Irony: Having To Leave My House In Order To Get Therapy For Agoraphobia

I can’t look at the night sky the same anymore. It makes me sad that It only makes me think about her and you. 

I think its time to find a new world with a new sky.

What even am I to him? I’m tired of the questioning. Im just going to give up I guess. He’ll never love me the same way. Im just going to settle for my ex and forget any feelings I have for him. Im tired of being lonely and confused and unloved, my daydreams have become hell knowing it will never be real. Im done.

Love doesnt exist.

There is no specific amount of time a switch can take. Some systems switch in a split second, some switch within 30 seconds, a minute, five minutes, or even hours! It all depends on the system and the reason for the switch.

-Casper

7/2/19

10:20pm

6lbs down in a week so far, pretty excited about that.

370c for dinner, the only meal I eat.

Half a bowl smoked,

In such a weird fucking mindset today, I don't understand. I don't understand this feeling in my chest. What are you trying to tell me?

Slept 5 hours today, but not very good.

My mother is talking to and potentially dating a man I'm not very fond of, I hate it.

What is this fucking feeling engulfing me? 

Your daughters do not exist to give you grandchildren

Nervous af

I have an important doctors appointment in like 6 hours. I have not slept. Been drinking wine off and on all night. Hhhh.... So nervous. So nervous so nervous. Anxious and scared. I just want to message him and have him comfort me but hes sleeping and I know hes only had a few hours but..HNG.. I need someone.

I somehow managed to i think dislocate my finger joint and I had to fix it myself and it fuckin ghurt. All I did was open a stupi dplasic thing and my finger was like lol fuck you too 

hiding secrets in the wishing well