It Struck Me As Odd To See Men Act As Though Women Are Coddled For Their Emotions While Men Are Told

I need people to stop interpreting my fear as regret. Let me feel afraid. Let me have the courage to do what I want and if I become afraid in the process, don’t interpret that as regret and argue I was better off doing something else! I feel afraid very often and if this fear is indeed regret maybe I should kill myself

I am currently very afraid of being stupid and dumb. It’s the worst thing one can be. I’m afraid I’ll dumb down even more I can’t imagine living a life where I’m stupid and dumb and I continue to get more stupid and dumb. It’s my nightmare I need to exercise my brain

There is no desire without fear.

Going through periods of health scares when I notice something about my body and think I’m dying but eventually it turns out to be nothing/normal but nonetheless doesn’t feel less scary each time

Violent thoughts everyday

Wistful ache from morning to noon and sheer violence from noon onward

Assumptions on me

Brain : smooth

Activity: negligible

Read a paper whose research was of the theoretical nature! It appears thermal physics is Very interesting and I must learn about the generalized uncertainty principle and instantons.

Is it just me or is E&M simply not as intuitive as mechanics? Help