My Comforttsssss Oouuu

so uh, haha... like always... MORE system questions...

holy shit i have terrible memory. also hello, im the 'alter' in this 'system' who thinks I'm faking this.

Atp might as well just call the people in my head imaginary friends. I hate them for being there and would like them to leave. This whole thing causes me so much distress it's actually insane.

So here are some questions I have as a 'questioning system'

Why am I the only one that can still remember how other alters felt during a memory (IF i can recall it)? But it feels like when someone is telling you something and you share their emotion on it (empathy/sympathy i think)

I have terrible memory, I can hardly remember the day unless I think hard on it. Could this be from staying up too late? Usually I go to sleep around 1 am and wake up around 8-9 am, recently ive been waking up at 7 (for an unknown reason)

Is it normal for headmates not to talk to you/or whoever is fronting unless you interact with them first?

Is it normal for switches to be so often? (usually we have 1-2 switches daily now) but it feels like personality+gender/sexuality change only... like the switch is so unnoticeable we don't even realize there was a switch.

Also, does anyone have any resources we can use to research this further? I really hate having to ask people abt this esp since it takes forever to actually get an answer.

JASON (💥) COME BACK... ive noticed lots of things i need you to deny!! /lh lick lick 👅

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y'know what? i think im jst like... depressed or something

-Jason

as a transmasc Jason... yep.

Random goon: Hey boss, were you the one to pick that name as an alias? And why this one?

Red Hood : I used to have another name, before... A long time ago. But that person is dead now. I get to choose for myself now, they can't take that from me. I won't let them.

Goon: Huh.

***

Random Goon: Say boss, why do you never take off your shirt in front of us?

Red Hood: Well uh, I actually have that really fucked scar on my chest and I'm not comfortable with...

Random Goon: Don't worry boss, we get it, you don't have to explain yourself to us.

***

Red Hood, high on some toxin: God, I wish my family...

Random Goon (on boss-sitting duty): why not try reaching out to them?

Red Hood: They would never accept me as I am now... They wouldn't agree with my so-called "life choices". Besides, they don't miss me, they miss the person they think I used to be... I wasn't even a man when I last saw them.

Random Goon: Damn boss, that sucks.

***

And then the goons throw the Red Hood a party on trans visibility day and Jason is so confused he straight up cries.

lil vent

we're so scared of being fake, fakeclaiming ourselves on a daily basis. what if we're actually not a system? we switch way too often and get blurry+blended even more. Sharing memories, and not having drastic switches is making us go crazy. We have hardly any barriers between each other so it gets really hard to differentiate each other plus we have terrible memory, so it could just be that we genuinely don't remember something rather than have emotional amnesia

we can't even really remember our trauma completely either

i feel like we keep zoning out (especially when talking to ourself!!!) and it's really annoying cause like... where'd all the time go, also why does this happen?

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i like the idea that red hood is to crime alley what daredevil is to hell's kitchen in the dd comics. in the way that:

Jason: *in full red hood gear, walking through an alley* homeless man next to him: hey, todd. how's patrol? jason: *grinning under his helmet* i don't know if you need new glasses---or maybe a memory boost, jimmy---but the todd kid is dead. i, obviously, am not. homeless man: *snickers* yeah sure, sure, jason

Jason: *walking down the street in civvies* passerby: hey! hood! i have some info for you, drug deal goin' on 'round the docks jason: *raises brow* yeah? well, i ain't hood . . . but i'll take that info to him if ya want. he patrols near my apartment passerby: you keep tellin' yourself that, dude

batman: have you seen the criminal Red Hood? crime alley resident: *lighting a cigarette, making continual eye contact with batman* I'm blind. haven't seen anyone batman: *examines the woman* obviously not. you can see me just fine crime alley resident: ya ain't ever heard of selective vision impairment? it's totally a thing batman:

little girl: hey, hood. th' cops were lookin' fer ya jason: hmm. what did ya tell 'em? little girl: t' stick it where th' sun don't shine jason: *high-fives her* i'm going to buy you an entire toy store, kid

jason genuinely says stuff like this... he goes through the "i hate people who use slang" to "skibidi slicers sigma alpha"

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Skibidi die.

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