Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 4: Sparkle

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 13: SET C - “Blissful Ignorance”

I searched for the warmth I once found in you, but it was so hard to remember. Everytime you rejected me, it left me a little more indifferent and soon, there was nothing else left.

It didn't hurt. How should it, when I couldn't feel at all? Unlike you, I accepted it from the start. I didn't try to fight a fact I wouldn't be able to change.

I accepted it. Just as I soon learned to accept that you would no longer be a part of my existence.

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In order to celebrate the release of KH 2.8, I decided to show you my Foreteller Ira headcanons!

I absolutely love him and I can’t wait to watch KHx backcover and learn more about my beautiful union leader! Even though I don’t like his design in the HD graphics, it looks so much better in khux in my opinion.

… I always thought that, while he doesn’t realize it himself, Ira is the “traitor” who will bring demise to this world through his actions. Not on purpose, but still. I really look forward to see how things actually went down!

Progress - How I got to this point:

Step 1 is a thumbnail. A really quick (30 seconds max) really small (3 x 5 cm; that’s actually too big for an actual thumbnail but pssssht) doodle of what the drawing might look like. I'll often do multiple of them per drawing, trying out different poses and angles.

Step 2 is an anatomical and perspective sketch. I took some reference photos of myself to test out poses. It lended up looking way too stiff (as my initial sketches often do, this is my least favourite step). Also, I decided I wanted Isa to look down.

Step 3 was new for me. I was stuck in a place with only post-its and a pen, so I redrew the picture from memory, focussing more on the flow, but with the anatomy and perspective cues I still had in mind from step 2. This worked SUPER well and I think this will be my new MO from now on. So I guess that makes Step 2 a study actually? Wow, using studies in my art, that sounds so professional.

Step 4 is a big step. I took a photo of step 3 and then worked over it digitally. I worked out the final pose I wanted (mix between step 2 and 3), took some new reference photos, played around with the pattern in the background and the flow. Then I printed it (in twice the size I usually work with) and finally …

Step 5 I traced the printed sketch on the paper I want to use for the colours. This step alone took over TWO HOURS and I fixed some details (like correcting tangents) while working on it. Usually I trace only very lightly, often in a pencil that will smudge into the colours. I don't like working with actual lines, I only add them at the very end of a drawing. But this was when I realized I will have to post the WIP and in order for you to see anything at all I jumped over my shadow and drew over the lines again with different pencils (ranging from scale B to 3H). Which took another 1 1/2 hours. Oof.

And that’s where we are now! <3 Next up is colour, but I won’t get to that anytime soon unfortunately :(

@akusaimonth​ 2022

Prompt: Flowers / Garden

ID in alt. My prompt card is under the cut!

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And the shark it’s got tears and they run down it’s face But the shark lives in the water so the tears are not to be seen

It is lonely in the deep and many a tears are falling And that is how the water in the seas comes to be salty

[Haifisch - Rammstein]

"If I had a heart, this would be where I'd die of laughter." 19 Days left.

Because this is one of my favourite cutscenes. It features: - Naminé. - Naminé blurring. - Saix. - Riku. - Riku's theme. - Saix' superawesome dodging backflip. - Saix being pinned to a wall. - Saix grinning. - Kairi defying Saix basically the same way she defyed Axel and I like every parallel between those two. - Kairi being actually cool. - the image of Saix rolling over the floor laughing his ass off. It's just so wrong.

matrixed007 replied to your photoset “I made myself a little reference sheet for Isa’s new clothes! I’m...”

BLESS YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS RN!!

mattycroker1998 replied to your photoset “I made myself a little reference sheet for Isa’s new clothes! I’m...”

Thanks so much!! Tryna draw him now and I was struggling to get him right :')

thatchaoticgal replied to your photoset “I made myself a little reference sheet for Isa’s new clothes! I’m...”

Bless your soul for doing this ♡ my hero

h31r0fd00m replied to your photoset “I made myself a little reference sheet for Isa’s new clothes! I’m...”

THANK YOU

selfloathingextraordinaire reblogged your photoset and added:

Thank you for this. My brain kept getting confused...

wumbology101 reblogged your photoset and added:

I love this and him.

vatsunara reblogged your photoset and added:

8O

You, as well as everyone who left kind words in the tags (I always read the tags), are all so sweet! Thank you! I’m glad, I could help you out! 

Also:

verysarcasticandhungry reblogged your photoset and added:

I really liked Isa’s getup It’s a great look

Yes, I think so too. <3

AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 14: SET C - “To Be Left”

It was no surprise when you left. When you betrayed me.

Everything I once believed in went away with you. All my schemes, all my plans.

The very last part of me that had still, foolishly, believed

was finally dead.

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AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 8: SET C - “Ultimate Demise”

“So pathetic. Weren’t you trying to protect your friend? Now look what you have done.” “What ... what did you do to Lea?!” “No, the real question is: what did you do?” “What are you talking about! I didn’t do anything.” “Precisely. You just watched as he sacrificed himself. Even now, you do nothing. Aaah ... now, do you really think looking at me with such hateful eyes will bring your precious friend back?” “You killed him.” “Killed him? Dear boy, do you really think, this is what death looks like? No, he’s not dead.” “Then what?!” “Hmhm... Do you wish to see him again? Do you wish to save him? I can bring you to him.”

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AKUSAIMONTH 2015: BERSERK Day 19: SET C - “Crush My Heart”

The first thing I felt was a stinging pain carved in my face.

I touched my cheek with a shaking hand and so the second thing I felt was wet and sticky and warm and it suddenly made me taste iron on my lips.

The third thing I felt was breathing. My own, deep but burning in my chest, and that of another, calm, below me. Another. Another person.

I tried to wipe away the blood from my eyes and moved to lift myself up. It was hard, my whole body felt heavy, but I managed to prop myself up on one arm. And there you were.

Breathing, motionless. I stared at your face. Alive, but unmoving. I tried to say your name, but nothing came out, my lips wet with blood but dry anyway and my throat numb. I didn’t know how long I hovered over you, but it was the realization that I was dripping blood onto your face that finally made me sit back.

I didn’t know why I was bleeding again. I didn’t know why I was lying on the floor or why you were there (asleep? unconscious?). But I realized I did know where I was. My breath started to hitch and I felt my stomach clench as I recognized the room where we had lost our hearts. Where you tried to save me, where I gave in anyway, my heart taken from me and my face carved.

Why were we here?

Did this mean… that it was … over?

Was I... back…? Was I …

Was I me again?

Sometimes as a Nobody I had tried to imagine how it would feel when my heart would be returned. I thought I’d feel relief or maybe even happiness. But in reality all I felt was pain and grief and a horror I couldn’t even place but that gripped me so tightly it blocked out everything else. When tears finally came I didn’t stop them. They burned in the cuts on my cheeks, but I barely felt it. I sat next to your unmoving body and I wept for the first time in years, until finally someone came rushing into the room, screaming your name and taking both of us away.

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That's the place where I live. Looks cute from up there, doesn't it? When I look out of my room's window, I can see up to the exact place I stood when I was taking this photo.

It's nice to see things from a different angle from time to time.