.. Honestly, the reason I love Astarion so much is because he is quite relatable. I will not go into detail, but I was.. SAed and abused as a kid. And honestly.. Seeing the bit where he scratched out his death date, made me feel hope.. for myself... For my own healing.. it truly meant so much seeing another survivor of abuse begin anew, find themselves again... even though I have done that already myself for the most part, I've found purpose, passions, love, heartbreak, etc and I've found some level of beauty in the life. I related quite a lot to the line about sex feeling tainted.. I am at a point where it no longer feels as terrible, I feel genuine enjoyment in it... (Can't do casual sex though.. That would trigger me into a ptsd attack) And I think part of that was letting myself go at my own pace, making sure my partners knew, and having control and the ability to consent and revoke consent at any point. Emotional attachment helped a great deal too.

I've rambled on enough.. but... Let me end this off by saying, If you went through unspeakable horrors at the hands of those who you thought were supposed to protect you, You are not alone, Even if you do not see it now, there is light at the end of the tunnel, keep on living, keep trying to find joy in little things. It does get better, what was done to you was horrible and you did not deserve it. I promise, you will see better days. You will be happy again, even if you feel like the pain will never end, there is always moments of calm.... live for those... live for your pets, live for your friends, the people around you, live for that cute thing you just ordered, live for that movie or TV series you're excited about watching... even the next patch for bg3.. or more Astarion content if that's your reason right now... and take it one day at a time. You will be okay.

If you need to vent out some shit, I'll listen, I may not know what to say or be able to offer comfort, but I will always lend an ear, even to a total stranger if they need it.

That's all from me, goodbye, until my next post.. whenever that will be ❤🖤❤🖤

someone private messaged me and asked me to reblog this so it was easier for them to find... so there you go!! Here’s the original post if you want to see it on my tumblr page lol and remember, if you’re ever wondering where my rules, masterlist and stuff is just go to my page and click the links saying “Masterlist” “Wattpad” or “Request rules” and you can also send me asks and stuff there!! Hope that helps a little bit

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For now, I want to focus on Mystic Messenger, I may do requests for other things I like in the future. 

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Vandy’s reaction to MC waking him up with kisses?

Thank you for requesting, Anon!!

-You had woken up before Vanderwood. 

-You guessed that he had a late night. 

-But you knew he liked waking up with you, so you decided to wake him up.

-You rolled on top of him and started kissing him. 

-You started with a gentle cheek kiss. 

-Then a forehead kiss.

-Then a peck on the lips. 

-He was still asleep. 

-You then forced your tongue in his mouth. 

-That seemed to wake him up. 

-He pushed you away. 

-”What are you doing?” He asked tiredly. 

-”Kissing you.” You replied.

-”Oh ok.” He said before pulling you back in for another kiss.

-Honestly he really enjoyed days where you’d wake him like this.

Still simping for this boy... literally can't stop drawing him... help 🙃

Here's The reference btw...

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Once again.. I've neglected Tumblr..

In my defense a lot has been going on and I haven't had the mental energy to post... buuuuuut..

I made this really nice painting. He got a spot on my art wall in my room.

I'm finally playing Aria of Sorrow.. Wish I could get Dawn of Sorrow too.. Maybe I will one day.. I have an old DSI that I haven't really used since I was 10.

And I saw the Grimior of Souls design and fell head over heels in love.. I wish I had an apple device.. if I did I'd be playing the shit out of it right about now.

Also side note.. I need to work on hands.... DESPERATELY.. why are they so hard to do?? Like the hand in this one looks like an amorphous blob 😵.. Anyone who can draw hands competently is a God, I'm serious.

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