You’re A Candle In The Window On A Cold, Dark Winter’s Night 

You’re a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter’s night 

Somebody sent me a prompt for ‘Don’t you own any Christmas decorations’ and I can’t remember who cos tumblr ate the ask! So whoever it was, this is for you! <3

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“Morning.”

Tony looks up from his coffee, giving Peter a smile as he shuffles into the kitchen. “Morning, Underoos. Sleep okay?”

Peter wiggles his hand in a so-so gesture as he slips into a seat at the counter. “Managed a few hours.”

Tony nods, grateful for the honesty in a way that he knows Peter can sense. “Dreams again?”

“Not really,” Peter shrugs his shoulders, “just…couldn’t sleep.”

It’s hardly the worst thing in the world. There’s plenty of reasons why it can happen; something as simple as napping too long in the day or worrying about something that will ultimately be alright in the end.

But this isn’t like that.

Tony knows what it’s like to be haunted, to be stretched so far between the space of restless and exhausted, and he can see the same stains of it all over Peter’s face, the way it presses into his shoulders and knots his posture. 

It’s inconsistent. Sometimes a light shines through the darkness; a smile here, a real laugh there, a sassy remark that has Tony raising his eyebrows and chuckling in relief to hear it. 

And then sometimes, like today, the darkness surrounds Peter like trick glass, trying to taint him a shade of convincing that doesn’t quite fool Tony’s gaze. 

Peter meets his eyes as Tony goes for another sip of coffee. 

“It’s…uh, it’s the first of December today.”

Tony stills for a second, just enough for his coffee to gently splash against his lips and trickle into his goatee. 

The first of December. 

How could he not have noticed? How did he not realise it was approaching? He’d just last week gone over a ridiculous amount of dates with Pepper for meetings, conventions and galas that he would in no way be attending, and somehow this had completely slipped his attention. 

The first of December means that it’s been four months since Peter moved in. 

Four months since May collapsed in the middle of the tinned food aisle at the grocery store. 

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5 years ago

I‘m crying about this

i feel cheated with that ending and with the movie in general. They didn't show tony's grief for peter at all! they made him move on and they only put that one scene we already saw on the spot. i'm so mad with the writers for this!

Hi!

I’m going to respond only on this ask because I’m guessing you’re the same anon because the other asks say the same thing. 

First of all, I want to say this: I feel you. I really do. I’m mad too. However, I’ve watched this movie too many times and I managed to pick up on some things about Tony’s grief throughout Endgame. While I agree they should’ve put more of Tony’s grief on Endgame, I think RDJ made a great job at showing Tony’s emotions regarding Peter. This man is so talented with his eyes and expressions, it’s incredible. 

Let’s look at Tony’s fears first. This is the man that constantly feared for Peter’s life on a daily basis since meeting him. He lived with this fear of losing him for two years of his life.

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And his fears became a reality in IW. He lost. This is Tony Stark, he doesn’t give up. He tries and tries and he never rests until he gets things done. Until everything is alright. In this movie, he actually gives up. After losing Peter, he finally gave up. This is where the “Peter’s death is going to change him forever” comes to play. He changed.

Throughout IW, Tony went fear after fear, impact after impact on each scene. He was living a never-ending nightmare. One that he already had an idea on how it was going to end.

 Remember this scene? Strange told Tony that If it comes to saving him or the kid or the Time Stone, he wasn’t going to hesitate to let either of them die. And this is Tony’s reaction:

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(YES, I actually made gifs for this)

He knows what’s at stake. He doesn’t really care about his life, he’s thinking about Peter here. He’s aware that Peter might die and right after this, he makes the kid an avenger because what else can he do? And the rest of the movie is just like that. Him fearing for Peter’s life over and over again. 

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Until Peter actually dies at the end and his worst nightmare comes true. Keep in mind that this is the first time we see Tony Stark cry. This is the first time this man cries after all the things he’s been through.

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Now, the first thing he says after he comes back is “I lost the kid”. Tony, again, didn’t care about his well-being, he was thinking about Peter. Thinking and repeating in his head the horrific nightmare over and over again. This is exactly what was on his mind the whole time he was on that ship. He desperately looks at Steve, trying to make him understand his loss. 

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Notice here how he avoids looking at Peter’s picture. This right here is what triggers him to lash out on Steve, to call Steve a liar, telling him he needed him and that he doesn’t have any options for him anymore because they lost. Because he lost. Because he feels like there’s nothing left to do. 

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He then marries Pepper and ta-da! Morgan. He cuts ties with the Avengers for 5 years and tries to live his life as peaceful as he can. Then Scott and the others come to his house and ask him for help with time travel stuff and Tony is in perpetual denial the whole time. This is his reaction when Natasha says there’s a possibility to bring everyone back.

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What is interesting for me in this scene is that Tony is the one that told Steve that he lost Peter and in this part, he’s telling him that he’s got his second chance right here (Morgan), who do you think it was his first chance? Peter. He’s looking at Steve like he’s trying to make him understand. He told Steve he lost someone with as much importance as Morgan already and is very clear that he’s scared. Natasha said it herself. 

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Then this happens: 

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He starts getting hope. Since this part, he starts letting that same fear he felt those two years between hoco and iw come back. This is his reaction at the prospect of actually getting an opportunity once again. 

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Then he tells Pepper about it and she tells him they were really lucky and that not many people got that opportunity and he says this: “I can’t help everyone” which can easily translate to this = “I couldn’t help him, I failed him”. 

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He then tells Pepper that he can stop it right there and I just want to say, this is Pepper, the same woman who tried to make him give up the suits and the superhero life a bunch of times. This is coming from her: “But would you be able to rest?” I bet he hasn’t really slept much in those 5 years. And the answer is on his face:

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No, he won’t be able to rest. He can’t.

And then throughout the whole process of time travel, you can see he’s starting to get his hopes up. This is him when Clint confirmed that time travel worked: 

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And this: This breaks my heart. This hopeful smile.

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This is him when he managed to get the stones on his gauntlet. The relief on his face is heartbreaking. He is getting his boy back. Finally. They’re so close.

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This part is very important and you might not see it well in here but maybe when the HD version is available you might be able to catch on his expression. When Thanos says he’s going to create a new world, one teeming with life that knows not what it has lost but only what it has been given. A grateful universe. The contempt, the rage, the grief, and the fear are back at full force. This is the alien that killed his kid, the last time Tony saw him Thanos wiped out his kid out of existence. 

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Then after EVERYTHING, he finally gets his kid back and he can’t even believe it. And no, it was not necessary to kill him but this is the face of a man that knows he can finally rest. He got Peter back and that was the most important thing to him.

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Sorry, this was long but this is my interpretation of Tony’s grief. We didn’t get much but he loves Peter and that never is going to change. 

3 years ago

I am crying. I’m definitely crying.

So I saw No Way Home again, and there’s this scene where Peter and Stephen first meet in the Sanctum that doesn’t get talked about enough.

Peter: I’m really sorry if I wasted your time.

Stephen: You didn’t…

Just the way Stephen says that line drives home the the idea that not only did he genuinely want to help Peter, but he also wanted Peter to feel like he can trust him and to still come to him when he needs help. This and the insistence of not being called “sir” really shows just how much Stephen has softened himself around Peter.

7 years ago
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7 years ago

Carry On My Wayward Son (lullaby Version) 

4 years ago

Words cannot describe how I feel about this (and how true this is) 😍😩😍

Bucky really went from a cranky scowling old man who never smiles to that Cool (gay) uncle who pulls up 2 hours late to the family cookout with sunglasses, cake and level 100 swagger

Bucky Really Went From A Cranky Scowling Old Man Who Never Smiles To That Cool (gay) Uncle Who Pulls
Bucky Really Went From A Cranky Scowling Old Man Who Never Smiles To That Cool (gay) Uncle Who Pulls

Now that's character development

4 weeks ago

YEESSSS!! 😩😩

And then you’re so excited about all your new ideas but you’re also so frustrated!! ☹️

What they don't tell you about writing is that as you write, you discover scenes and entire plots that you hadn't accounted for that need to be written. So you can spend two hours writing and editing only to realise you're further away from the finish line than you thought you were when you started


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7 years ago

In the most graphic of details What is the cockliest cocklesy cockles you've seen or heard about? Take your time. I'll sit here waiting in anticipation:)

OH GOD ANOTHER ANCIENT ASK DRAFTED *seppuku*

I know why I drafted this one, though. It’s TOO FREAKIN’ DIFFICULT!!! How am I even supposed to attempt to answer this? I hope you’re happy for I’m being tortured here!!

But then again it serves me right for forgetting about this ask entirely…

Anyway… I think I’ve mentioned this before, but I prefer the small stuff. Like, moments that are completely instinctive and come so naturally to either of them (although Jensen is the first who comes to mind when it comes to being careless about that stuff xD), that they cannot control themselves and then when they realize what they’ve done, they try to cover it up, but poorly haha

I don’t think I can pick only one. But here are the cockliest ones I can think of right off the top of my head. Be prepared for some horrible feels. (I really do hope you’re still following me because I’m about to go through some serious pain here)

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This one, when Jensen was SO FED UP with Sera’s bullshit about Cas and Misha, that he actually used sarcasm and broke his ever cool, ever professional public persona. It’s not, you know, a BIG one, such as the groping and grinding and all, but it seems so significant to me for some reason. And his expressions during the whole bullshit talk are priceless btw.

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The way Jensen says hey when Misha interrupts his interview and Misha’s cute little thing he does aND THE LITTLE SHRUG OH GOD SAVE ME

(and when you compare it to Jensen’s reaction to Jared interrupting his interview the same day…

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… yeah)

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The way Jensen was keeping an eye on Misha the whole time he was dancing. So cute. And not that obvious either. Like, I spotted him looking at Misha in the first gif only after staring at the gifset for like ten minutes hahaha, It’s so brief, but you can tell it’s not a coincidence and that his eyes are glued to him xD

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OF COURSE I have to mention the almost kiss. And Jensen holding Misha with the hand that holds the microphone… And totally resting his head on Misha’s shoulder. I mean…. Wow!!

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Just….. I have no words for this gif, and I don’t think I need to have any, it speaks for itself. I’ll hate it till the day I die. Thanks for making me look at it again. Really. Thanks.

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Of course, the “hahahah Misha I love you so much must touch you oops touch you for too long abort abort solution: clap oh wait no abort not clapping moment touch mouth pretend nothing happened errr awkward” moment in which Jensen is a dork in love and Misha is the composed one realizing he shouldn’t give it too much attention because Jensen already was making it painfully obvious for everyone with eyes. Truly precious <3

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THIS little gem we REALLY need high quality video of *sigh* One of the famous reasons the cockles fandom gets frustrated when on cockles sprees *sigh followed by more sigh*

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This one that makes it look like they’re hiding something. Which they are, I guess. But not doing a very good job of it. Fuckers.

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HAHAHAHAHAHHA no. I hate this one with passion. It’s one of the worst things I’ve ever seen and I was going out of my mind the whole day after I first saw it. Do not watch the video, okay? You can FEEL Misha being caught off guard. It’s GROSS and not recommended for people with weak hearts. Or people with strong hearts. It’s forbidden for everyone actually.

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The way Jensen smiles when Misha looks at him and touches him and just leans on his hand… NOPE

Right about now I would mention the one when Misha comes on stage unexpectedly with Felicia Day and Jensen LOOSES it and Jared’s like “Oh you pathetic lovesick puppy” BUT I’m not going to because I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned it in EVERY single one of my cockles posts so yeah, I’m gonna skip it this time. I just though I should at least mention how much I hate that moment.

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This one messes with my heart rate in a serious way. The way Jensen steppes back and just, okay, listen that is TOO quick of a reaction to be an act okay. THAT was instinct. THAT was Jensen. And the way Misha looks so fucking pleased about it, I can’t process that. I just can’t.

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This is actually my favorite cockles moment. I mean, you don’t look down if you get caught looking at a friend. I mean, you can’t even really get caught looking at a friend because you don’t need to do it secretly. So, yeah, this is one of the moments that make me scream internally. Fuck you two. Fuck you so very much.

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Yeah. I know. I hate it too. U just wish Jensen didn’t have to be on stage with Misha, since he HATES him so much. #pray4jensen

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Misha warning Jensen to STOP FLIRTING SO OPENLY by side glancing at him. I find this so precious because WOW. Jensen was going STRONG and then Misha probably just did that so he could tell Jensen he was going overboard. It’s too PRECIOUS REALLY. And then Jensen just walked away, smiling awkwardly. Love it.

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Ladies and gentlemen, may I present to you “Did I just cup Misha’s face and playfully pushed him away on stage in front of all these people?” starring Jensen Ackles.

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Still don’t know what to make of this. Like ??????????? I don’t mind when my knee is touching a friend’s, but I don’t adjust my leg so that would happen. ??????

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I have a few problems with this moment.

Misha saying “we get a tingly feeling so we know it’s you”

Misha’s face while saying “we get a tingly feeling so we know it’s you”

Jensen’s reaction to Misha saying “we get a tingly feeling so we know it’s you”

Misha’s reaction to Jensen’s reaction to “we get a tingly feeling so we know it’s you”

WE GET A TINGLY FEELING SO WE KNOW IT’S YOU

???????????????????????????

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Jensen watching Misha interact with kids. BIG PROBLEM.

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You know what, I HATE this panel. With PASSION.

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This is before Misha says WE get a TINGLY FEELING so we know it’s you, it’s when the fan plays the song, BUT, since it actually causes more pain than that moment, I decided to leave it for last. I can go and cry myself to death now. Goodbye world.

P.S. I’m SO sorry for replying so late. I know you said to take my time but I don’t think you meant over 2 months xD I just hope you’re still around to see it. I mean, I don’t think you’re dead, just maybe you’re not following me anymore. If you do see it, I hope you like it!!! :)

5 years ago

Love this 😍😂

throwback to this absolutely iconic and chaotic vid of chris and tom roasting the hell out of each other

6 years ago

Wow... this is absolutely perfect ☝🏻

Why the SPN mixtape scene from 12x19 is screenwriting gold, and should be taught to the next generations of screenwriters everywhere - analysis

20 seconds. Two lines of dialogue, three gestures, a couple more camera angles. Episode 19, season 12 of a genre TV show “Supernatural”. A single strike of screenwriting and cinematic genius. The mixtape scene.

Robert Berens and Meredith Glynn, I bow before you.

This scene should be used as an example for future screenwriters how you can put maximum of meaning into minimal time and dialogue. Should be analyzed and taught at universities everywhere, how to achieve the most using the least. How to write for TV, where you only have less than an hour to built something spectacular.

WOW.

Let’s just peel off all the layers of these 20 seconds of footage and these 13 words. 13 WORDS.

(Cas knocks, Dean doesn’t say anything. Cas opens the door, apologizes for disturbing Dean in his room, and then takes a cassette tape out of his left inside coat pocket, and puts it on the desk, while tapping the label on it that says “Deans (sic!) top 13 Zepp traxx”.)

Cas: Um, I just wanted to return this.

Dean: It’s a gift. You keep those.

13 tracks. 13 words. The future. So number thirteen is important for the future. I mean, are you trying to tell us something here, writers?

(Dean takes the tape, oustreches his arm, and gives it back to Cas. We see Cas’ hand grabbing the tape, and taking it back.)

That tiny scene is ENORMOUS from the perspective of the narrative and the characterization. Let’s see what we can get out of it. (Prepare yourself: it’s gonna be long. Damn, how much meta can you write based on 20 seconds of television and two lines of dialogue?) (Hint: A lot.)

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9 months ago

J-I-M-K-I-R-K [the kirk chappell roan edit]

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