Why Is This My Top Post Vro

aghhhhh i woke up sick to my stomach... why must the universe torture me like this?

anyway i had a really freaky dream but i can't remember it </3 i'll update tumblr if i do

Goofy ahh semi-serious rant

The main reason I don't really talk about my attraction to men is that I don't really want attention from them on here. At least cis men. They're usually just selfish or think that they're owed something that they're not. To anyone reading this, you don't have to give anybody (especially pushy men) any of your time and attention.

Don't get me wrong, I love men!

...irl, at least. I've only dated men/masc people irl. Although a couple were almost completely online but they were not sexual.

It's just that women (and trans men ofc) are usually FAR more patient and respectful. There are exceptions of course, as there are with any sweeping generalizations, I'm just speaking from experience and what I've seen from a lot of people on here.

Long story short, men be cautious while interacting. Here, there, anywhere. 90% of the time you won't even get what you want. Be a kind and interesting person FIRST AND FOREMOST. Sexual stuff is fine, but that's not what a majority of people want all the time.

Sorry if I said anything unintentionally offensive, I'm really terrible at wording my thoughts in contexts like this. Ask for clarification if necessary :3

Rant over

need more women in my inbox and dms

MOMMY? MA’AM? MISTRESS? MISS? WHERE ARE YOU ?!???

and i also want to BE this person ugh

i want to show someone how much i love them in every single facet of the word. i want to manipulate them like a puppet on a string and turn them into my perfect, ideal person.

i'm smart enough to know how to do it, too :)

ughhh crazy and obsessive people my beloved

tell me you're not going to let anyone else even talk to me, condition me to believe that it's okay and that you're all i need

follow me home to "make sure i get home alright" and then look through my windows just to "double check"

send me texts and voicemails about nothing in particular because you just want to talk to me

threaten to hurt me or yourself if you even start to suspect that i'm going to leave you

tell other people that they can't talk to me, spread rumors saying stuff about me so that i'm all yours

hurt them when you see that they're still trying

and if i finally start to realize what you're doing, maybe you just need to take more drastic measures :3

i wish i was better at dirty talk

i wish i was better at explaining exactly what i want to do to/with someone

i wish i was better at actually going through on my mental plans

i wish i was a little bit taller, i wish i was a baller

i wish i had a girl who looked good, i would call her

i'm bored and i wanna answer boring questions :3

(PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TALK TO ME!!! or don't it's okay either way <3)

nosy anons let's go

0: Height

1: Age

2: Shoe size

3: Do you smoke?

4: Do you drink?

5: Do you take drugs?

6: Age you get mistaken for

7: Have tattoos?

8: Want any tattoos?

9: Got any piercings?

10: Want any piercings?

11: Best friend?

12: Relationship status

13: Biggest turn ons

14: Biggest turn offs

15: Favorite movie

16: I’ll love you if…

17: Someone you miss

18: Most traumatic experience

19: A fact about your personality

20: What I hate most about myself

21: What I love most about myself

22: What I want to be when I get older

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

25: My idea of a perfect date

26: My biggest pet peeves

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

30: What I hate the most about work/school

31: What my last text message says

32: What words upset me the most

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

34: What I find attractive in women

35: What I find attractive in men

36: Where I would like to live

37: One of my insecurities

38: My childhood career choice

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

40: Who I wish I could be

41: Where I want to be right now

42: The last thing I ate

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

44: A random fact about anything

update (don't have names for them rn)

my minecraft pets

their names are lard and coconut oil :3

i'm gonna try to get more like parrots and stuff

older woman with tattoos/piercings who gets me drunk/high save me

save me older woman with tattoos/piercings who gets me drunk/high

silly scenario that i'm writing late at night in like 15 minutes. prob won't make sense.

family friend who stops by the house every couple of weeks to hang out with my parents

i've always thought she looked so cool, ever since i was a little kid... so pretty, she has cool hair, cool piercings, listens to cool music... everything about her is just so... cool! i want to be just like her.

she's always had a soft spot for me, always gave me praise when i was working hard on my schoolwork, gave me hugs and care like she was my real aunt or something.

she's always a bit handsy, grabbing my shoulders, holding my hand, ruffling my hair... but i'm too oblivious to notice. she slowly ramps up her touches, day by day, giving me so much praise to make me feel good and special... and then one day, she walks into my room after breaking away from my parents for a single moment and asks if i want her to make me feel even better.

the thought of feeling good, of spending even more time with her, fills me with joy. i eagerly agree, of course.

she asks me all sorts of weird questions like "do you find girls pretty?", "have you kissed any of them?", "do you think i'm pretty?" and the answers are all simple. yes, no, yes. she smirks when she hears the latter two.

she leans in a little bit closer, her eyes boring into my own with a sense of pride before they flicker down to my lips. before i can even say any more words, she closes the gap between our mouths, giving me my first kiss with the person i've always had a secret crush on. i hear about how this kind of thing is wrong, but it feels really good! after all, she's always so nice to me.

as the kiss deepens, my inexperienced lips struggle to keep up. i feel her tongue brushing up against the seam of my lips but she appears to think better of it and gently breaks the kiss with a gasp, our mouths still connected by a string of saliva. she smiles softly and whispers in my ear, asking me if it felt good. i nod eagerly, my cheeks flushed a deep shade of pink, as she stands back up fully as if nothing weird happened.

she tells me that if i want to do more of that, it'll have to wait for a while because she spends so much time with my parents. and she reminds me that i'm not allowed to tell anyone about this, that it'll be our little secret.

i nod in agreement, so excited to be doing grown-up stuff with someone as pretty as her. i tell her that my parents are going out on a date tomorrow night so we can continue it then. the thought of being truly alone with me seems to strike a chord within her, but she quickly buries it with a caring smile and agrees.

and as quickly as the moment came, she leaves my room with a soft click, leaving me wondering if that really happened. but i guess that i can only look forward to tomorrow night, hoping i really get to see her again with a ch1ldlik3 wonder and anticipation in my chest.