•suicidal•

Suicide attempt or just a fuck up?

Who knows.

i can’t stop

opportunity.

Me: multiple chronic illnesses with a wide span of symptoms.

Abled Person: have you tried yoga?

AP: gluten free?

AP: therapy? mindfulness?

AP: exercise?

AP: very expensive trial treatments?

Me: yes, none of it works.

…

AP: well I guess you just don’t WANT to get better then.

irony: having to leave my house in order to get therapy for agoraphobia

I only want human contact from the person I’m attached to…other than that I’d rather be alone.

If I live through my 20s, I’ll genuinely be surprised

brainfog rituals

Entering a Room Meditation

1. enter room

2. press hands together

3. lift fingertips to lips

4. exhale

5. close eyes

6. pause

7. what the fuck am I doing here