I'm Stupid....and Want To Die...

L☹VE

Bash in my brain

And make scream with pain

Then kick me once again

And say we’ll never part

I know too well

Im underneath your spell

So darling if you smell

Something burning

It’s my heart~

Take your cigarette from its holder

And burn your initials in my shoulder

Fracture my spine

And swear that you’re mine

As we dance to the

Masochism Tango!

It comes in waves. Anger, then sadness, anxiety then anger again.

All I can do is lay in bed by myself and isolate.

I dont really have a right to push everyone away and then lament that im hurting and lonely.

I just..........

Oh well..

6/29/19

2am

3lbs down in a week

300c for dinner

Half a bowl smoked,

played saints row for hours to numb my mind

So tired, but slept over 12 hours

So tired. Gonna attempt a 24 hour fast today

I feel alone no matter what I do

me: Ok brain. We need to be moving on. We can’t keep hyper fixating on someone not interested in us like that. It's not good. It's hurting us. BPD brain: You’re right. Understandable. Request considered.  Youtube: -Plays an emotional bop- Me: O h n o MDD:  did somebody ask for ♥ r o m a n t i c ♥ d a y d r e a m s ♥ ? Me: Wai tno  please dont do it MDD: -Does it- BPD: You know what. When you put it that way. Request denied. Me: 💕 💕 💕🎀  𝐹𝓊𝒸𝓀  🎀 💕 💕 💕  *Smitten*

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