I did a quick little sketch (by quick, I mean it took me like 2 hours lol) I still struggle with feet and shoes...
I just saw a pose on pinterest and thought omg, what if Astarion and my tav... but he's biting their thigh đ¤
Ofc, I had to name it.. thirst... and I added the "Happy" symbol to kind of cover a sketch I did on the same page... You know... it wasn't originally supposed to be just one piece, I was practicing poses and I liked this one way too much to just leave it or risk messing up when I redrew it.
This is entirely self indulgent.. and intended to be Spawn Astarion because he's so babygirl đĽ°đđ
𤣠also I don't think I posted but I got through the Cazador fight not too long ago.. and
Spoilers and dumb ramble ahead:
For most of my day, I sat there wondering how the fuck I would beat that bastard... he was one shotting Shadowheart with his fucking lightning bolt, then sending his gas minions after the survivors. Astarion being in the ritual made it 10Ă more difficult.. so... I cheated... and fuck... It should have been obvious...
I LITERALLY FORGOT FOR THE ENTIRE FUCKING DAY THAT VAMPIRES ARE WEAK TO SUNLIGHT.. I blame Astarion and his parasite as well as Alucard for that one honestly.. the day walker thing kind of made me forget that omfg immunity to daylight is an exception, not the rule..
So I felt stupid.. once I got that, it was so much easier.. oh and almost constantly had Astarion in stealth kill mode until Cazadick was gone.
Also side note.. the VA for Cazador is perfect.. Like they really sells the "I'm a pathetic little worm, and your worst nightmare, fear me while I bitch and cry" LOL and again that's a compliment.. Larian really succeeded in making an evil character extremely grating and hatable which again, a good thing, not a bad thing.
The heartbreak I felt though afterwards when Astarion screams and cries.. God.. the second I got to this scene, I KNEW I couldn't let him ascend, doing so would be so cruel.. and yes.. this is ascended Astarion slander, I don't like my men too domineering.. maybe a little bit, but not enough to like kill innocent children and eat their hands or some shit lmfao (Doing a durge run too.. where I'm going to ascend Astarion and be a horrible bastard that eats babies) and I don't like that he loses the genuine feelings he has for tav/durge and becomes what he sought to destroy, an abuser.
Now.. the graveyard scene... I had tears in my eyes.. Honestly, the reason I love Astarion so much is because he is quite relatable. I will not go into detail, but I was.. SAed and abused as a kid. And honestly.. Seeing the bit where he scratched out his death date, made me feel hope.. for myself... For my own healing.. it truly meant so much seeing another survivor of abuse begin anew, find themselves again... even though I have done that already myself for the most part, I've found purpose, passions, love, heartbreak, etc and I've found some level of beauty in the life. I related quite a lot to the line about sex feeling tainted.. I am at a point where it no longer feels as terrible, I feel genuine enjoyment in it... (Can't do casual sex though.. That would trigger me into a ptsd attack) And I think part of that was letting myself go at my own pace, making sure my partners knew, and having control and the ability to consent and revoke consent at any point. Emotional attachment helped a great deal too.
I've rambled on enough.. but... Let me end this off by saying, If you went through unspeakable horrors at the hands of those who you thought were supposed to protect you, You are not alone, Even if you do not see it now, there is light at the end of the tunnel, keep on living, keep trying to find joy in little things. It does get better, what was done to you was horrible and you did not deserve it. I promise, you will see better days. You will be happy again, even if you feel like the pain will never end, there is always moments of calm.... live for those... live for your pets, live for your friends, the people around you, live for that cute thing you just ordered, live for that movie or TV series you're excited about watching... even the next patch for bg3.. or more Astarion content if that's your reason right now... and take it one day at a time. You will be okay.
If you need to vent out some shit, I'll listen, I may not know what to say or be able to offer comfort, but I will always lend an ear, even to a total stranger if they need it.
That's all from me, goodbye, until my next post.. whenever that will be â¤đ¤â¤đ¤
All of your HCs are â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aw Thank you Anon! Iâm really glad youâre enjoying my HCs!!! <3
-Vanderwood was never the romantic type, so he was clueless.
-He contemplated asking Seven for advice....
-Then he actually thought about it and decided against it...
-His plan was something like this..
 1. Get you to come with him for a drive
 2. Bring you to a place to stargaze while eating something he'd cooked for the both of you
 3. Give you flowers, chocolate and a teddy bear... (No, it wasn't Valentine's day...)
-He called you to explain that he wanted to drive around because he was bored and wanted you to join.
-You noticed he was heading out of the city, soon you were surrounded by trees.
-Not long after, you got to a little clearing.
-He stopped the car, grabbed a bag and told you to follow him.
-You were kind of getting nervous.... Was he going to kill you or something?
-You two stopped on top of a hill.
-Vanderwood dug around in his bag and pulled out a blanket, then placed it down on the grass.
-He then took out a few containers and handed you one.
-you noticed that the container was warm.... it was... soup?
-He smiled
-"I made this for you.... I hope you like it"
-holyshitohmygodhowadorable
-You smiled back and tasted the soup...
-And DAAAAYM this guy made some bomb ass soup.
-"Wow, that's possibly the best thing I've ever had, thanks Vanderwood"
-He smiled even wider
-"I'm glad you like it, MC"
-Vanderwood stared up at the stars, appreciating their beauty... of course, the stars weren't as beautiful as you were to him.
-He then started pointing out constellations and telling you some of the myths and legends behind them..
-While you were distracted, looking at the sky, he got the chocolates, flowers and the teddy bear out of his bag and placed them on your lap.
-You instinctively looked down...
-You squealed and gave him a suffocating hug!
First date: Success!
Meyrin x assassin Reader
Undertaker x Odd Reader
Minor trio with an extremely shy MC who blushes and hides her face whenever they hug or kiss her?
Thanks for requesting, anon!! This will be my last request for a while.. I want to take a bit of a break for a while since I kind of feel burnt out. Anyway, thank you for reading my headcanons, Iâll see you guys when I decide to come back. <3
-He found it cute...
-Being the sadist he is, heâd probably kiss and hug you a lot.Â
-Especially in public..
-This boi has no mercy!!!!!Â
-By the end of the day youâre probably a blushing mess, unable to even look Saeran in the eye.Â
-It got on your nerves sometimes...Â
-Heâd kiss you when you were out shopping, walking in the local park, on dates, before you went to work, before bed, when you woke up.Â
-You could never catch a break.Â
-But you couldnât deny that you liked it a majority of the time.
-He was surprised that you were so... innocent
-He would kiss and hug you often.Â
-You seemed to like it, even though you felt embarrassed afterwards.Â
-He attempted to get you to stop once, but it clearly didnât work
-He honestly didnât mind it though.Â
-V thought it was adorable.Â
-He found it kind of annoying.Â
-Whenever you kissed youâd run away, blushing, and hiding your face...Â
-You had been together for two years...
-TWO YEARS.Â
-Heâd thought youâd be over it by now, but you werenât.Â
-He confronted you about it a few times.. No matter what he did you were still the same blushing mess.Â
-The only thing he could do was accept it.
-And he did, in order to not hurt you, since you were very dear to him.
-And eventually he grew to love it.Â
Jumin and Vandy reacting to their MC asking them to sing for her bc she thinks their voices are really soothing?
Thanks fro requesting, Anon!!
-You were laying in bed next to eachother.
-It was already 3AM and you were restless.
-Desperately searching for a way to get to sleep, you woke Jumin.Â
-He groaned out of tiredness.
-âJumin, would you mind singing to me?â You asked.Â
-You had remembered walking in while he was singing along to a song he liked.
-You found his voice very relaxing.Â
-âOf course Iâll sing to you, MCâÂ
-He then softly sang you a song as you drifted off to sleep.
-You were sitting in the living room with Vanderwood.
-You had been thinking about Vanderwoodâs voice.
-His voice always relaxed you.
-You wondered what his singing voice was like...Â
-So you asked him to sing for you.
-âVanderwood, Iâm curious, are you good at singing?âÂ
-âIâm really not a good singer. â
-âOh come on, Can you sing for me, please?âÂ
-He sighed and sang a song for you.Â
-âThat was amazing, Vandy, Your voice is so relaxing, It could put me to sleepâ You smirked and kissed him on the cheek.Â
-He made a mental note to sing to you more often.
Sup yâall, Wanted to write a fic for Meyrin. She deserves more love in this fandom!
A bit of a spoiler for chapter 157 onwards
The air was calm, calmer than usual, No breeze, just stillness. It was almost erie. You walked the dark cobblestone streets of London with one goal in mind, and that was to assassinate the one known as âOwlâ. You didnât know much about him, All you knew was that he was a sniper and had impeccable sight. You felt the heavy weight of the rifle in your backpack. You grimaced as you slid the uncomfortable strap back onto your shoulder from where it slipped.You sighed as you came to a path leading into a dense forest. Presumably, this path led to the Phantomhive manor. Quickly, you bent down to tie your unruly laces before trudging up the path.Â
A clearing appeared before you, It also happened to lead to a hill with just enough cover. You laid your backpack down before unzipping it and feeling around for your rifle as well as the scope. You had a feeling youâd be out for quite some time. You waited, patiently for some sign of the Owl.Â
It had seemed like a few hours had passed when you saw presumably the maid of the house. She seemed quite clumsy, tripping over her feet. The wicker laundry basket she was carrying flew into the air, all the clean laundry landed around her. You chuckled, If you werenât tasked to kill a member of the household, you would have gone and helped her. She looked quite cute. You sighed out of boredom and leaned back. You dug the photo of âOwlâ out of your backpack. That was when realization set in.Â
Either that maid was eerily close in looks or Owl was posing as a maid. Quickly, you looked through the scope. What you saw made you gasp. The maid had a pistol pointed right in your direction, it looked as if she was calling for someone as well. Panic set in, it was either shoot now, or get shot. You placed your now sweaty finger on the trigger. As you were about to pull it, you were grabbed.Â
âJust what do you think youâre doing?â A male voice spoke, his words sounded sweet, yet laced with venom. You couldnât reply, You were in shock. How the hell did he get to you so fast? You didnât even see him once. You grabbed a pistol out from one of your thigh pouches and pointed it at the manâs head, that was when you got a good look at him. His eyes were an unnatural crimson, His skin was so pale that he almost looked like a walking corpse, His hair, a raven black and he was dressed in a butlerâs uniform.
âI donât think you want to do thatâ He said, pushing the pistol away from his head with a smirk on his face.Â
âWhy donât you come with meâ He forced you to your feet and wrapped his arms around your waist, before running at a superhuman speed in the direction of the manor. Before you could even comprehend what was happening, you were dropped on the floor of what looked like a study.Â
âSebastian, what is this?â You heard a young boy ask.Â
âI have brought you another maid, My Lord.â The butler replied. The young boy sighed.
âI assume she is in the same situation as Meyrinâ You looked at the butler, as he nodded.Â
âShe seems to have been with the chinese mafia as well, Though it seems she was out to kill Meyrin instead of you.â The young boy nodded.Â
âBring her to servant quarters and have her fitted for a uniform.â Your eyes widened, were you seriously being kidnapped just to serve as this kidâs maid? You were brought to a room with one bed, a desk, a dresser and a mirror in the corner. The butler had told you to stay in there while he brought in a second bed. You huffed and sat down on what you assumed was Owlâs bed. You heard quick footsteps coming down the hall. The door swung open, you saw a panicking Meyrin enter. She stopped in her tracks.Â
âYouâre the one who tried to kill me. Why are you here?â
âI was forced to be a maid.â You replied. She gave you a knowing glance, then turned her attention back to her situation. It seemed she spilled tea on herself. You chuckled, her attention turned back to you.Â
âYouâre so clumsy, itâs kind of cute.â You smirked. she nodded trying to hide a light blush.Â
Before long, you had been working at the manor for almost a year. in that time one new person was added as staff, he was a chef, his name was Baldroy. Unfortunately, other than Sebastian, you were the most competent of the servants. It was just another day, you and Meyrin were in the storage room, gathering china for Lord Phantomhive and his guests. You stood on a stepladder while Meyrin was on the ground piling up the boxes of china on the floor. It seemed anytime you were around her, your heart would pound. You handed her the last box.Â
You jumped as a loud crash was heard. Sheâd piled the boxes too high, they had all fell. She also fell along with it.Â
âMeyrin, oh my god, are you ok?â She nodded.Â
âPlease be careful next time, okay?â You stepped down off of the stepladder and took her hands in yours.Â
âI..Iâm so sorryâ You hummed then pulled her into an embrace.Â
âItâs alright, china is replaceable. You, my dear on the other hand are Irreplaceable.â You felt her tense a bit. You had wanted to do this for years, Youâd loved Meyrin since the day you met. You moved out of the embrace slightly and planted a kiss on her lips. She broke the kiss in shock, you could see the realization set in. She then kissed you again.
âI love you Y/Nâ She mumbled against your lips.Â
âI love you too, Meyrinâ
Please, spread this for those who might need it right now
U.S. suicide hotline: call or text 988 (available 24 hours)
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Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) â provides 24/7 confidential support and referrals for individuals and families facing mental health and substance use disorders, including panic attacks and anxiety.
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Take care of yourself and each other. Please stay safe âĄ
Hereâs what Iâm planning on doing:
Firstly, I want to use this as another platform for head canons and short fanfics since wattpad isnât doing too hot lol I plan to start off by reposting my already existing Wattpad headcanons from my Vanderwood X MC HC fanfic.Â
I also want to start doing requests... Iâm gonna mainly focus on Mystic Messenger... Iâll do RFA+Minor trio, RFA+Minor duo, RFA, or specific MM characters.
I will also limit my shitposts... I might make another tumblr strictly for shitposting then delete everything except this post and my masterlist.Â
Could I please request Vanderwood comforting MC after a nightmare? I love everything youâve written for him so far!!! Thank you for giving him the love he deserves!!!
Thanks anon, Iâm really glad you like my work!! Youâre actually my first request, so thank you very much for requesting, I hope you like this one too! :DÂ
-You woke up in a cold sweat, your heart was racing, you had a nightmare.
-It was one of those intense, realistic nightmares, youâd dreamt that the Intelligence Agency had gotten to Vanderwood, they had murdered him right in front of you and were about to kill you when your dream ended.
-Vanderwood had woken up a few minutes before you from you kicking him and screaming.Â
-He was confused at first but soon realized what was going on.Â
-Vandermom mode activated
-âHey, Itâs okay, it was just a nightmareâ
-He wrapped his arms around you, pulling you into his chest.Â
-You violently sobbed.Â
-âIdiot, youâre getting my shirt wetâ He complained making you chuckle slightly.Â
-âSorry, I canât help itâ you replied.Â
-He smiled and kissed your foreheadÂ
-âThatâs okay baby girl, I was kiddingâÂ
-You nuzzled your head into the crook of his neck
-âwant to talk about it or something?âÂ
-you told him about your nightmare.
-âIâm not going anywhere, not for a long while, Everything will be fine babe.âÂ
-you smiled at his response
-You felt yourself being lulled back to sleep from the steady sound of his breathing and heartbeat.Â
-Before you knew it, you were asleep again. This time, you had a pleasant dream.
-Vanderwood watched you sleep for a little while before falling asleep himself.
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